Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

[Phoenixx]

I hate dealing with bullies. I just have to remember that they hate themselves so much that's why they treat everyone like shit. So everyone else can feel as bad as they do.

 

[Psychedelicious]

Re: etc

So you have taken up carrying a napsack and riding the rails?

Well not quite. All I need is a backpack and a ride from place to place. I can't wait to have my car back, it will give me so much more freedom. I'm looking forward for several opportunities for temporary work and I don't care which one pans out or where it is. It's nice to not have to feel stuck in one place all the time. I can't go back to that.

 

[Pyrophosphate]

Most of my immediate family lives in South Carolina these days, about 10 miles from the coast near Charleston. You may have heard about a certain hurricane set to wreck up the place one of these days, and they will certainly be in the danger zone, but my mom has decided they will not be evacuating. Stupid as hell if you ask me. But she didn't ask me. She made up her own mind and is just going with it, and she's dragging 4 of my siblings along with her.

I guess part of integrating with the local culture down there is pretending that a hurricane can't hurt you because it's been a while since one caused any major damage. Stupid.

 

[TryAgain]

I was gonna post a negative rant, but then I thought to myself: hey, why don't you just bottle it all up as usual?

 

[BlueDays]

How do so many human beings just NOT CARE that there are so many cruel injustices in this world?

There can't be that many psychopaths in the world, surely. :sad:

Maybe all of the people who don't care about the suffering of other people - the psychopaths - are the normal human beings, and we who do care are the abnormal humans? :thinking:

 

[S_Spartan]

You know, there comes a time when you just have to realize that you are missing some magical ingredient that everyone else seems to have that gets them good things in life.
The ingredient that makes their lives just "flow".
Question is, how do you live without that ingredient?
I mean you can still exist somewhat but you can never really thrive.

 

[theslowesthand]

Pronoia is a neologism that is defined as the opposite state of mind to paranoia: having the sense that there is a conspiracy that exists to help the person. It is also used to describe a philosophy that the world is set up to secretly benefit people.

I personally have always tended to subscribe more to the paranoia way of seeing things, but it does please me that such a thing as pronoia exists!

 

[Lonelykitsune]

Really thought I was getting somewhere but here I am again and it's worse than before

 

[Graeme1988]

Finally got ma Yahoo account back. Nae thanks to that wummin on the phone confusing me between ma email and reset password.

Captain Bawbag, here - finally when: Awww, ma first name then number - Derpy, derpy, duh! Ya feckin' mong! mg: h: **Slaps right hand

By the way, Yahoo's customer service is shite. Sue me! But it is. Ah wus on-hold for hours the other day. :kickingmyself: Talking tae me in the NATO phonetic alphabet. Away and... Foxtrot-Uniform-Charlie-Kilo yerself!

 

[Phoenixx]

Most of my immediate family lives in South Carolina these days, about 10 miles from the coast near Charleston. You may have heard about a certain hurricane set to wreck up the place one of these days, and they will certainly be in the danger zone, but my mom has decided they will not be evacuating. Stupid as hell if you ask me. But she didn't ask me. She made up her own mind and is just going with it, and she's dragging 4 of my siblings along with her.

I guess part of integrating with the local culture down there is pretending that a hurricane can't hurt you because it's been a while since one caused any major damage. Stupid.

^ I hope your family stays safe. I have family in Florida, near Miami. I have no idea how they're doing, but I've been scoping Facebook for updates. I hope they're safe too.

 

[Phoenixx]

I was gonna post a negative rant, but then I thought to myself: hey, why don't you just bottle it all up as usual?

^ Bottling is no good. Rant away.

 

[Phoenixx]

I got a blood test the other day, to figure out why I've been feeling so exhausted and cruddy. I thought for sure it must be nutritional, as I kept a nutrition log for a week and my B12 and iron intakes were fairly low. Nope, blood work came back normal. No deficiencies. My doctor believes my anxiety and depression are to blame. I told her it comes and goes in waves, and is better than it used to be, but I guess in the long run it still leaves you feeling horrible for a while. Even on the days where I think I'm okay, I still feel the tightness in my chest like I'm suffocating. The headaches never go away. And some days I feel like I'm dying. :sad: Deep down I know I'm not, but my mind sometimes tells me otherwise.

She encouraged me to do some homework and wants to put me on either Lexapro or Zoloft. I have no idea how much and I have no idea what the differences are (I'm a nutritionist, not a pharmacist), but I won't get it for a while. I really don't want to start a new medication in the middle of the semester, in case of side effects. I'd rather wait until December when I'm on my break.

