Post your random thoughts/feelings etc
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dyingtolive
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well im abit relieved coz i thought i was going to be DEAD MEAT at work.. turns out i can still can clean up and catch up with my slacking off......... so, another chance 
i want to make a fresh start i really do. its really hard.. its really hard to have peace of mind and not be angry and start from square 1 and accept myself and work on myself again......
It's been more than a year that ive been so angry... and i still have anger left, and i dont want to say goodbye to that anger yet... but i want to too... im afraid that if i start a new again, i'm just gonna disappoint myself and tell myself 'why even bother'....
Like what happened before and what happens over and over...
and when i fail again, i will kick myself even harder and the spiral will be steeper
Hopefully, each year i grow wiser...
Move 10 steps forward, move 9 steps back, move 10 steps forward, move 9 steps back...
Hopefully..... Coz it hasn't felt very straight...
But im going to try...
i want to make a fresh start i really do. its really hard.. its really hard to have peace of mind and not be angry and start from square 1 and accept myself and work on myself again......
It's been more than a year that ive been so angry... and i still have anger left, and i dont want to say goodbye to that anger yet... but i want to too... im afraid that if i start a new again, i'm just gonna disappoint myself and tell myself 'why even bother'....
Like what happened before and what happens over and over...
and when i fail again, i will kick myself even harder and the spiral will be steeper
Hopefully, each year i grow wiser...
Move 10 steps forward, move 9 steps back, move 10 steps forward, move 9 steps back...
Hopefully..... Coz it hasn't felt very straight...
But im going to try...
WeirdyMcGee
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fffffffffffffffff--- how often do I ask you to do me a favor, little brother?
I've even agreed to pay you for gas both ways.
And yet-- getting your hair cut and helping your friend' move things in his garage' is more important?
I am frustrated and NOW I have plenty of ****ing time to panic.
I think I'll just chicken out again and never bother trying to leave the house-- NEVER see my only friend ever again.
That would be fine, right?
You have 50 'close friends' and see them every day-- I have one and see her once every three years but it's not important to help me surprise her on her birthday, neh?
I will just stay in my room alone, crying forever. That SUITS me, right?!
I've even agreed to pay you for gas both ways.
And yet-- getting your hair cut and helping your friend' move things in his garage' is more important?
I am frustrated and NOW I have plenty of ****ing time to panic.
I think I'll just chicken out again and never bother trying to leave the house-- NEVER see my only friend ever again.
That would be fine, right?
You have 50 'close friends' and see them every day-- I have one and see her once every three years but it's not important to help me surprise her on her birthday, neh?
I will just stay in my room alone, crying forever. That SUITS me, right?!
MrJones
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It can appear to be like that a lot of times. It depends on our own experiences.
I can promise you, love exists. Love is out there, waiting for you. Maybe you have it easier than you think, who knows. Just don't give up. I can tell you, love is out there, it doens't matter how many people hate, there will always be people who love. I know because I do, and I assume you do too. We just need to find other people like us to share our love.
MrJones
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Your brother sounds very inconsiderate :
:If I was there I'd gladly help you in anything you wanted.
EscapeArtist
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I don't want to go to school 3: Maarrggg! I haven't studied for the test enough so not going to take it/disappoint teacher who has been telling me to take it for soo long, blarghhy! Smargh.
this_portrait
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Tonight's dinner was pretty good. Luckily I made enough of it for two nights.
Phoenixx
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My brain is tired. I'm getting sick of having all of these creative ideas and motivation come up at once, and then having it all putter out within 5 - 10 mins. I wrote them down this time though. I mean, hey, at least it's nothing. My creativity is surely coming back, just not in the way I want it to. It's taking too long!
montejocarlo
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couldn't sleep last night. so close to having a panic attack.
Srijita52
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montejocarlo
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That's awful. If you want to talk I'm here and I hope you feel better soon
i feel better now. i was able to sleep after midnight. thanks!
i think it might have something to do with the full moon. lol
Srijita52
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i feel better now. i was able to sleep after midnight. thanks!
i think it might have something to do with the full moon. lol
lol I'm glad you're feeling better
montejocarlo
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lol I'm glad you're feeling better
yeah. what about you? you said you were feeling a bit down yesterday... feeling better now?
Srijita52
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Scenic
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I feel like my life is going no where. I have no motivations and don't have anything I really want to do. I wish I were one of those people who grew up knowing what they wanted to do or be. I'm just switching major to major until someone tells me which one is a good idea, because I don't know what would be good for me. Ughh, just let me win the lottery so I can live an average life and give the rest to what I love/would love doing - supporting and helping others who can't help themselves/good causes.
montejocarlo
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I find it kinda annoying how the minichat minimizes itself when you're in the middle of a sentence. Especially when you were about to remove a few letters and don't notice it had minimized, since backspace also functions as a Page-Back hotkey, refreshing everything and loosing whatever you wrote.