I hate university. I thought I was going to like it .. that it's going to be completely diferent that high school ... that people are going to mind their own business ... but they don't.
+ I'm afraid of tomorrow. I've got classes and I'm afraid I'm going to see the guy I like. We talked a few times and I embarassed myself completely. He must think I'm stupid. I was trying to buy some soda on a vending machine while he was waiting in line for the vending machine next to mine. We talked about random stuff and then I f***ed it up. I put .50€ in the machine, thinking it was 1€ and I type in the number ... of course, I didn't get the soda, because it costs .60€. I just started pressing random buttons and then left, leaving the money in the machine. What the hell? I later realized what I did wrong, but it was too late. I just couldn't think while he was watching me. And one time we went out for a smoke and I didn't have my cigarettes with me so he rolled me one with his tobacco ... And I didn't know how to smoke that stuff!? It kept extinguishing (I don't know if that's the proper expression, I "googletranslated" it) and I had to ask for his lighter every 5 seconds.
God, I like him sooo much ... eventhough he doesn't like me. He keeps teasing me about my height (I'm not THAT small, I'm 170 cm) and some other random sh*t. I had a date written on my hand (dentist appointment) and he asked me if that's a guys number (in joke, of course)... Well go to hell, I know I'm not exactly attractive, but you can't say that to a girl with low self-esteem. I just try to avoid him now (not like he's eagerly trying to talk to me nor is he looking for me, I just don't want to "run into him" by any chance).