 

[AtTheGates]

I'm finally moving to the next step of my life and starting a career but its with a heavy heart...especially TODAY....i know that this is the right direction to go because ill finally have a decent job..but after that the next step is working on my social life....and i feel like thats going to be the hardest of ALL...like making friends and dating ...i haven't done that in YEARS...


im only 26, i just feel like I'm too young to feel so jaded towards life.


.tbh i feel so completely alone . i know i have my immediate family but other than that i just feel like I'm striking our into unknown territory all by myself with no one by my side...everyone else has a lot of friends, is in love, married, and/or has love interests....meanwhile I'm just alone ...i used to be able to ignore it, i got to the point where i didnt care...but through certain experiences I'm at the point now where i can't ignore the loneliness anymore...i can't block it out anymore and it just hurts so much to not have anyone....


i know i have to be EXTRA strong to move forward and have HOPE that the future will be better...because its going to be even HARDER for ME knowing that ill be alone for the foreseeable future...

 

[theslowesthand]

I got a blood test the other day, to figure out why I've been feeling so exhausted and cruddy. I thought for sure it must be nutritional, as I kept a nutrition log for a week and my B12 and iron intakes were fairly low. Nope, blood work came back normal. No deficiencies. My doctor believes my anxiety and depression are to blame. I told her it comes and goes in waves, and is better than it used to be, but I guess in the long run it still leaves you feeling horrible for a while. Even on the days where I think I'm okay, I still feel the tightness in my chest like I'm suffocating. The headaches never go away. And some days I feel like I'm dying. :sad: Deep down I know I'm not, but my mind sometimes tells me otherwise

Check that there's no toxins in your living environment. Basically anything that smells. You might be reacting to those toxins.

 

[Graeme1988]

While I get they want stop piracy of their product, but why do software companies insist on overpricing their software? Aye, ah know, competition is another factor anaw. But if wus more reasonably priced, as opposed to £80 to £100 plus, then folk wouldnae feel the need to download an illegal versions, no? :idontknow:

It's rather shitty that there's 3 software programs ah really need, and currently, cannae even afford a single one o' them. :kickingmyself:

 

[Kiwong]

Severe back pain for four days. Hard to walk and stand up, improving this morning. I will be able to go on my weeks trip away.

 

[State_Of_Trance]

I made a list of things I want.

• I want to be perfect.
• I want to do everything. So like if I eat pizza one day I feel bad that I didn't eat calzones. If I eat calzones I feel bad that I didn't eat pizza. I want to do all the things and not give up anything. I want to have my cake and eat it too.
• I want to read every important book ever.
• I want to look perfect
• There's a lot of overlap in these things.
• I want everyone to like me and agree with me or at least respect my opinions.
• Basically I want to be omnipotent.

That's quite a to-do list. Better get to work.

 

[Megaten]

I made a list of things I want.

• I want to be perfect.
• I want to do everything. So like if I eat pizza one day I feel bad that I didn't eat calzones. If I eat calzones I feel bad that I didn't eat pizza. I want to do all the things and not give up anything. I want to have my cake and eat it too.
• I want to read every important book ever.
• I want to look perfect
• There's a lot of overlap in these things.
• I want everyone to like me and agree with me or at least respect my opinions.
• Basically I want to be omnipotent.

That's quite a to-do list. Better get to work.

You might be able to pull it off if you can collect all of the Infinity Gems. But be warned we may have to assemble a team to stop you.

 

[State_Of_Trance]

You might be able to pull it off if you can collect all of the Infinity Gems. But be warned we may have to assemble a team to stop you.

A quick Google search tells me that I'm way behind on my MCU.

Oh, snap, did I just give a speech about my villainous goals? Do I secretly want to be a villain and not even know it? OH SNAP! I mean, for real, that bullet list sounds like stuff I'd have to sell my soul to get and totally seems villain-like.

This actually makes a lot of sense. I also like Light Yagami and Makishima, some villain characters.

I'm messed up. lolz

 

[Phoenixx]

Check that there's no toxins in your living environment. Basically anything that smells. You might be reacting to those toxins.

^ There are definitely no toxins in my environment, or as far as my house goes and the surrounding area, and also college. Work is a different story. I'm quite certain I'm exposed to lots of mold there, as I have been battling a terrible stuffy/runny nose for months now, but that gets better the longer I'm home and away from work.

Aside from that, I haven't had any breathing "problems" until last week, and also some days randomly within the last few months. And those random days I'm also quite anxious and feeling scattered. These breathing "problems" seem to be just panic attacks sneaking up on me. It really sucks, but if medication can actually help, then I'm willing to go for it.