I feel frustrated. Every friend I had in rl is now gone, I can never hang on to people, not even my family. I fear that everyone somehow is going to run away from me some day. I eventually will have to live on my own, so I can just see myself alone in darkness a few years from now, wasting my life even more. I have a feeling that people like to run away from me. Whatever being "different" means...I don't want to be it anymore, I want to enjoy something for once.
How are you feeling?
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Shyangel
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Shyangel, you're more than welcome to chat about nothing to me. I never have much to say so we can just talk garbage.I'm sorry you're lonely because of it, but do remember that I'm always here.
Thanks, Mikey, you're such a sweet heart and I really appreciate it.
I hope you're doing well.
MikeyC
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Aw, that sucks, Beleza. I don't have much to say but *hugs* all the same.
You're more than welcome, Angel.Thanks, Mikey, you're such a sweet heart and I really appreciate it.
I hope you're doing well.
I know what you mean. It's either people are speaking a different language or my mind is totally empty. I want to keep company, but I don't know how. Anyways, I'll stop being a drab, can't wait until you get better.
Ty for being so nice.
Srijita52
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Thank you, you're really a sweetheartIf you're feeling the same, then you're more than welcome to chat to me about absolutely anything if you want some conversation. Truly.
I'm sorry, I hope you've people in your life that won't leave. If I knew irl I'd never leave you.
MikeyC
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........that's a really strong thing to say........... :
:Regardless, I appreciate your help.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Hopelessly stuck. ::
I feel like I don't care anymore, don't give a s***. I've got nothing to say... not that anyone cares what I've got to say, anyway. Can't be bother with having to socialize. Actually, let me re-phrase that last part: feeling obligated to socialize by others. I'm fed up with people trying to force their ideas onto me, of how I should be, what I should do. Should does not mean "Yes". But my oldest sister - manipulative "Can't take "No" for answer" b**** that she is, can't f***ing comprehend that. Personally, I'd much rather do things on my own terms but can't have that, can we? Me doing what I want to do.
Pushing me into being social (like my family are trying to do), without dealing with my SA and depression, just makes things worse. I wish I could just get away from society for awhile, away from all the pressure, and be alone.
Angry rant over.
:I feel like I don't care anymore, don't give a s***. I've got nothing to say... not that anyone cares what I've got to say, anyway. Can't be bother with having to socialize. Actually, let me re-phrase that last part: feeling obligated to socialize by others.
I'm fed up with people trying to force their ideas onto me, of how I should be, what I should do. Should does not mean "Yes". But my oldest sister - manipulative "Can't take "No" for answer" b**** that she is, can't f***ing comprehend that. Personally, I'd much rather do things on my own terms but can't have that, can we? Me doing what I want to do.Pushing me into being social (like my family are trying to do), without dealing with my SA and depression, just makes things worse. I wish I could just get away from society for awhile, away from all the pressure, and be alone.
Angry rant over.
Roman Legion
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My father volunteered for something for today and volunteered me as well.. I have to basically do the job I had for a short time (during the short time) I worked at Mcdonalds.. He is preparing food and I have to take orders and money.. I don't think I can do this.. Last time he did this I walked outside and vomited on the grass.. Today already isn't a good day as I already feel worse than I have in over a decade due to a news article on AOL news I read..
Srijita52
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Wow sounds just like my family specially my mom and aunt. I'm sorry you're going through this. I guess some people have this clear picture in their mind how things 'should' work and can't understand when people act differently. Don't let them manipulate you, do just as much socializing as you want.Hopelessly stuck. :
I feel like I don't care anymore, don't give a s***. I've got nothing to say... not that anyone cares what I've got to say, anyway. Can't be bother with having to socialize. Actually, let me re-phrase that last part: feeling obligated to socialize by others.
Pushing me into being social (like my family are trying to do), without dealing with my SA and depression, just makes things worse. I wish I could just get away from society for awhile, away from all the pressure, and be alone.
Angry rant over.
If its something you think you can't do then don't. You don't have to do something that makes feel worse.
Opaline
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Woke up today in a very dark state of mind, felt like I was suffocating. I had to open the blinds to let some light in, can't stand the gloom for long.
Also feel overwhelmed, I have a ton of things to do today and I don't feel like I can muster up the energy required to do any of them.
I feel kind of sick to my stomach.
Also feel overwhelmed, I have a ton of things to do today and I don't feel like I can muster up the energy required to do any of them.
I feel kind of sick to my stomach.
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Roman Legion
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I am not good at confrontation and have never been able to go against what he demands.. :
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MikeyC
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A mixture of good and bad.
We went out tonight to a nightclub. I was having a good time but eventually my friend wanted to leave. I wanted to stay but he was pushing the point of getting out and going home, so we went to find our other friend who we couldn't find at all. Eventually we left without him, and I drove us home.
Both of my friends ended up making out with a couple of girls, and, yet again, I missed out. Constantly missing out is bruising my ego. I think you need to look a certain way and I don't cut it.
Also we got McDonald's on the way home and my friend ate 90% of my fries.
So yeah, it was good and bad.
We went out tonight to a nightclub. I was having a good time but eventually my friend wanted to leave. I wanted to stay but he was pushing the point of getting out and going home, so we went to find our other friend who we couldn't find at all. Eventually we left without him, and I drove us home.
Both of my friends ended up making out with a couple of girls, and, yet again, I missed out. Constantly missing out is bruising my ego. I think you need to look a certain way and I don't cut it.
Also we got McDonald's on the way home and my friend ate 90% of my fries.
So yeah, it was good and bad.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Thanks for the support, Srijita. But it's kinda hard, especially when oldest my sister (well, step-sister technically) or the rest of my family doesn't get it. They oversimplify my problems, anyway. Don't let my sister manipulate me? She's been doing it for years, I doubt she'll ever change. She get the answer she wants by the way she asks the question. You pretty much have to agree and say "Yes" just to shut her up, if nothing else.
I've pretty much gave up when comes to standing up for myself because of it. I've gotten to use to being the people pleaser all the time. Sad but true. :
: Besides, if I told my sister what I really think and made her aware of how she makes me feel, chances wouldn't speak to each other ever again. Because - and even though she hates him - my oldest sister is exactly like my dad.
Srijita52
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It seems you had an overall average time. I'm sorry you missed out but there's always next time
I'm sorry but yeah manipulative people are just like that. My mom's very much like it too except that she becomes so emotional that you've to give in. Its so hard to say 'no' to them.Thanks for the support, Srijita. But it's kinda hard, especially when oldest my sister (well, step-sister technically) or the rest of my family doesn't get it. They oversimplify my problems, anyway. Don't let my sister manipulate me? She's been doing it for years, I doubt she'll ever change. She get the answer she wants by the way she asks the question. You pretty much have to agree and say "Yes" just to shut her up, if nothing else.
I've pretty much gave up when comes to standing up for myself because of it. I've gotten to use to being the people pleaser all the time. Sad but true. :
Feeling_Nothing
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Havn't been posting as often as usual, just lurking the forums.
Overal I'm "ok" so I guess that's fine for now. Hope everyone else is ok aswell !
Overal I'm "ok" so I guess that's fine for now. Hope everyone else is ok aswell !
