Thank you, Hellhound.
I've gained weight... I don't care how ridiculous it sounds... I've been crying terribly because I can no longer wear the dresses I wore last summer... Due to the return of the agoraphobia I've been wearing only t-shirts and jeans for ages, since I feel better in them if I panic... But today I wanted to wear a dress... Since eating more calories (Thanks to my husband making me eat 1,500 a day - which I fail to achieve anyway...) I can't wear them anymore. I admit they were tight when I wore them last, since I deliberately got a slightly smaller size as I was trying to lose more weight, but still... I can't even do the zip up now.
I'm utterly disgusted with myself! I hate myself!
And to make matters worse, my husband's mother and little sister are visiting us today, so I have to try to act like nothing's wrong, not to mention the anxiety they cause anyway. *Sigh*