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I think I need a sign over my bed that read "Go to sleep; You'll feel better in the morning" because that almost always seems to be the case. Nonetheless I periodically find myself up late feeling the need to find the solution some problem that weighs much more heavily on me at midnight than at 8 am. Last night, as it frequently has been in my adult life, that problem was my money/life balance. And this is a real issue for me, but my only options aren't 1) Magically win the lottery 2) Use a mystical watch that can stop time to steal unnoticeably small amounts of money from multiple stores over time, and then launder that money through a online book selling business so the IRS doesn't get suspicious and I also don't have to talk to people 3)Make a YouTube video and watch it on repeat to collect ad revenue, because no one's thought of that before, or 4) Die.

I generally cycle through a lot more ideas than that, but they all either seem to either be wishful thinking or a miserable existence/death. Cycle is actually a good word, because I usually cycle from one to the other. Like, I'll decide a practical ("practical") solution is to work 12 hours a day, 7 days a week, for 70 years, and then maybe retire for a day before old age gets me. Obviously that sounds shitty, so instead I think about how I could instead casually become a famous Twitch player and easily make my living playing video games all day ("Casually", "Easily"). After spending some time coming up with a course of action to accomplish that, I remember no one would want to watch me play video games, let alone pay me. That sends me back to the options the harsh reality has for me. Like get a real job and be perpetually stressed, exhausted and bitter. Or I could do nothing!...And live with my parents forever! And on and on ad nauseam.

Eventually I go to sleep, wake up in the morning, and feel fine. The harsh realities I have to deal with haven't gone away, and the magical solutions for them are no more likely than they were the night before, but I see the middle area between them a little more clearly now. Ironically though, I decided to write this in the evening which has now become night, so now all I can think about is deciding between finding a sugar momma, or getting hit by a bus.

Go to sleep vj, you'll feel better in the morning.
 
I think I need a sign over my bed that read "Go to sleep; You'll feel better in the morning" because that almost always seems to be the case. Nonetheless I periodically find myself up late feeling the need to find the solution some problem that weighs much more heavily on me at midnight than at 8 am. Last night, as it frequently has been in my adult life, that problem was my money/life balance. And this is a real issue for me, but my only options aren't 1) Magically win the lottery 2) Use a mystical watch that can stop time to steal unnoticeably small amounts of money from multiple stores over time, and then launder that money through a online book selling business so the IRS doesn't get suspicious and I also don't have to talk to people 3)Make a YouTube video and watch it on repeat to collect ad revenue, because no one's thought of that before, or 4) Die.

I generally cycle through a lot more ideas than that, but they all either seem to either be wishful thinking or a miserable existence/death. Cycle is actually a good word, because I usually cycle from one to the other. Like, I'll decide a practical ("practical") solution is to work 12 hours a day, 7 days a week, for 70 years, and then maybe retire for a day before old age gets me. Obviously that sounds shitty, so instead I think about how I could instead casually become a famous Twitch player and easily make my living playing video games all day ("Casually", "Easily"). After spending some time coming up with a course of action to accomplish that, I remember no one would want to watch me play video games, let alone pay me. That sends me back to the options the harsh reality has for me. Like get a real job and be perpetually stressed, exhausted and bitter. Or I could do nothing!...And live with my parents forever! And on and on ad nauseam.

Eventually I go to sleep, wake up in the morning, and feel fine. The harsh realities I have to deal with haven't gone away, and the magical solutions for them are no more likely than they were the night before, but I see the middle area between them a little more clearly now. Ironically though, I decided to write this in the evening which has now become night, so now all I can think about is deciding between finding a sugar momma, or getting hit by a bus.

Go to sleep vj, you'll feel better in the morning.

I always enjoy reading your long posts, vj!! They are always insightful and entertaining at the same time. (y) 💛
Sorry, my mind is too exhausted to think/offer any advise on your dilemma atm.

