How are you feeling?

[lilmutegirl]

I'm feeling pretty decent. My son and I went to a birthday party for the son of a friend of mine from high school. A guy we went to high school with was also there with his son. I hardly ever see these people (I saw them about 2 1/2 years ago at our 10-yr reunion). I felt remarkably comfortable, except that the guy is friends with the guy I was dating (I've mentioned him before on here) when my now-ex decided to start controlling my life. I still feel guilty about ceasing contact with him, though he probably doesn't care (I doubt it's affected him as much as me). Anyway, Jason (guy at party) mentioned his "buddy John" to somebody a few times and I felt a little awkward, but didn't say anything. I'm also wondering if he said anything to John about seeing me at the party...not that it really matters. I wish I didn't obsess about these things so much.

 

[JuiceB]

I know how you feel, everyone is going somewhere, have purpose, while we drift aimlessly to nowhere..
Try going out for walks, will improve your health & you will get to see other people..plus the fresh air..

I try to work out 4 days out of the week but somedays my motivation just goes out the window. I do need to get out more and practice being around people.

Depressed as f**k! But I, honestly, have absolutely no f**kin' idea why. ::

Me and you both.

I think we all know how you feel if that is any comfort.
If i go for a walk or ride when i'm feeling like that i listen to music while i'm doing it,seems to get my mind off the negative stuff

I think a big problem is all the empty space in my head that allows negativity to float along in and take root. I try to keep busy but even the slightest thought can easily distract me. Plus I also think keeping my mind busy is productive but doesn't actually solve any problems.

I'm really sorry, I hope you feel better soon.
((hugs))

You are too kind. I appreciate that, thank you.

Scared and almost lost my breakfast this morning because I received an email from a person that I thought I blocked. He's getting on my last nerves. Get over it, you lost a good thing, this is the 2nd time he's done this and I haven't talked to him in 7 months. It's coming to the point where it's freaking me out. Pathetic. I was feeling great because I had a great day yesterday with my mother and sister until this morning when I clicked and opened that up. Sigh. I really don't want to go to that point with someone, it upsetting and it makes me sick.

I'm sorry that you're feeling troubled by this guy. Dont let him upset you and take your power away. Have you tried changing your email or opening a new one? I know you don't want to lose any of you contacts but it might help steer this guy away.

 

[Amitush123]

JuiceB in such cases, you must force yourself to go out...I know what you are talking about, you might even fight against yourself sometimes

 

[Dinosaur]

A little guilty.Just rang work to tell them i wont be in today,just soooo tired.I guess thats what sick leave is for

 

[Engulfed707]

well it's here... another writing assignment where I have to give an entertaining exciting life-lesson-learning experience narrative about my past. My life is and always has been boring. I never do well on this stuff. Why should I have the ability to write a memoir to major in microbiology...

 

[planemo]

Scared and almost lost my breakfast this morning because I received an email from a person that I thought I blocked. He's getting on my last nerves. Get over it, you lost a good thing, this is the 2nd time he's done this and I haven't talked to him in 7 months. It's coming to the point where it's freaking me out. Pathetic. I was feeling great because I had a great day yesterday with my mother and sister until this morning when I clicked and opened that up. Sigh. I really don't want to go to that point with someone, it upsetting and it makes me sick.

sorry to hear that beleza. i don't really have much advice but i hope this person won't bother you anymore.

I feel like in a bad dream that I can´t manage to wake up from.. I´m drowning in my mind, I´m trying not to but I don´t have anything to catch on.. Being alone and without job is getting on the brain.

I wish I didn't obsess about these things so much.

i know how you both feel. lilmutegirl, i obsess and over analyze things way too much. i guess i'm just too nervous not to. but i need to try to focus on things that are not emotionally taxing. Lea, i know how being idle leads to overtaxing emotional distress. i think we all need to focus on stuff that in the end doesn't cause us to worry (if it is possible, i guess)

 

[Swifty]

I feel misunderstood.

 

[this_portrait]

Kinda cold and my eyes keep tearing up. Stressed out as well, but I'm trying to calm down.

 

[Dinosaur]

Starting to get frustrated with oztix...Paid for tickets a month ago and still havnt got them grrrrrrrr

 

[Razzlecherry]

Not feeling too bad, a little lonely, but that's typical. Hope you guys aren't feeling too terrible, just keep your chins up. If you have chins, if not then let up another body part. I'll leave that choice up to you.

 

[Invisibleman]

I dont know. I just dont know anymore.

 

[Steppen-Wolf]

Really bad... Why do I keep making such dumb decisions and pushing people away?

*Sigh*

I don't wish to be alone anymore.

 

[Engulfed707]

I just want to scream and yell at tailgaters... every day at least once I got someone like a foot away from my rear and I can't stand it... I hate pulling over to let them pass because it's a waste of time for me. I usually am like 5 over the speed limit too, I guess I'm not breaking the law enough. they sure do put a lot of faith in me to think I won't suddenly stop and have them slam into me. I hate driving.

 

[dottie]

they say there are 5 stages you go through after a breakup. denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance. apparently, i'm at bargaining. it is taking so much to not contact him and try to get him back. i miss him terribly. i miss waiting for netflix to come so we could watch our show and cuddle, playing with his hair, massages, pouncing him, going on random excursions, gardening while he slept in, just being together. why.

uggggh

 

[chris11]

Suicidal. I spent around 2.5-3 hours thinking about suicide, and how I would go about doing it. I looked up specifics on how large a lethal dosage of a drug I'm currently taking would be, but I wasn't able to find anything. I`m more or less relapsing into my anxiety disorder. People really dislike me for various reasons, and I obviously hate myself. I can`t talk about this to anyone. Largely, I feel worthless, pathetic, anxious, and agitated.

 

[Flanscho]

Currently: mostly lonely. There is no reason for that. I spent saturday on a party where people were glad to have me there, yesterday on a movie evening, today I can go after work to a board game evening and people would be happy if I show up, and tomorrow I'll meet with a friend.

Still, this feeling of loneliness is really really... "annoying". I guess it's caused by the lack of affection I receive in form of hugs and so on.

 

[this_portrait]

God, I'm so cold. -shiver-

 

[Starry]

Grrrrr! I hate it when people go on at me about my problems and don't act in an understanding way... Especially when I'm already working on the blasted problem!

So, how am I feeling? Fed-up and angry.. Not to mention the fact I've now retreated into myself as always happens when I feel like this... You'd think people who love me would learn!

 

[Dinosaur]

My head is about to explode....My ex wants to sell the house we both bought just because she cracked the sh#ts as i proved her wrong about something so now we will make f#ck all out of it coz we still have a big mortgage.
The plan was to keep it till the market improved and then sell so we would make a profit.Why is so hard for ppl to make decision based on logic not emotions????
Wish i never met her

Sorry about the rant but had to get it of my chest as my head is all over the place now

 

[Razzlecherry]

holy. I love that movie. I recommend for everyone to see it who has not. It's 'Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.' Ch-Ch-Check it out.