Every time I get home and want to mess about on the internet, dad starts downloading films and stels all the damn bandwidth for hours 😠
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AsTimeBurns said: ↑Every time I get home and want to mess about on the internet, dad starts downloading films and stels all the damn bandwidth for hours 😠
Tell him to knock it off! 🙂 Does he just download movies? Does he ever stop to watch them?
It's been snowing off and on for the last 3 hours. While that makes me happy, it's not sticking. :/
Phoenixx said: ↑It's been snowing off and on for the last 3 hours. While that makes me happy, it's not sticking. :/
You want it to stick? 😮
^ Yeah, I want snow for Christmas. 🙂philly2bits said: ↑You want it to stick? 😮
Phoenixx said: ↑^ Yeah, I want snow for Christmas. 🙂
That sounds nice. Provided the snow melts away by the next day of course.
Phoenixx said: ↑^ Yeah, I want snow for Christmas. 🙂
You can come take some of my fine, central Wisconsin snow. We've got plenty.
^ Oh good. If you don't mind, I'll even take it all.Pyrophosphate said: ↑You can come take some of my fine, central Wisconsin snow. We've got plenty.
Phoenixx said: ↑^ Oh good. If you don't mind, I'll even take it all.
Good. Take it all. I don't want it.
And drop some off in Illinois for superfluouslyme.
I'm back baby!!! My internet's back up in my room and I'm ready to dance a jig:D:D! I thought I was going to have to meet up with one of the RA (room advisors), but not anymore! Funny, it came back up after I got done shaving (on a side note, I hate facial hair! It's too itchy!)! Now, I have to go wash my clothes, then get ready to recycle, which means it's time to guzzle down as many Sprites as I possibly can:cool:! It also means that I'm going to have to sift through my trash, not looking forward to it.
My shyness makes me boring, unapproachable, unlikeable and unfriendly. Its no wonder that no one wants anything to do with me. I can be friendly and funny, but it never shows because of the wall I put up around myself. My shyness robs me of my self esteem and satisfaction from life.
I feel frustrated and that no one cares about me.
I feel frustrated and that no one cares about me.
Pyrophosphate said: ↑You can come take some of my fine, central Wisconsin snow. We've got plenty.
just a few flurries up here :[
I think we are very similar :🙁:ShyKiwi said: ↑My shyness makes me boring, unapproachable, unlikeable and unfriendly. Its no wonder that no one wants anything to do with me. I can be friendly and funny, but it never shows because of the wall I put up around myself. My shyness robs me of my self esteem and satisfaction from life.
I feel frustrated and that no one cares about me.
I think my problem comes more likely from having no self-esteem, though.
People's behaviour towards my efforts to become a better person, a likeable person, don't help at all.
I think I found a flower in a field of weeds
Searching until my hands bleed
This flower don't belong to me
Searching until my hands bleed
This flower don't belong to me
I failed on so many levels. I used to feel good about my marks, about my intelligence. Now I feel like crap, like I actually am the stupidest person. I disappointed myself so much.
But today, my savior turned out to be food. Hahaha I ate like two bars of chocolate. Made me feel better but still sad as ****
But today, my savior turned out to be food. Hahaha I ate like two bars of chocolate. Made me feel better but still sad as ****
polishgirl said: ↑I failed on so many levels. I used to feel good about my marks, about my intelligence. Now I feel like crap, like I actually am the stupidest person. I disappointed myself so much.
But today, my savior turned out to be food. Hahaha I ate like two bars of chocolate. Made me feel better but still sad as ****
Hm? What's wrong? Would you like to talk about it?
I don't know what's happening inside my head, I feel a bit down and that is a feeling that I hate the most, because Im not really used to it and if to be honest It scares me, I always start to think if I end up doing something stupid 🙁, and probably I have become emotionally attached to someone that I have never meet, Don't know if its a crush or just obsession of the nice things that this individual is giving me.
I disappoint everybody, even myself
By high school, I'd become so embarrassed about my high grades that I did my best to hide them. I certainly didn't do anything to deserve them; I remember a classmate saying, "You must do like four hours of homework a night" and I felt too uncomfortable to tell him that I didn't do any. Not a great way to learn mental discipline.
I applied to study Architecture rather than the Medicine that everyone expected me to take (and which was certainly more in line with my strengths). Why? I wanted to stop being a nerd.
It was only at Arch School that I realized that a large part of my self esteem had in fact rested on my smarts, which is part of why I switched to CS. And studying CS was the happiest time of my life, bolstered by a constant stream of As.
And then the uncertainty of work, and floundering in the dark, and unrelenting panic.
My ex said of me: heaps of horsepower, can't put it on the ground.
polishgirl said: ↑I failed on so many levels. I used to feel good about my marks, about my intelligence. Now I feel like crap, like I actually am the stupidest person. I disappointed myself so much.
By high school, I'd become so embarrassed about my high grades that I did my best to hide them. I certainly didn't do anything to deserve them; I remember a classmate saying, "You must do like four hours of homework a night" and I felt too uncomfortable to tell him that I didn't do any. Not a great way to learn mental discipline.
I applied to study Architecture rather than the Medicine that everyone expected me to take (and which was certainly more in line with my strengths). Why? I wanted to stop being a nerd.
It was only at Arch School that I realized that a large part of my self esteem had in fact rested on my smarts, which is part of why I switched to CS. And studying CS was the happiest time of my life, bolstered by a constant stream of As.
And then the uncertainty of work, and floundering in the dark, and unrelenting panic.
My ex said of me: heaps of horsepower, can't put it on the ground.
Re: I disappoint everybody, even myself
...and then to hide how nerd I am I chose to study Computer Engineering 🙄
Same happened to me, and even when we studied statistics we had to say our grade and the hours we studied and i was the only one who fell far away from everyone else (linear regression), I had the higher grade and one of the students that studied less... the teacher said I lied and I didn't >.<Aletheia said: ↑By high school, I'd become so embarrassed about my high grades that I did my best to hide them. I certainly didn't do anything to deserve them; I remember a classmate saying, "You must do like four hours of homework a night" and I felt too uncomfortable to tell him that I didn't do any. Not a great way to learn mental discipline.
...and then to hide how nerd I am I chose to study Computer Engineering 🙄
geek chic
These days coding has accrued a fair cachet, and is no longer a thing to feel embarrassed about (the high salaries help).
I once saw a t-shirt: geeks get the chicks when they're older.
MrJones said: ↑...and then to hide how nerd I am I chose to study Computer Engineering 🙄
These days coding has accrued a fair cachet, and is no longer a thing to feel embarrassed about (the high salaries help).
I once saw a t-shirt: geeks get the chicks when they're older.