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i have terrible mood swings. almost an hour ago, i was really tired and frustrated - half wanting to sleep, half wanting to break things. now, i just feel stupid for feeling it.

montejocarlo said: ↑

i have terrible mood swings. almost an hour ago, i was really tired and frustrated - half wanting to sleep, half wanting to break things. now, i just feel stupid for feeling it.

I've such terrible mood swings too. I hope you feel better soon.

I feel like I don't know what I'm supposed to do. And I don't mean with my life in general, I mean right now, today. My head is a mess. I can't get any sort of motivation to study since my tests are still one month away (including a week without classes). I don't want to waste my time with useless things like watching TV, movies, playing games or browsing the web.
I don't know what else I have to do to occupy these times where I have nothing to do and I can't get myself to study. I feel like I'm just wasting my days away, waiting for them to pass so that I can get to those 30 seconds of my morning where I have another opportunity to talk to that girl, which I won't take because my anxiety will paralyse me. And the cycle repeats endlessly.


At the same time I feel like I never get replies, which makes me feel like I'm not really sharing my problems with anyone. Maybe I should just pick some friend from real life and share my problems with said person. I just have to hope this person is trustworthy and that (s)he won't tell my problems to everyone (specially my sister). I also need the guts to ask that person to meet me but that's a whole different issue.

Everything's so complicated. So god damn complicated.

Hellhound said: ↑

Everything's so complicated. So god damn complicated.

my thoughts exactly.:sad:

Got ma refund from eBay. After much back an' forth wi' the seller - though, the seller knew I was f**kin' around when I reported 'em to eBay. :bigsmile:

Ithior said: ↑

I feel like I don't know what I'm supposed to do. And I don't mean with my life in general, I mean right now, today. My head is a mess. I can't get any sort of motivation to study since my tests are still one month away (including a week without classes). I don't want to waste my time with useless things like watching TV, movies, playing games or browsing the web.
I don't know what else I have to do to occupy these times where I have nothing to do and I can't get myself to study. I feel like I'm just wasting my days away, waiting for them to pass so that I can get to those 30 seconds of my morning where I have another opportunity to talk to that girl, which I won't take because my anxiety will paralyse me. And the cycle repeats endlessly.


At the same time I feel like I never get replies, which makes me feel like I'm not really sharing my problems with anyone. Maybe I should just pick some friend from real life and share my problems with said person. I just have to hope this person is trustworthy and that (s)he won't tell my problems to everyone (specially my sister). I also need the guts to ask that person to meet me but that's a whole different issue.

I'm sorry you're feeling so unmotivated... Since you class browsing the web as a useless thing (but presumably something you'd feel more like doing?) why don't you make it a useful thing and spend some time looking up something interesting/constructive/connected to what your tests will be about?

Alternatively, try doing something different, something you wouldn't normally do, but may enjoy. Even if you don't feel like it to begin with, once you start you may feel a little better about it.

I hope you feel better soon.

Whoa. I just looked outside and it's snowing like a crazy person.

My friend went into a local mental health ward yesterday afternoon.

Last night, I'm in bed, and he arrives at my place. Basically, he had ran away, became a missing person for a few hours, had to call his mum from my phone because he threw his at a wall and broke it, had to drive him to his mum when she was lost, found out he bought a rope to attempt suicide, and listen to his stories about how he was planning to sleep in a nearby forest last night.

He needs help, and his welfare worries me.

Croissants, you have my eternal devotion. I LOVE YOU.

I want a croissant with strawberry jam...

MikeyC said: ↑

My friend went into a local mental health ward yesterday afternoon.

Last night, I'm in bed, and he arrives at my place. Basically, he had ran away, became a missing person for a few hours, had to call his mum from my phone because he threw his at a wall and broke it, had to drive him to his mum when she was lost, found out he bought a rope to attempt suicide, and listen to his stories about how he was planning to sleep in a nearby forest last night.

He needs help, and his welfare worries me.

:/ yikes, sorry to hear this. I hope he gets some help and gets better.

MikeyC said: ↑

My friend went into a local mental health ward yesterday afternoon.

Last night, I'm in bed, and he arrives at my place. Basically, he had ran away, became a missing person for a few hours, had to call his mum from my phone because he threw his at a wall and broke it, had to drive him to his mum when she was lost, found out he bought a rope to attempt suicide, and listen to his stories about how he was planning to sleep in a nearby forest last night.

He needs help, and his welfare worries me.

Yes he does - that would worry me too - I think you have done everything right though.

MikeyC said: ↑

My friend went into a local mental health ward yesterday afternoon.

Last night, I'm in bed, and he arrives at my place. Basically, he had ran away, became a missing person for a few hours, had to call his mum from my phone because he threw his at a wall and broke it, had to drive him to his mum when she was lost, found out he bought a rope to attempt suicide, and listen to his stories about how he was planning to sleep in a nearby forest last night.

He needs help, and his welfare worries me.

Yeah, I agree. I really hope he gets better soon. You're a very caring friend though Mikey.

Raise kids on cartoons and books with messages of friendship and community, then act astonished when as adults they don't abandon their original values for the new, post-puberty ones. Fine logic, society, just fine.

Just seems to be me, though - strange.

God... I need help.

I wish this earth would just blow up.

Hellhound said: ↑

God... I need help.

What's wrong? Talk to me if you want to.

i can't sleep. the weather is being crazy right now and it's noisy out there.

I'm dreading school tomorrow. Sleep has so much more to offer. Like being unconscious.

some days are just dark and heavy. sometimes, they're like a trap - nowhere to escape. that feeling when you're too broken to act brave but too weak to weep. and you desperately want to do both as you count every single thing you've lost while you're busy being a drama queen.

worse, history is deemed to repeat itself for the person who's thick-headed enough not to learn.