Post your random thoughts/feelings etc
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Vampayah88
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Had a pretty intense nightmare last night, woke up panting and crying, which hasn't happened in a long time. Can't really remember what the nightmare was even about, which is weird.
On a happier note, I'm glad my parents finally talked to eachother. They're 'friends' now. They better remain so because I don't wanna be put in the middle of their problems again.
On a happier note, I'm glad my parents finally talked to eachother. They're 'friends' now. They better remain so because I don't wanna be put in the middle of their problems again.
Duzmiu
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started to feel more invisible day by day, no matter what i do i seem to get ignored or moaned at for not doing more,
cleaned the whole house today as i was bored but i didnt clean out the litter tray as it was raining and instead of getting a thank you for cleaning the house without getting asked to do it, i get shouted at for not doing the litter tray.
also this morning my sister came in my room and gave me a snickers bar and when she got back from work a couple of hours ago she accused me of stealing it and started lashing out at me.
the last week ive been trying to be more social online on various sites and on facebook but its like they dont actually know im alive, i get no reply in instant chats or on threads i make.
why is it people always ignore me or dont act gratefull when i try be nice!
cleaned the whole house today as i was bored but i didnt clean out the litter tray as it was raining and instead of getting a thank you for cleaning the house without getting asked to do it, i get shouted at for not doing the litter tray.
also this morning my sister came in my room and gave me a snickers bar and when she got back from work a couple of hours ago she accused me of stealing it and started lashing out at me.
the last week ive been trying to be more social online on various sites and on facebook but its like they dont actually know im alive, i get no reply in instant chats or on threads i make.
why is it people always ignore me or dont act gratefull when i try be nice!
Starry
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I'm sorry about that, but the first two cases are definitely your family's fault and nothing to do with you.
As for Facebook and things like that... I think people on there are generally poor at socialising (ironically, perhaps?)... I hardly ever get any attention paid to posts I make either. Sometimes I think that socially phobic people would be much better at socialising than "normal" people (If the anxiety were gone, anyway), if only because we are more likely to be respectful of others... Certainly a lot of "normal" people don't have the first idea when it comes to actually behaving in a decent manner towards people in a social setting, but are very selfish... Far too many of them completely lack actual social skills, despite the fact they socialise all the time...
I know it's horrible to feel invisible or like you don't matter, but you do matter... Maybe the people in your family are just having a bad day. Maybe things will be better tomorrow... I certainly hope they are.
Duzmiu
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I'm sorry about that, but the first two cases are definitely your family's fault and nothing to do with you.
As for Facebook and things like that... I think people on there are generally poor at socialising (ironically, perhaps?)... I hardly ever get any attention paid to posts I make either. Sometimes I think that socially phobic people would be much better at socialising than "normal" people (If the anxiety were gone, anyway), if only because we are more likely to be respectful of others... Certainly a lot of "normal" people don't have the first idea when it comes to actually behaving in a decent manner towards people in a social setting, but are very selfish... Far too many of them completely lack actual social skills, despite the fact they socialise all the time...
I know it's horrible to feel invisible or like you don't matter, but you do matter... Maybe the people in your family are just having a bad day. Maybe things will be better tomorrow... I certainly hope they are.
hmm i guess your right, i did delete me facebook for awhile but reactivated as i had no other way of being social but it seems pointless now, tried so many times to chat with people but they never reply, thinking about deleting again and maybe my msn and skype too. out of all 3 the only social thing ive done on them was yesterday when i spoke to i think the username is "lil miss muffet" might of got it a little wrong, chatted for a few hours, really random convo aswell
im just gunna go back to not trying to be social, its only made me feel worse since i started trying
Tell me about it, sometimes I wonder why one should even bother about it.
Still in pain.
I just realize, that soon after I got my car, and got an income, was when I started getting bombarded with canker sores.
I've given some thought, and realize, everytime I occomplish something, have fun etc, I have to pay the pric for it. I realize, I hardly ever had fun, in a good mood without something happening, bring straight from 10 to 0, mkeaning in upset, embarrished or not so great mood. I hate when that happens.
An other thing to support I have a curse. Hard to prove it, thought, becuase most of time, I can't prove that something bad happened to me when I was in high spirits. If I'm in a good mood, there is always something to bring me down, always something happens, which is more than just a coincidance.
The canker sores are paying the price for the freedom of a car, having my own bank account, and income. I can't get a job becuase of it. I can't really get a house, becuase I only get less then $400 a month from the government for disabilities and my folks can't buy me a house becuase they don't have enough money. THey owe mortgage on the house and stuff. Everything has been planed from the get-go from this curse.
WHats in the cards is in the cards, what's not is not. I'm not supposed to have a job and have a house. Have a car and some income is probably the most I get, and I pay the price becuase of these canker sores. If I had a house, I wouldn't want to know what would be the price for that.
I also realize that I "can't" die. Well, I suppose I could. I've been in life threatening situations, come out fine, tried to commit suicide, for some reason I couldn't. COuld the curse be in control? Why would it want me to live so much? To suffer? If there is a Hell, Hell is 100x worse then whatever pain you have on Earth. Hell is for forever. SO maybe there isn't one, and if there isn't, then there isn't a God??? I know that we are all connected by energy and stuff. What is the source of it all, and how do we exist, like the planets and the universe? I tend to think about all that and it bothers me, becuase I don't have the answers. The curse wants me to live, becuase I either a) there isn't life after death, or b), I goto Heaven, which is somewhat unlikely, since I sinned, disblieved in God and blamed HIm, for my problems. I'm not religious, but I try to be sometimes, hopping for Hope and answers. Mnay people believe in God, pray and talk to hiom and say it works.
