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[MsBuzzkillington]

I sometimes wish I had no desire -for anything - that way I would never be dissatisfied or disappointed. I would never yearn, desire or doubt myself. I wouldnt have expectations and hope for things to turn out my way, I wouldnt feel inadequate.

I am so clueless - I wonder how so many people can be so sure of themselves with their personal philosohphies, and how satisfied in the knowledge of that philosophy. How can anyone be so sure that they are right about anything.

I think I might be a bit dumb.... its a suspicion I have.

It is possible to reach that level of being content and not wishing for more. It is a philosophy that many people have. Desire is what causes suffering.

I think if you continue to ponder things and question things to try and figure them out and expand your knowledge, makes you smarter-not dumber- than anyone who is just satisfied with their beliefs.

Also, if you feel like you are full of crap I have some things that might help you out. I have a couple fiber one bars too that are pretty good.

 

[coyote]

...I have a couple fiber one bars too that are pretty good.

oooo, can i have one?

i KNOW i'm full of crap

 

[KiaKaha]

@MsBuzz - thanks - uh... I am good for the fibre bars though... I eat lots of vegetables...
unfounded, ridiculous, not credible... just plain old wrong...

I hate wanting stuff - I dislike desire - its something I need to think about.

The problem is I doubt myself far too much...and I wonder how it is other people have convinced themselves completely that what they believe is absolutely true. Do I have the audacity to stay firm enough in my belief to be completely uncompromising and rigid? How does anybody know anything to be true, when everything is completely subjective..?

Even right now I am thinking I am full of it....stupid brain... just stop. I am going for a walk... in the rain. Meh.

 

[coyote]

...How does anybody know anything to be true, when everything is completely subjective..?

they don't

but for many people it's even more difficult to live with uncertainty

they'd rather have answers - regardless if they're right or wrong - than questions

it makes them more comfortable

 

[MikeyC]

So anyways the date was a success. I completely forgot why I love guys so much and then I realized my best guy friend was more of a gentlemen then anybody I ever came across. I told him I didn't have anything to wear to go to a fancy restaurant. He said don't worry about it, took me to a dress shop told me 'Pick out whatever you want'.
Went to a restaurant that is probably costs more then my whole bank savings and the waitress thought we were married. She kept saying to him 'What does your wife want?', so we just played along to go with it and told her about our 'wedding' and how we had it on the beach . LOL, she was such a ditz. I asked her how old she thought I was, she said '24'?
Still thinking about it <3 !

That is absolutely amazing. I'm so happy you had a wonderful time.

I find it a little...strange that despite there being what..3-4 billion women on the planet, (apart from my family) none of them seem to want anything to do with me. You'd think by the time you reach your mid 20s, even if you're not the best socialiser that at least 1 person would have shown at least a slight amount of interest in getting to know you.

Or maybe not.

There's no possible way to meet all those billions of women so you don't know that. There's a girl for you, mate.

I hate it when I hate myself.

Sorry you're feeling like this, twiggle. I hope it passes.

 

[superfluouslyme]

oooo, can i have one?

i KNOW i'm full of crap

 

[KiaKaha]

Some people like to come across as super friendly, in control and have a positive outlook toward everything.... when really they arent that way at all. For some people its a facade, a front for manipulation and their own self loathing - cleverly disguised.

I may not be extroverted or particularly bubbly but I am someone who is respectful and considerate to other people.... I am kind of hoping that that counts for something.

(and before anyone mentions it - no that is not a rule or a generalization)

 

[DeadmanWalking]

Some people like to come across as super friendly, in control and have a positive outlook toward everything.... when really they arent that way at all. For some people its a facade, a front for manipulation and their own self loathing - cleverly disguised.

I may not be extroverted or particularly bubbly but I am someone who is respectful and considerate to other people.... I am kind of hoping that that counts for something.

(and before anyone mentions it - no that is not a rule or a generalization)

It does. I surmise that, if you're like me, people are somewhat intimidated by you. I don't look very friendly in real life; I've been told that I either look angry or that I have something on my mind. In high school, people made jokes about me and how I would one day come to school and go on a mass murder spree. Either way though, people don't want to approach me because they don't know how I'll react. Maybe it's the same for you. Because you aren't "particularly bubbly", people are afraid to come talk to you. Try to be more open and inviting. You've got such a wonderful personality and people should definitely get to know you.

 

[KiaKaha]

It doesI've been told that I either look angry or that I have something on my mind. In high school, people made jokes about me and how I would one day come to school and go on a mass murder spree. Either way though, people don't want to approach me because they don't know how I'll react. Maybe it's the same for you. Because you aren't "particularly bubbly", people are afraid to come talk to you. Try to be more open and inviting. You've got such a wonderful personality and people should definitely get to know you.

Yes! People have told me that too... I always look like I have something on my mind (and sometimes I do) or that I look unfriendly or unapproachable (which I am not) - my exterior shell has a lot to answer for (perhaps everyones does) - I am just saying... not everything is the way that it seems at first - just because someone appears to be friendly, doesnt necesarily mean that they are, there might be a side to them that is vindictive... or just because someone appears to be unfriendly and reserved doesnt necessairly mean that they are indifferent or distant.

Perhaps the brain can only decipher so much information - we all need to react to the world in someway.... otherwise nothing would get done.

Ok now I am rambling... same goes to you deadman

 

[MsBuzzkillington]

oooo, can i have one?

i KNOW i'm full of crap

I will order a whole truck load for you.

 

[Invisibleman]

I feel like im losing my mind. Ive been contemplating suicide the last few days.

 

[Shyangel]

@Iluv

Yay!! I'm so happy it went so well for you!! That was so sweet of him to buy you a dress like that, I say marry him!! A man willing to buy any dress you want is a keeper! lol
Seriously, though, that sounds like it was really nice. I hope you have many more great dates.

 

[MikeyC]

I may not be extroverted or particularly bubbly but I am someone who is respectful and considerate to other people.... I am kind of hoping that that counts for something.

Perfect. Makes me want to meet you even more.

I feel like im losing my mind. Ive been contemplating suicide the last few days.

If you want to chat to me about anything you know where my inbox is, okay?

 

[twiggle]

I feel like im losing my mind. Ive been contemplating suicide the last few days.

I hope you're feeling a bit better now, Invisibleman.
PM me if you need.

 

[Invisibleman]

I hope you're feeling a bit better now, Invisibleman.
PM me if you need.

I still feel down but I dunno it will probably pass i hope.

 

[me-tan]

I feel so lonely on this forum. I know I'm kind of afraid of other people enough so that I tend to stay inside my house most of the time... Though on here I feel more alone than i do most places.

 

[Sartana]

It always sucks when it's nice and sunny out and yet you have nothing to do.

 

[me-tan]

I prefer rainy and overcast days, no one around. For me sunny days are days I dont want to go outside... I like it when it's dark and dreary, I feel so relaxed and those tend to be the best days for me.

 

[BlackPuma]

It's kinda disappointing to see how new comers at work form close relationships with the colleagues within days, doing nothing special, yet I've made fast improvements on every department I worked at over the past year, doing much more then is asked of me, and I'm still greeted with a awkward hello.

The worst thing is, I'm as natural as I can be around them. Maybe I have personality scars that I'm overlooking that they're repelled by. People were acting weird all day, more so then usual.

 

[jonas89]

Like the weirdest thing happened today at the gym, I was doing a bench press and when I were almost done on the last rep then came some total stranger and helped me make a few more yelling over me; ONE more you can do it, and then I manage to make one more,, then he started again ONE MORE hhaha,, and when I was done he just went away doing his exercises and then left, I did even have the chance to thank him for that boost