I should put a sign above my bed that says:
"Stop stressing Blue! There is always tomorrow, to get it done" :)
 
I feel overloaded with things at work - I could probably handle my increasing workload (not yet learnt how to say no) if it wasn't for the whole way I feel about my social interactions with colleagues. I sit in my own, small office which I do enjoy at times, being able to be further away from some of the inane discussion about things in the main area, however I feel awkward walking into their space and starting conversation, when I do one person barely looks and seems dismissive. I was thinking about looking for new opportunities and felt after 5 years maybe I'd had enough (was gutted not to be on the interview list for a job) and the changing work dynamic that hasn't been for the better, has been another factor to want to work in a mature, work ethic friendly environment. Everything feels like it's happening at once in terms of my declining friendliness to others, and an inability to engage with others who I feel don't take my engagement with any sincerity or interest. Anyway, I've waffled enough..
 

Phoenixx

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I think I need a sign over my bed that read "Go to sleep; You'll feel better in the morning" because that almost always seems to be the case. Nonetheless I periodically find myself up late feeling the need to find the solution some problem that weighs much more heavily on me at midnight than at 8 am....

Eventually I go to sleep, wake up in the morning, and feel fine. The harsh realities I have to deal with haven't gone away, and the magical solutions for them are no more likely than they were the night before, but I see the middle area between them a little more clearly now. Ironically though, I decided to write this in the evening which has now become night, so now all I can think about is deciding between finding a sugar momma, or getting hit by a bus.
I get the same way when I'm stuck on a problem, except my feeling fine doesn't happen until I find a solution. Once I have an issue on my hands, my brain says, "We need to fix this NOW! QUICKLY!" And I'm left restlessly cycling through solutions until I figure one out. I can go nights tossing and turning and losing sleep over it. Then I go through the day with it still nagging at the back of my mind until I give myself the chance to think about it. It becomes obsessive for me. I have found that can be a blessing or a curse, as sometimes I do come up with some pretty good ideas and I eventually figure things out. But it can be so hard convincing myself of the inevitable, that some things need to stay the way they are before they can change.

I hope you find your answers, vj. Or a sugar momma. ;)
 
I always enjoy reading your long posts, vj!! They are always insightful and entertaining at the same time. (y) 💛
Sorry, my mind is too exhausted to think/offer any advise on your dilemma atm.

I should put a sign above my bed that says:
"Stop stressing Blue! There is always tomorrow, to get it done" :)
We should start a SA sign business, with signs people can put all over their houses to constantly remind them of things. If I didn't live with my parents, I would happily put signs everywhere ::p:

I get the same way when I'm stuck on a problem, except my feeling fine doesn't happen until I find a solution. Once I have an issue on my hands, my brain says, "We need to fix this NOW! QUICKLY!" And I'm left restlessly cycling through solutions until I figure one out. I can go nights tossing and turning and losing sleep over it. Then I go through the day with it still nagging at the back of my mind until I give myself the chance to think about it. It becomes obsessive for me. I have found that can be a blessing or a curse, as sometimes I do come up with some pretty good ideas and I eventually figure things out. But it can be so hard convincing myself of the inevitable, that some things need to stay the way they are before they can change.

I hope you find your answers, vj. Or a sugar momma. ;)
Blessing and a curse, I was going to say the same thing. While it may occupy your mind for longer, it seems like you're more likely to come out the other end with a actionable plan or the perspective that the best action is to do nothing. I wish I was able to do that a little more often actually. Late at night I recognize feel the weight of my action (or inaction) on my near and far future, but day-to-day I don't feel that same pressure. A little bit of healthy stress to motivate could go a long way I am thinking.
 

Phoenixx

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Whenever I'm stumped for gift ideas, I just buy a gift-card to a restaurant the person likes. Do they like Starbucks? I know Starbucks people love those gift-cards.
I was thinking of a gift card too, but maybe for a photo print service so they can put that towards printing wedding photos. I'm always cautious with gift cards though because I'm so afraid that people think I'm lazy or I don't care.

I think I might end up doing this though and pairing it with a frame. 🤔
 
I was thinking of a gift card too, but maybe for a photo print service so they can put that towards printing wedding photos. I'm always cautious with gift cards though because I'm so afraid that people think I'm lazy or I don't care.

I think I might end up doing this though and pairing it with a frame. 🤔
I would put the gift card in the frame. :)
 
Rain does some major calming on my psychological state.
I often find Rain Sounds on Youtube and listen to it for as long as possible. ☕️🍪 🌈

Going to Google why rain is so incredibly calming to some people's mood....
It does the same to me Blue!
There's something so comforting about being inside and warm on a cold rainy day.. looking out at the rain as I play my fav games, or watch a movie :)
 
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