Some interesting news...
My 21st was insanely unexciting, too. I understand what you mean. Sorry you were crying. ::I'm feeling a great lonliness. Birthdays tend to do this (was yesterday not today). The actual birthday wasn't too bad; spent it with the family at a very good Japanese restaurant, though my brother really didn't want to be there, so he kind of ruined the mood, as he tends to always do with every family gathering.
It's the big 21st milestone birthday,which kind of made me depressed today when I think how little people I intereact with. Just family, and a couple of friends whom I'm the third wheel, though I appreciate that they sporadically invite me places about once a month. Even though circumstances change, I feel like I'm in stasis. Every situation I'm just the weird ostracised guy. Every time I try to break out my shell, I just create mor painful memories of humilation that I'll need to supress. As a young adult, I don't think I've ever been intimate with someone before( I don't mean sexually, but reveal how I've trully felt). I don't have anyone to confide to. 21, and I can't escape that stupid trajectory as the archetypal loser.
I am crying now.
Hopefully it doesn't become too detrimental. Life shouldn't be taken TOO seriously but I sometimes need to, haha.Lately I've been getting really strange feelings of disassociation, like nothing around me is real, especially people. They seem to be getting stronger. They don't feel bad though, I actually kind of like it if that makes any sense. Like the world isn't something to be taken seriously, just a dream
seriously, it has to be the water or something
'Frenchie' was an older man who used to babysit my sister and I when we lived in rural Ontario as small children.
He taught us french - looked after us sometimes in the summer.
He was a family friend since he moved to the community when I was born.
When I was 15, the FBI came to said 'small village' and arrested him.
He was in hiding since the year I was born - Apparently, he murdered 26 people.
And he also taught me french and braided my hair.
Everyone is on well water, there.
Here; the water is treated.
Seems the same to me no matter where people are...
haha
'Frenchie' was an older man who used to babysit my sister and I when we lived in rural Ontario as small children.
He taught us french - looked after us sometimes in the summer.
He was a family friend since he moved to the community when I was born.
When I was 15, the FBI came to said 'small village' and arrested him.
He was in hiding since the year I was born - Apparently, he murdered 26 people.
And he also taught me french and braided my hair.
Everyone is on well water, there.
Here; the water is treated.
Seems the same to me no matter where people are...
haha
Just a couple weeks ago I found out my coworker is best friends with a girl I lived with in boarding school, and I went to boarding school several states away. What are the chances???
Jesus, that's intense.'Frenchie' was an older man who used to babysit my sister and I when we lived in rural Ontario as small children.
He taught us french - looked after us sometimes in the summer.
He was a family friend since he moved to the community when I was born.
When I was 15, the FBI came to said 'small village' and arrested him.
He was in hiding since the year I was born - Apparently, he murdered 26 people.
And he also taught me french and braided my hair.
Everyone is on well water, there.
Here; the water is treated.
Seems the same to me no matter where people are...
haha
It's funny how my family is all happy, proud, and in a celebratory mood because I'm graduating this Friday. All I've been thinking about is how much college sucked for me, and it's hard for me to contain any of these feelings and thoughts.
'Frenchie' was an older man who used to babysit my sister and I when we lived in rural Ontario as small children.
He taught us french - looked after us sometimes in the summer.
He was a family friend since he moved to the community when I was born.
When I was 15, the FBI came to said 'small village' and arrested him.
He was in hiding since the year I was born - Apparently, he murdered 26 people.
And he also taught me french and braided my hair.
Everyone is on well water, there.
Here; the water is treated.
Seems the same to me no matter where people are...
haha
That is like a manager at a place I worked with ended up killing his wife. It was like WHAAAA?! When I heard it.
Also my mom has a cousin who paid someone to kill his wife. Like, wow. haha.