It used to soothe me, but after living in a place that floods, then where I live now which can flood a bit and where the roof leaks a bit in heavy rain, I've developed a bit of a complex around rain (and wind!)
Honestly though, sometimes you have to sit still in order to go forward. Because sitting still allows you to figure out where you want to go and enjoy your own company instead of keeping up with everyone else. Once I finally took on this mentality last year for college, the last two semesters have been a lot less stressful on me. Even now with graduating, I couldn't care less about what everyone else is doing after. I do me, and I know what I want.
You do you, Fountain. What you're saying doesn't sound like giving up to me.
I was gonna say similar to Phoenix, sometimes you gotta sit and catch your breath in life. When you're ready you can get back up again and give it another try, maybe with a different direction or purpose in mind
In my experience, the existential angst of doing nothing, of not putting good effort into life, inevitably became unbearable; I decided recently that the only way I'm ever going to be happy is if I face and defeat my fears, to push through them. It's a work in progress. I'm of the belief that we only get one life. We can either do something with it or do nothing with it. Better to do something with it... to push through our toughest challenges with the belief that our spirits are indomitable. The time will pass anyway.
All my errands and chores for the weekend are completed. I have a bit of quiet time to myself right now. I've got some mellow fucking meditative music playing and there's a cool breeze coming in through the window. I really can't be bothered at this moment.
Since I've been working full time, I've actually had to make an effort to remind myself of the bigger scope of things. Before I decided to drown myself in work and adult life, I'd always look up into the night sky, at least 3 times a week, and remind myself how tiny the human race is, how tiny our planet is, and how terrifyingly awesome the cosmos really is.
I literally had to remind myself to look at the sky this weekend--as I've somehow completely forgot about it--being that my thoughts have been enveloped by work and my tiny, localized ape worries.
Sometimes you have to realize and then accept that everybody is lying. It has become the corporate culture even or perhaps especially within organizations that are out there to help you. You can look them in the eyes and think your lying to me. The trouble with this is that to survive you have to become a player. Let them lie as long as you get what you want. OK, it works like that but it is deceitful and after a while it wears you down. You end up becoming deceitful yourself.
Lots of field work. An 8 hour hike looking for a mallee, went to the wrong spot. Then a day observibg a drone and abseiling survey I organised for a rare plant growing on cliffs. Stayed overnight in a house with 2 other people. Getting better at hanging out with humans.