How are you feeling?

[MikeyC]

Good on you for finally confronting your boss, dottie. That's something that you could've done a long time ago. The fact that she lied during your meeting means she needed something else to fall back on because she had nothing. You were 100% correct and she knew it.

She might be remorseful for a day, a week, whatever. She'll go back to her old ways.

I don't know how good or bad it is anywhere else, but you don't deserve to be treated with chronic disrespect.

 

[dottie]

thanks, mikeyc. i have to admit i was scared to call her into a meeting and i was shaking during it but it had to be done. although she has been nice for the past few weeks, "chronic disrespect" sums it up!

 

[RonFrank]

I keep finding myself thinking about the idea of not existing after i die. If I imagine death without an afterlife, I imagine an afterlife without the scenery; my own consciousness alone in a void, sensing nothing, going mad. It’s a nightmare scenario more frightening even than Hell...
This goes on in my head nonstop everyday, every night, 24/7 causing depression.

 

[dottie]

@ronfrank remember before you were born? don't lie. you don't. it will be the same.

 

[RonFrank]

@ronfrank remember before you were born? don't lie. you don't. it will be the same.

That's what has been bothering me. I do compare death to not being born yet. The reason i don't remember is because I did not have an ability of self-awareness. My fear is to lose that ability, my memories, and my existence...

 

[dottie]

it's harsh. did you just watch blade runner?

 

[RonFrank]

Sorry, never seen it.

 

[dottie]

since you're having an existential crisis i recommend it.

 

[MikeyC]

thanks, mikeyc. i have to admit i was scared to call her into a meeting and i was shaking during it but it had to be done. although she has been nice for the past few weeks, "chronic disrespect" sums it up!

Yes, it had to be done. With any luck whatsoever, you can now enjoy a better work environment.

 

[Feeling_Nothing]

So far so good, felt really bad last night but for some reason I woke up pretty "ok" today. Hope it stays like this for the rest of the day.

 

[Feeling_Nothing]

scratch that...just recieved an e-mail I wish I didn't see...
I can't even stop crying now and I have a visitor comming over in 30 minutes!

 

[gustavofring]

Just got an closet delivered and reminds me of how sucky and unpractical it is not to have many people to help you, and emberassed to ask people I haven't spoken to in a while.

 

[Graeme1988]

Not great, as depressed as ever. Nothing new there. :: Lonely. Isolated. Insignificant. Another s**tty day to endure. I wish I had someone to talk to about my problems in real life.

Becoming all the more cynical and pessimistic about things getting any better.

 

[bcsr]

I'm extremely nervous. I passed my oral interview with the sheriff's department, passed my background check, and shadowed an officer for a full shift on my day off last week. I'm through all of that, now I have to take a polygraph test Friday morning. If I can pass it, I'm hired.

I've taken one before when I applied to a different police department three years ago, and my anxiety kicked up so bad I couldn't pass it. They scheduled a re-take for me, but I got so worked up I canceled and withdrew my application.

Pretty scared, but my anxiety is a lot better managed now.

 

[dottie]

getting ready for work. i feel like crying and throwing up. here i go... off to grit my teeth through another day.

 

[Gaucho]

not very good. because of the fact i know there is a 20% possibility i will pass my exams.
and already my head is spinning about the future, because i don't feel like university is my thing.

 

[_Hope]

Anxious because I know there is a lot of stress ahead within the next few months and I am unsure how I'm going to handle it. Times like this I wish I could slip into a deep sleep and allow a clone to live my life for a while.

 

[MikeyC]

I'm extremely nervous. I passed my oral interview with the sheriff's department, passed my background check, and shadowed an officer for a full shift on my day off last week. I'm through all of that, now I have to take a polygraph test Friday morning. If I can pass it, I'm hired.

I've taken one before when I applied to a different police department three years ago, and my anxiety kicked up so bad I couldn't pass it. They scheduled a re-take for me, but I got so worked up I canceled and withdrew my application.

Pretty scared, but my anxiety is a lot better managed now.

Congratulations! You'll be fine.

getting ready for work. i feel like crying and throwing up. here i go... off to grit my teeth through another day.

Good luck, dottie.

 

[MikeyC]

If I could erase my life over the past 4 days or so, I would do it.

 

[Feeling_Nothing]

If I could erase my life over the past 4 days or so, I would do it.

Aww what happened?