I got nothing against anyone who is religious (as long as their religion dosen't go against my viws), but I don't like when people bash on religous folks. I've been through some tough times, and before I gave any thought about Heaven and Hll (which is why I'm scard to do it), I somehow couldn't, no matter how hard I try. Coincidance?
I just realize, that soon after I got my car, and got an income, was when I started getting bombarded with canker sores.
I've given some thought, and realize, everytime I occomplish something, have fun etc, I have to pay the pric for it. I realize, I hardly ever had fun, in a good mood without something happening, bring straight from 10 to 0, mkeaning in upset, embarrished or not so great mood. I hate when that happens.
An other thing to support I have a curse. Hard to prove it, thought, becuase most of time, I can't prove that something bad happened to me when I was in high spirits. If I'm in a good mood, there is always something to bring me down, always something happens, which is more than just a coincidance.
The canker sores are paying the price for the freedom of a car, having my own bank account, and income. I can't get a job becuase of it. I can't really get a house, becuase I only get less then $400 a month from the government for disabilities and my folks can't buy me a house becuase they don't have enough money. THey owe mortgage on the house and stuff. Everything has been planed from the get-go from this curse.
WHats in the cards is in the cards, what's not is not. I'm not supposed to have a job and have a house. Have a car and some income is probably the most I get, and I pay the price becuase of these canker sores. If I had a house, I wouldn't want to know what would be the price for that.
I also realize that I "can't" die. Well, I suppose I could. I've been in life threatening situations, come out fine, tried to commit suicide, for some reason I couldn't. COuld the curse be in control? Why would it want me to live so much? To suffer? If there is a Hell, Hell is 100x worse then whatever pain you have on Earth. Hell is for forever. SO maybe there isn't one, and if there isn't, then there isn't a God??? I know that we are all connected by energy and stuff. What is the source of it all, and how do we exist, like the planets and the universe? I tend to think about all that and it bothers me, becuase I don't have the answers. The curse wants me to live, becuase I either a) there isn't life after death, or b), I goto Heaven, which is somewhat unlikely, since I sinned, disblieved in God and blamed HIm, for my problems. I'm not religious, but I try to be sometimes, hopping for Hope and answers. Mnay people believe in God, pray and talk to hiom and say it works.
I got nothing against anyone who is religious (as long as their religion dosen't go against my viws), but I don't like when people bash on religous folks. I've been through some tough times, and before I gave any thought about Heaven and Hll (which is why I'm scard to do it), I somehow couldn't, no matter how hard I try. Coincidance?
MrSunday
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I felt like I wanted to die today. Gosh I hate people at times. I was waiting outside the bus stop, minding my own business where some bastard in a car threw food at me. It hit me in the eye and it hurt.
Then I went to work and was told off for working slowly in front of another employee, I mean he could have told me in his office alone. For ****s sake. Give me a bloody break. I managed to complete the tasks without any mistakes and I don't usually do that piece of work. I took time because the manager was away on holiday and had to work out what to do by myself. I'm actually proud that I managed to do it independently.
I mean they did not even tell me how long I should spend on the work. They EXPECT me to know. How the **** should I know how long I should spend on a piece of work when no one tells me! :/ I met the bloody deadline as well.
I bet all the office employees are probably gossiping about me. >_>
Then I went to work and was told off for working slowly in front of another employee, I mean he could have told me in his office alone. For ****s sake. Give me a bloody break. I managed to complete the tasks without any mistakes and I don't usually do that piece of work. I took time because the manager was away on holiday and had to work out what to do by myself. I'm actually proud that I managed to do it independently.
I mean they did not even tell me how long I should spend on the work. They EXPECT me to know. How the **** should I know how long I should spend on a piece of work when no one tells me! :/ I met the bloody deadline as well.
I bet all the office employees are probably gossiping about me. >_>
Beatmetrics
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"I'd rather be miserable and broke then having to think about money all time." Says the girl who is sittin at someone else's place not really having much to loose...(really? are you sure? do you know what it's really like from previous experience?) think before ya speak!
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fishface19
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Had the most perfect sleep ever. Perfect temperature, no loud construction trucks outside and a nice breeze was coming in from my window. It was a good day
vj288
not actually Fiona Apple
I have had no problem seeing the sigs, they are mostly quotes and links to free kittens and puppies. You should fix it before they all run out!
I see the sginaturs too.
If I were to be a millionaire, I think I'd spend most of it by giving it away in donations.
Don't get me wrong, I'd get a sickly powerful computer and a cozy little home with an amazing view too, but but I notice that when ever I come across a ''donate'' button on a site/service I like it takes real effort not to empty my PayPal account on it.
Don't get me wrong, I'd get a sickly powerful computer and a cozy little home with an amazing view too, but but I notice that when ever I come across a ''donate'' button on a site/service I like it takes real effort not to empty my PayPal account on it.
MikeyC
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That's really selfless of you.
If I won the lotto (which is tonight and I have a ticket), I would give away some to people who have helped me along the way. Easily could give away millions just there.