Today was a pretty good day. I skipped school (which makes me kinda feel guilty, but it was worth it). So first I went to McDonalds to eat, alone of course. That was a total disaster. The clerk didn't hear my order ... I said "two coca-colas" and he understood "two french fries". That's what my voice does ... Then when he was giving me the change, one coin fell on the floor and I had to run after it. The horror! ... oh, you must be wondering why I was ordering "two coca-colas" .. because I was ashamed of eating by myself. I usually don't care, but the day started pretty bad and when I walked into McDonalds I had the feeling that the clerks were watching me like I'm some kind of a creep, so I had to prove them I'm not and that somebody actually likes me ... that's why 2 sodas (one for me and one for "somebody that actually likes me). So, I know this doesn't sound like a "thing that made me happy today" ... well it didn't, but I didn't care much about it. THAT is what made me happy. Normally, I would think about this all day,
analyzing every second of it. But now I didn't. I went on ... I even went shopping later, felling very self-confident. And then, the highlight of the month .. I went to the library to study! I go to the library quite often, but not to this one ... This one (called NUK), has a very complicated way to use the "reading room", so I was very afraid of going there for the first time. But today I went ... The first time I tried I didn't make it. I f***ed it up, because I didn't "check myself in" or sth, I don't know, so I ran out as soon as possible. But I came back! Normally I wouldn't, normally I would just run home, but now I came back, figured out the system and actually stayed there for 4 hours! Once my pen fell down and someone picked it up and asked it if it was mine ... and I said it wasn't, because it was easier to say "No" than "Yes, thank you". So I said no and my favorite pen is now gone. But I don't care. Normally, I would, but today I don't. Hurray for me!
But I know it won't last. I've had days like this and they've all passed. So will this one ... Tomorrow I'll just wake up, depressed as always, forgetting the good things and only remembering the bad. But today, that doesn't matter. Today was a GREAT day.