Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

[P+G]

I find it hard to socialise. I'm not myself.

 

[MikeyC]

I find it hard to socialise. I'm not myself.

What is it that you do differently when you socialise?

 

[Silatuyok]

I feel like because I can't talk to other people in a relaxed way I miss out on a lot. I don't realise how much I shut myself away from others. I lose out on things that could benefit me. I thought I was doing okay but in a way I was just avoiding something. I can enjoy being on my own but I think it creates limitations. Especially in the kind of industry I expect to work in, socialising would help me a great deal but then I guess that would help anyone in any industry. It makes me feel sad. Like I wasn't even trying.

I'm feeling pretty much the same way right about now.

 

[Silatuyok]

There are various other things I want to do, such as maybe go do a masters (but then: what am i going to do it in? As it would just end up being computing related again, since that's what the undergrad degree was in).
So many questions, so few answers.

There are a lot of master's programs out there that have few or no prerequisites. I would recommend contacting a graduate guidance counselor of a university to see what your options are. Maybe you could do something completely different.

 

[P+G]

What is it that you do differently when you socialise?

I'm not sure you can call it socialising. It's only talking a little to others at university. I'm far from the point where I'm comfortable and don't even need to think of what to say. I noticed recently that the questions I ask most is about work. I can't get into a relaxed conversation. I know what I'm like when I'm myself, but outside my room I'm this girl with no personality. It's not me. Or who I want to show.

 

[MikeyC]

I'm not sure you can call it socialising. It's only talking a little to others at university. I'm far from the point where I'm comfortable and don't even need to think of what to say. I noticed recently that the questions I ask most is about work. I can't get into a relaxed conversation. I know what I'm like when I'm myself, but outside my room I'm this girl with no personality. It's not me. Or who I want to show.

I understand. My only suggestion is to take it steady - don't rush into full-on discussions. Keep the conversation light. Exposure therapy is the only way to relax, and possibly some therapy if possible.

 

[P+G]

I couldn't rush into full on discussions even if I wanted to. I've wanted to try therapy but the closest thing I've been to was a mood group. It didn't work for me. I gave up after three sessions. Sitting in a room listening to old ladies talk about their problems didn't seem like therapy to me. Good for them I'm sure. It's harder now because I'll be moving back home and then back to university in September. I'll look out for something though. Thank you MikeyC.

 

[MikeyC]

I couldn't rush into full on discussions even if I wanted to. I've wanted to try therapy but the closest thing I've been to was a mood group. It didn't work for me. I gave up after three sessions. Sitting in a room listening to old ladies talk about their problems didn't seem like therapy to me. Good for them I'm sure. It's harder now because I'll be moving back home and then back to university in September. I'll look out for something though. Thank you MikeyC.

University is definitely going to eat away your money, for sure. I hope you find some peace with what you're going through, P+G.

 

[Silatuyok]

I'm not sure you can call it socialising. It's only talking a little to others at university. I'm far from the point where I'm comfortable and don't even need to think of what to say. I noticed recently that the questions I ask most is about work. I can't get into a relaxed conversation. I know what I'm like when I'm myself, but outside my room I'm this girl with no personality. It's not me. Or who I want to show.

Yep, I feel the same way. I have a great personality, but hardly anyone ever gets to see it, because once I'm around other people it just kind of fades away. It's not like I am consciously hiding it away; I don't even know how to access my personality in those situations.
I have found that it helps a little to make fun of myself, or to just allow myself to make mistakes and laugh it off. A little good-humored self-deprecation can make people laugh and realize that you don't take yourself as seriously as you seem to. Or, I might try a little light sarcasm. Whatever I can do to make people see that I am friendly and good-humored, even though I prefer to keep to myself most of the time.

 

[Phoenixx]

Because I'm too lazy to look for Waldo...

^ Hehe, I like this. ::

Heyy everyone,
I’m checking in to see how everyone is doing
I’ve been doing better. I started seeing a campus councilor and I’ve improved A LOT. I’m half way done with school. But I think what helped me the most was finding ways to help others. I’m going on a missionary trip to Peru in a few months and riding my bike 150miles for MS in a few months. By helping others I’ve helped myself. But first I had to ask for help...hence the counseling. For anyone who’s considering it, it was a good decision. I also started journaling. By writing my thoughts down on paper, then going over what I’ve written I was able to face my problems in a more rational way.

Thanks everyone who has been there for me in the past, you have no idea what it means to me.

^ Oh wow! This is so great, bsebring!

 

[this_portrait]

Tomorrow's the day I graduate. Painting my nails right now so they look nice for the commencement (and also because it's long overdue), and it's taking forever for just my left hand to dry completely.

I honestly think that ceremony is going to be sooo boring and am more or less looking forward to the time spent AFTER it.

 

[Srijita52]

Tomorrow's the day I graduate. Painting my nails right now so they look nice for the commencement (and also because it's long overdue), and it's taking forever for just my left hand to dry completely.

I honestly think that ceremony is going to be sooo boring and am more or less looking forward to the time spent AFTER it.

Wow seems like a big day. I hope everything goes great
I can never paint all of my nails at the same time, I'm the kind of person who can't sit at one place for long. So it usually takes me atleast one hour to paint and dry them.

 

[Vampayah88]

I hate painting the nails on my right hand. I always **** it up.

 

[Shyangel]

Thank you all very much for the luck. I think it helped. ^.^

I feel like I did very well, maybe a couple scuffs, but over all, good. I got a good feelings about it. Either way it turns out, I'm happy with myself for handling it pretty well.

Thanks again everyone. I'm excited to get this job, or go into another interview with more confidence.

 

[SilentBird]

I'm nice because I'm needy.

 

[Srijita52]

Thank you all very much for the luck. I think it helped. ^.^

I feel like I did very well, maybe a couple scuffs, but over all, good. I got a good feelings about it. Either way it turns out, I'm happy with myself for handling it pretty well.

Thanks again everyone. I'm excited to get this job, or go into another interview with more confidence.

Well done Shyangel I hope you get this job.

 

[BlackPuma]

You know this thing you do when you first meet someone and you go in to give them a handshake and exchange names?

For some reason when I do it I'm always so occupied nailing looking like a regular person doing this, that I totally forget to actually get this person's name.

 

[AsTimeBurns]

My hair is now blue.

 

[coyote]

My hair is now blue.

 

[MrJones]

My hair is now blue.

Nice! I died it blue once, it was really cool