I have been married for 6 years. I married my high school sweetheart... First and only guy I ever dated.
My dream wedding was and still is a very intimate ceremony with only close family held along the bluffs on the shore of Lake Superior. DH, however, wanted something more traditional. So, we sort of went down the middle. I got a Unitarian Ceremony and would have gotten an outdoor ceremony if it hadn't rained and he got to have a formal reception in the same historic mansion where his parents tied the knot. Oh, and I got vegetarian food served at the reception.
We had 100 people and somehow in the excitement I got over-confident... until it was my turn to walk down the isle and suddenly everyone STOOD UP and looked at me, and then I lost it and started shaking so badly!!! Afterwards people even mentioned my shaking to me, it was really embarassing. But it was still the second best day of my life, following the birth of my son.
Really I feel bad for people who never commit to a relationship or have kids, who end up alone. I have an uncle like that and now he's in his 50s and is so depressed over it. I know not everyone wants that, but it just seems lonely to me.
Marriage doesn't erase social anxiety, though, and it doesn't erase depression either. I have a lot of depression, anxiety, low self-esteem, trust issues, etc, and all of that does impact our marriage. Sometimes it's hard. And most of the time we're pretty disconnected. We have been together since we were 16 and are now 28 and I'm still scared to let him too far into my world.
