Feeling kind of bad today. I cried in class. I try so hard to stifle my tears but I could feel my face getting red hot and accidentally let some tears roll down before wiping them. Thankfully, I sat at the last row so I hope people didn't notice. I'm not sure what caused me to cry, because I didn't cry the last time I came to class. I think it's because I got tired of being around people, especially strangers. I'm an introvert so derive no pleasure from being around people in general. Rather, I feel my energy being drained.
I'm not kidding when I say that a mere greeting from someone can cause me to cry. This actually happened several years ago. I was sitting in the hallway of a school, typing on my laptop, expecting people to leave me alone. Then, some woman came over to me and spoke with me. She asked me where I got that bag and I said I got it from my former school. Then she said she's seen it before, blah blah blah, and finally left me alone. Afterwards, I search for an empty bathroom and cried in there.
What happened today was similar to the above. We had to form teams and we had to introduce ourselves to each other. I had several people speak and shake hands with me. I also heard someone laughing. People were talking everywhere. Then I started crying silently. At first, I did not realize it, until I feel the tears. It was awkward because I'm trying to stifle my tears but I also want to run out of the classroom but I can't because of my SA. So I sat glued to my chair, hoping no one noticed my crying.
No one bullied me today, so I'm pretty sure bullying did NOT cause my crying. I'm not sure why I cried, but I think being around strangers and interacting with them is a factor.
I'm not kidding when I say that a mere greeting from someone can cause me to cry. This actually happened several years ago. I was sitting in the hallway of a school, typing on my laptop, expecting people to leave me alone. Then, some woman came over to me and spoke with me. She asked me where I got that bag and I said I got it from my former school. Then she said she's seen it before, blah blah blah, and finally left me alone. Afterwards, I search for an empty bathroom and cried in there.
What happened today was similar to the above. We had to form teams and we had to introduce ourselves to each other. I had several people speak and shake hands with me. I also heard someone laughing. People were talking everywhere. Then I started crying silently. At first, I did not realize it, until I feel the tears. It was awkward because I'm trying to stifle my tears but I also want to run out of the classroom but I can't because of my SA. So I sat glued to my chair, hoping no one noticed my crying.
No one bullied me today, so I'm pretty sure bullying did NOT cause my crying. I'm not sure why I cried, but I think being around strangers and interacting with them is a factor.
