I feel gross. The air is humid and dusty.. It feels extremely greasy on the skin, and worse, in the hair.
I also haven't slept. I feel quite miserable at the moment.
It's difficult to break free from what you feel like is just a mundane cycle: get up, eat, go to work, eat, crap, come home, eat, sleep. Just try to do things you both enjoy and build on that. I hope you both can feel better.
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Well, I just found out my friend got engaged. That's something I never saw coming, as he doesn't seem to be the marrying type. I've known him since primary school so that's probably why I think that, as I've seen every side to him.
I must say that I'm a little jealous and it's given me a pang of loneliness. Like, here he is getting married and just about every other friend I have is with someone, but I couldn't buy a relationship right now.
This usually doesn't bother me, but seeing news like my friend's engagement hits a little too close to my heart....
how to extinguish these seething embers of jealousy, anger, and bitterness... it is so ugly in me. but it is so strong, it's defining. i am so angry about my position in this world right now. i feel trapped.
Thank you, Nathalia. :: I'll be okay. Just need to organise my emotions. Or, you know, sweat them out tomorrow at the gym.Mikey, you're a beautiful person, I'm so sorry.
Mikey, you're a beautiful person, I'm so sorry.
Aw, I'm so sorry Jonas.
^ I'm really sorry, jonas. ::
I'm so sorry to hear this :s
Yes it was,, I was kinda hoping it was due to overworking,, well all that work was what trigger it but I didn't expect that something would show on the brain wave test,sorry, jonas... was that your first seiure?
I hope you feel better soon,Feel better, jonas!
I have a headache. I forgot to take my medicine this morning. Oi, I've got to stop doing that...
Thank you, superfluous. ::I second, third, and fourth that. It'll happen.
I know there is never anything gained out of being negative but I just feel like crying. My day started out fantastic and has just been ****ty now. I felt a little paranoid and got criticized by my parents. I hate feeling like I have SA. I hate the words SA. Ughhhhhhh.....
Well those last few weeks have been like hell to me..felt alienated from this world, as I am only passing by and soon will be gone..feeling a little bit better recently, hope it means I am past it..
Sorry to hear of all your pain, guys and girls. Stay strong.Pretty ****ty, honestly. Been feeling insecure and like I'm not good enough thanks to recent experiences...
Welcome back, Amitush! Sorry that the past few weeks have been so rough for you. ::Well those last few weeks have been like hell to me..felt alienated from this world, as I am only passing by and soon will be gone..feeling a little bit better recently, hope it means I am past it..
I was really good for a few months, but lately all I want to do is eat cookies and candy - ugh! And this is the worst time of the year for that with the mountains of Halloween candy out in stores. It's going to be tough making it through the holidays!After a good first three weeks, I've hit an inevitable weight watching wall. I've become a little complacent with what I'm eating again. Time to re-motivate!!
I know the feeling! Sending some CA sunshine your way!Depressed. So much "blah" going on in my life and these cold cloudy days dont help. I need some sunshine
^ And I'll fifth that. :: Seriously, Mikey. It'll happen for you someday too.I second, third, and fourth that. It'll happen.
This may be, *cough*, uh my fault. *cough*I was really good for a few months, but lately all I want to do is eat cookies and candy - ugh!
Thanks, Phoenixx.^ And I'll fifth that. :: Seriously, Mikey. It'll happen for you someday too.
Just take it steady. You don't have to message everyone at once. Just one or two people you trust, and take it from there. Face-to-face is very different to here, though, so you can't compare the two. If you like, though, you can send me a message at any point for practice.I'm rather disappointed with myself. I'm scared to message people here, on a social anxiety website. If I can't accomplish that much, how am I going to approach people I meet face to face?
Sorry to hear you're going through all of this. I can actually relate to having motivation, and then losing it fast. I hope all of this passes and fast.Eh, been feeling pretty cruddy again all day. Candida sucks, and the detoxing symptoms suck too. Yesterday I felt really good, but today I'm back to feeling really blah. My head has been hurting since noon, I'm still tired even though I slept in this morning, my body hurts again, I'm so easily distracted, my anxiety was so bad today I nearly had a panic attack in class, all I do is shake off and on throughout the day, and I'm constantly having periods of wanting to do things, but then an hour or two later I feel entirely unmotivated and can hardly bring myself to do much of anything. I hate this.