Opaline
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:/ if that was because of me I'm really sorry
but I won't be around for a while anyway so no more sad posts from me! hahaIf it was someone else then just ignore this post
How are you feeling?
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:/ if that was because of me I'm really sorry
but I won't be around for a while anyway so no more sad posts from me! hahaIf it was someone else then just ignore this post
twiggle
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Yep I know what you mean.
I don't think there is enough general awareness about suicide, tbh. 2nd biggest cause of death in some spheres.
What does that say about today's world? Why do so many people find life so dissatisfying?
I can guess what the possible answers may include. I can't pretend that I feel the same way. But I acknowledge it and I think it's incredibly alarming.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
I've been better, tae tell ye the truth.
Feel as though am runnin' on autopilot maist o' the time.
Feel as though am runnin' on autopilot maist o' the time.
MikeyC
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With seven billion people on Earth, it's hard to satisfy everyone. :thumbdown:
The one carved up to look like a clipper ship? Yes! It was lovely! :thumbup:
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Guilty, lonely.
dottie
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just need to vent somewhere in the world.
work's been better because i know the ropes now but it is still stressful. the open-office environment grates. my supervisor (who is a total c-word, and i don't use that word lightly) sits across from me monitoring my every move. not because i give her reason to... just because she is a c___ like that. she has her moments where she can play nice but it's unconvincing when her authentic-c___-self dominates the majority of the time.
she does it in phases. she oscillates between giving me grief for two weeks, then giving my other coworker grief for the next two weeks. this is usually dependent on if someone makes her look good or puts her out. for example, my coworker needed two sick days because she was puking her guts out. my supervisor gave her a major guilt trip for it because she had to cover for my coworker (although, i then covered all of my supervisor's work!)... even though she is legally [and humanely] entitled to the sick days. i find that disgusting. how would you like to be sick as a dog for two days? then come back to some conniving b**** who makes you feel guilty for it. so, my coworker was sick like 2 or 3 weeks ago and now my supervisor is finally warming up to her again. when i say "warming up," it is on a total superficial level and is prone to being revoked at any moment, replaced with haughty sighs, dark mumbling under her breath, and general passive-aggressive bull.
her passive-aggressive crap has lightened over the year i've been there but it is still there. it's hard to stomach in an open-office environment. i do not appreciate people dumping their dark, heinous energy on me, especially when i have nothing to shield it and no escape. her chair faces me directly. all day. every day. i wish i had my own office. it would be so much better.
this said, some days are better than others. she made sure this was a bad one. c___.
my first impression of her within the first 30 seconds i met her one year ago was 100% accurate.
work's been better because i know the ropes now but it is still stressful. the open-office environment grates. my supervisor (who is a total c-word, and i don't use that word lightly) sits across from me monitoring my every move. not because i give her reason to... just because she is a c___ like that. she has her moments where she can play nice but it's unconvincing when her authentic-c___-self dominates the majority of the time.
she does it in phases. she oscillates between giving me grief for two weeks, then giving my other coworker grief for the next two weeks. this is usually dependent on if someone makes her look good or puts her out. for example, my coworker needed two sick days because she was puking her guts out. my supervisor gave her a major guilt trip for it because she had to cover for my coworker (although, i then covered all of my supervisor's work!)... even though she is legally [and humanely] entitled to the sick days. i find that disgusting. how would you like to be sick as a dog for two days? then come back to some conniving b**** who makes you feel guilty for it. so, my coworker was sick like 2 or 3 weeks ago and now my supervisor is finally warming up to her again. when i say "warming up," it is on a total superficial level and is prone to being revoked at any moment, replaced with haughty sighs, dark mumbling under her breath, and general passive-aggressive bull.
her passive-aggressive crap has lightened over the year i've been there but it is still there. it's hard to stomach in an open-office environment. i do not appreciate people dumping their dark, heinous energy on me, especially when i have nothing to shield it and no escape. her chair faces me directly. all day. every day. i wish i had my own office. it would be so much better.
this said, some days are better than others. she made sure this was a bad one. c___.
my first impression of her within the first 30 seconds i met her one year ago was 100% accurate.
