Im currently engaged right now, Ive been engaged for a year now and the wedding in planned for 2011. for me time is going so fast.
Im getting nervous now that its only a year away, that may seem a long time to some but not for me. Something that has been in my mind that makes feel guilty is the fact Im afraid to involve too many people in the wedding, like I know my Mom will stand for me, but bridemaids and stuff thats where I get nervous..like I could incorperate his sister in law, or a close friend of the family but Im too afraid too..just imagining going dress shopping and hanging around these ladies Im afraid too like I dont know how to interact with them..I mostly get a long with guys..so that doesnt help. I know its our wedding, we can do whatever we want, but a part of me wants to incorperate more people so they can feel involved in it...and bring the families closer, but I guess I dont feel normal enough to do those things. me getting married to begin with feels like a rite of passage or a privilage that I thought I would never have.