I'm anxious and mad at myself. Just looked at the mail that I hadn't opened yet. Apparently, since I'm broke and can't pay my bills, my gas may be shut off tomorrow. Yay. And, there was a renewal notice from A.B. May addressed to me and my landlord. I guess it should've been sent in by yesterday.
I hate being broke. I feel so trapped, like I'll never catch up. I'm going to be screwed till my son starts Kindergarten, probably, and maybe even longer. I'm already thinking about my tax return for next year. Hopefully that will help me pay off debts and have some financial padding, but I said that last year about this year's return.
I have already applied for and/or recieved all the government help I can get (I currently make too much for food stamps, but got checks for utilities-I still need to mail them-they cover about one month's worth of bills; I applied again for a child care subsidy, but haven't heard back yet).
What really sucks is that there is NOTHING I can do RIGHT NOW to fix this. If I get the other job I applied for, that'll help, but I probably won't hear back till next week. Even tryiing to sell stuff would take time. I have $16 to my name, and that's not enough to cover even one of my deliquent bills. I have to pay my tuition for summer school in a couple of weeks or I'll be dropped from my class. I absolutely hate having no money.