Srijita52
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I understand, it must be really frustrating. I'm sorry you have to deal with that.
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MikeyC
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Yeah, I agree with that. Some people do think they are the absolute authority on everything, bar none. It's a bad, bad trait.
I sometimes wonder; what if you were to transfer a person from the stone age to this time, give him or her all the most basic modern benefits which nearly all of us have, and then ask what his/her opinion is on people being dissatisfied with their life.
Srijita52
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If you want to talk I'm right here. I hope you feel better after a good sleep.
Yep, I totally agree with you.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Overwhelmed. Incredibly lonely. And underminded... that just about sums it up. Actually, tae tell ya the truth, it's worse than that. But then that's nothin' new fur me, I should be use tae it, really.
I mean, I should be use tae the fact that ma family rip the piss outta me aw the time. Oh, a laugh at expense of the youngest, and only male sibling - great innit?! Aye! F**kin' hysterical! He'll no take it, personally. Since he's too nice tae actually tell ye what he thinks. Him, with the anti-social tendencies!
It's nae wonder I don't talk more. Since am constantly underminded. But then what is the point, anyway, when naebody take ye seriously? :kickingmyself: :sarcastic:
Come tae think o' it... Nae wonder am so lackin' in the self-confidence and self-esteem department. I mean, having been raised in an all female household by a single mother who's militant view on gender "equality" amount to female terrorism or feminism, to give the correct title (a wee touch o' satire, there) :bigsmile: But, anyway, I don't think it's just a concidence I've turned out the way I have. :sad:
Because, see when ye get right doon tae it, am just angry, frightened, idiotic, self-loathing individual. I know, hard tae believe... but I cannae help feelin' the way I do, sometimes.
Eh... sorry for the rant, by the way. Just needed tae vent ma feelings.
I mean, I should be use tae the fact that ma family rip the piss outta me aw the time. Oh, a laugh at expense of the youngest, and only male sibling - great innit?! Aye! F**kin' hysterical! He'll no take it, personally. Since he's too nice tae actually tell ye what he thinks. Him, with the anti-social tendencies!
It's nae wonder I don't talk more. Since am constantly underminded. But then what is the point, anyway, when naebody take ye seriously? :kickingmyself: :sarcastic:
Come tae think o' it... Nae wonder am so lackin' in the self-confidence and self-esteem department. I mean, having been raised in an all female household by a single mother who's militant view on gender "equality" amount to female terrorism or feminism, to give the correct title (a wee touch o' satire, there) :bigsmile: But, anyway, I don't think it's just a concidence I've turned out the way I have. :sad:
Because, see when ye get right doon tae it, am just angry, frightened, idiotic, self-loathing individual. I know, hard tae believe... but I cannae help feelin' the way I do, sometimes.
Eh... sorry for the rant, by the way. Just needed tae vent ma feelings.
Srijita52
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I'm sorry you've to go through all that Graeme. I wish I could say something more helpful. *hugs*
Section_31
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-.-
Seeing a very painful fork in the road in my life 2 to 3 yrs from now. Somthing that may be averted.....but its for my own well being...but it will severely hurt someone else.....and i dont want it to come to that -.-
Im a b***ard. and i hate myself today.
Seeing a very painful fork in the road in my life 2 to 3 yrs from now. Somthing that may be averted.....but its for my own well being...but it will severely hurt someone else.....and i dont want it to come to that -.-
Im a b***ard. and i hate myself today.
Section_31
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4.41am pissed off chicken starts screaming because a hedge hog was bothering it, and me being the only one up i had to go rescue it & walk half way down the road to drop the hedge hog off on the neighbor's property in the pitch dark and it's cold.
and i feel alone
LOL, sorry i shouldnt laugh, that WOULD suck having to go do that. I love chickens!!!!
And hey, on SPW, no one is alone. *hug*
