Holly ****! I have applied to an agency (a certified one) some time ago for a job in Germany, sent them photos, CV, they tested me in German etc. They called me yesterday that they have a job for me starting next friday. They also suggested transport etc. There was only 7 free seats in the bus left so I went quickly to buy a ticket for next thursday evening. My father was furious about me wanting to go there and shouted that they are scammers and sell me for prostitution and whatnot. He always does ridiculous assumptions without knowing any real facts (not even bothers to ask me or talk to me normally about it). He ruined jobs for me in the past with meddling into my things, now yesterday without me knowing it he called the agency and asked about it, I don´t know what he was saying. Today I received an email from the agency that the employer has meanwhile decided to employ someone else. I wonder if they did this because of the call of my father.. now I will have to storno the bus ticket and loose 25 percent of it which is still a huge money. My father is always rude to me, shouting at me that this is his house and I should piss off, but when I do try, he ruins it. WTF?? My mother too has always sabotaged my efforts to get away. It is not easy at all for me to find something, now they ruin even that. I really feel I am doomed, but that´s nothing new ::.
I'm so sorry to hear this. I hope you find a way to get out of your bad situation.
My father is always rude to me, shouting at me that this is his house and I should piss off, but when I do try, he ruins it. WTF?? My mother too has always sabotaged my efforts to get away. It is not easy at all for me to find something, now they ruin even that. I really feel I am doomed, but that´s nothing new :
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^ Not sure why I felt so paranoid today. Just another random overly-anxious day, I guess. Time to ignore all my feelings and bury my head in more work.
I was thinking of getting drunk by myself last nite but I was scared to leave the house, so I didn't. Yay!
Ha ha. I could do that. My abstinence has paid off. I found the courage to go out this morning. I played snooker and had lunch with friends.
Good on you. I also have an image of lots of buff guys in Tapout shirts standing in the way and you having to slink past them. Haha.
Yeah, I get those feelings a lot too. I hope you feel better^ Not sure why I felt so paranoid today. Just another random overly-anxious day, I guess. Time to ignore all my feelings and bury my head in more work.
Great!
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This is great! You can still be the quiet guy busting out riffs if you want. Even though you think there's pressure, this is only a good thing. You're music is getting some recognition.
This is great! You can still be the quiet guy busting out riffs if you want. Even though you think there's pressure, this is only a good thing. You're music is getting some recognition.