How are you feeling?

[OCDd]

depressed, anxious, tired from both, ocd is getting worse. people have seen my posts but no one else has what i have. feeling sad and lonely :sad:

 

[Opaline]

It's never a good idea to go online and look up people from the past that you had a problem with. It hurts when you see former bullies (or in my case bullyish but not quite bullies) who are doing really well and are attractive and have a million friends and everyone loves them. I hate myself for feeling jealous and wanting that, but I do

I feel ugly and depressed and worthless. Ugh.

 

[dottie]

opaline, you are ridiculously beautiful. i would love to use you as a model and just take a million pics of you. (not to sound creepy)

it's been said before, but lots of people post the most contrived crap on facebook. comparison is the root of all unhappiness.

 

[Graeme1988]

It's never a good idea to go online and look up people from the past that you had a problem with. It hurts when you see former bullies (or in my case bullyish but not quite bullies) who are doing really well and are attractive and have a million friends and everyone loves them. I hate myself for feeling jealous and wanting that, but I do

Whilist I agree with you on this part, Opaline. I've the same way maself when am on Facebook. Though, there's nothin' worse gettin' a friend invited from somebody who actually bullied ya during yer school years.

I feel ugly and depressed and worthless. Ugh.

This part definitely isn't true. Well, 2 outta the 3 feelings, at least. Fair enough, ye might be feelin' a wee bit deprssed, but yer neither ugly or worthless. But then, I understand what ye mean, because I can get quite down on maself when am depressed too.

Anyways, I hope you feel better soon, darling. :thumbup:

 

[Graeme1988]

I feel like I need some time tae maself for a while. I feel am in need o' a good rest.

Been workin' maself tae the point o' exhaustion fur the past 3 days, daein' stuff fur other folk. Aw because I cannae say "No".

I think I'll go sleep fur a week...

 

[lithiumflower]

Feeling really lonely today. Also, every Sunday around this time I get this awful feeling inside, as I'm dreading having to go back to work on Monday. :sad:

 

[Opaline]

Thanks Dottie and Graeme

I'm sick of feeling so negative, so I decided to come back and say that I hope everyone's doing okay

It's a really beautiful night out where I am. Cold, but beautiful. There's a plane going overhead. The sound of planes always makes me feel peaceful, I don't know why.

I think I'm PMSing too, so I'm feeling particularly volatile emotionally. Now I feel like crying but I want to go around hugging everyone

 

[dottie]

I think I'm PMSing

ugh. that'll do it.

 

[dottie]

lazy. major. and enjoying every minute of it.

 

[truffleshuffle]

Tired since today is fall back on time I got a call at 4:45 this morning becasue they didn;t remember to set there clock back. :thumbdown:

 

[takeheart]

well right now I feel hopeless. I feel so low. anyways this how I always feel, rarely have moments I feel good

 

[JuiceB]

I was feeling great earlier today after a good workout but as the day went by so did that good feeling.

 

[dottie]

damaged. alone. i come to this forum pretty much out of despair, anymore. just 3 months ago i had a life. i felt like part of the community (my local community), however minor that part was. now, nothing. i would like to partake in those activities again but i don't... this is part out of hurt (recovering up to this point), part laziness (admittedly), and part fear of running into my ex. i can get over the hurt and the laziness... but the fear of running into my ex petrifies me. this really did a number on me.

 

[MikeyC]

I feel ugly and depressed and worthless. Ugh.

You're beautiful and blah blah blah you've heard all this from me before. :bigsmile:

damaged. alone. i come to this forum pretty much out of despair, anymore. just 3 months ago i had a life. i felt like part of the community (my local community), however minor that part was. now, nothing. i would like to partake in those activities again but i don't... this is part out of hurt (recovering up to this point), part laziness (admittedly), and part fear of running into my ex. i can get over the hurt and the laziness... but the fear of running into my ex petrifies me. this really did a number on me.

I'm sorry, dottie. Hopefully in time your ex will not make you fearful of going out.

 

[MikeyC]

I feel okay. A little worn out but nothing some eggs and vegetables won't fix.

 

[EscapeArtist]

I feel bad, because I over ate
But I feel relieved, because I finally tried to make it clear to my friend that I can't be really good close friends with him anymore if he keeps doing drugs. That might mean cut off completely.. Sounds like i'm expecting too much from him, and his addiction is not his fault at all, but it's just too hard.
Honestly one of the hardest things i've ever done, and I didn't lay it out that clearly... But i'm going to be sticking to it... ;( I
Gosh, I could cry. I think I will now... hopefullly this will be the last time i cry for him. Not my responsibility to feel the pain he hides from.

 

[Nathália]

I feel bad, because I over ate
But I feel relieved, because I finally tried to make it clear to my friend that I can't be really good close friends with him anymore if he keeps doing drugs. That might mean cut off completely.. Sounds like i'm expecting too much from him, and his addiction is not his fault at all, but it's just too hard.
Honestly one of the hardest things i've ever done, and I didn't lay it out that clearly... But i'm going to be sticking to it... ;( I
Gosh, I could cry. I think I will now... hopefullly this will be the last time i cry for him. Not my responsibility to feel the pain he hides from.

That's sad about your friend. Other people know about his situation? That can be a lot to deal with losing someone you like to drugs. I'm so sorry.

Feeling low, need sleep...and vegetables^

Vegetables seems to be a *magic* ingredient as of now. Hope sleep and veggies made you feel better. Sorry.

I feel okay. A little worn out but nothing some eggs and vegetables won't fix.

Sounds like a cool meal, good for you.

 

[BlackPuma]

I feel bad, because I over ate
But I feel relieved, because I finally tried to make it clear to my friend that I can't be really good close friends with him anymore if he keeps doing drugs. That might mean cut off completely.. Sounds like i'm expecting too much from him, and his addiction is not his fault at all, but it's just too hard.
Honestly one of the hardest things i've ever done, and I didn't lay it out that clearly... But i'm going to be sticking to it... ;( I
Gosh, I could cry. I think I will now... hopefullly this will be the last time i cry for him. Not my responsibility to feel the pain he hides from.

Being there for him is all you ever could've done, the rest is up to him.

And you've been there for a long time, and while his pain caused by drugs is worthy of sympathy, your pain can't be ignored in the process. Where there are more then one people in pain, it doesn't become contest of who's hurting the most, rather it becomes a unified tragedy.

If he doesn't show signs of improving, you being hurt too only makes a bad situation worse. And as a person that has been in a similar position, I recommend you to not stay longer than you feel you can.

Problems of this magnitude can take a bigger grip over you over time. If he doesn't improve, it's only going to get worse, for you too. His battle is not yours to fight.

 

[MikeyC]

I feel bad, because I over ate
But I feel relieved, because I finally tried to make it clear to my friend that I can't be really good close friends with him anymore if he keeps doing drugs. That might mean cut off completely.. Sounds like i'm expecting too much from him, and his addiction is not his fault at all, but it's just too hard.
Honestly one of the hardest things i've ever done, and I didn't lay it out that clearly... But i'm going to be sticking to it... ;( I
Gosh, I could cry. I think I will now... hopefullly this will be the last time i cry for him. Not my responsibility to feel the pain he hides from.

Yes, absolutely! Don't forget that it was originally his choice to get addicted to drugs in the first place and you have your own issues to deal with. Don't suffer emotions for two.

 

[Raichel]

Excuse me while I go indulge in self hatred for an hour or six.

Random thought: wish there was an option to delete my posting history rather than going back and manually editing all of them. Anyone know if such an option exists?