another venting session... (tl;dr)
i called my boss into a meeting yesterday because on monday she snapped at me (as she is prone to do) in a very rude tone. at this point i know the job, i'm into the routine, and it is about time i feel i've proven myself enough to hold my own and say flat out to her face that it is unnecessary and undeserved.
let me start with the rude event (typical coming from her, but i have had it)... everyday we have a closing procedure we go through. the very last thing to do is staple a bunch of papers and file them away. well, when the papers were coming off the machine i went to file something else instead. this allowed enough papers to come out of the machine to make a stack large enough worth grabbing to staple. i get back to my desk, sit down for a second, and just before i got up to grab the papers she snaps in her hateful tone, "DOTTIE, THERE'S PAPERS TO BE STAPLED!!" ugh. NO SH!T, SHERLOCK, i thought. i grabbed papers off the machine and returned to my desk but i was so insulted and mad that i had to get up and go in the bathroom for a moment. i had not taken a break all day, in fact i don't ever take my breaks. i work damn hard- harder with a heavier work load than her, in fact! this is what makes it so insulting! besides the fact that i am much busier throughout the day, the data and numbers that are printed at closing make this evident. i am not complaining about it, just saying that i work hard.
so i pulled her into a meeting yesterday and i told her that i don't appreciate the way she talked to me. first of all, she didn't need to say it because i am on the ball (always!) and was about to grab the stack myself. secondly, she shouldn't have said it in that demeaning tone. i asked her if she thinks i'm a slacker or that i don't work hard enough. she apologized for raising her voice and said she knows how hard i work and she appreciates it. wow, ok we are making progress. but then she said that my other coworker complained all day that i was slamming the heavy printer door and it was making her angry. i laughed, surprised, and asked why she didn't just tell me that herself. my supervisor said she did not know and she asked my coworker the same thing. my supervisor said it bothers some people but not her, herself. i thanked her for her time and was on my way. she was nice the rest of the day.
later i asked my coworker why she didn't just tell me that it made her mad when i slammed the heavy printer door. it wasn't intentional, it's just a heavy door that drops easily, and i didn't know it made her so mad. she was baffled. she said she couldn't care less if the door slammed! she said, you could slam it all day and it wouldn't bother her! my other coworker chimed in and said that my supervisor had asked another person to not slam the door previously because it bothered her (my supervisor) so much. what the heck! was my supervisor lying during the meeting? does it bother her when the printer door slams but she doesn't want to say it so she makes it seem like it's someone else?
apparently, she talked to my other coworkers and asked them to let her know if she raises her voice. but today she was unusually quiet. i don't know what to make of it. is she feeling remorseful? is she feeling like getting revenge? maybe she has had someone else call her out on the "hostile environment" thing and it struck a nerve... i don't know.
this is a temp-to-hire job. i have temped there so long now it is about time they should decide if they want to hire me permanently. i have very mixed feelings about attempting to stay on permanently. i want a stable job, that is the point, but i don't want a work environment where i feel like i am walking on eggshells because someone is going to lose it and blow up on me. it is very hard to stomach. do i really want to subject myself to that long term? is it really any better anywhere else?
