Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

[KiaKaha]

I have been meaning to write back to someone on the forum for the last couple of days. Been busy and way tired. I am sorry, will get back to you soon - you know who you are.

Had a good weekend. Got my tan on - caught up with the social phobes - one didn't show up - saw the group of people, freaked out and went home - caught up with her later though. I got my final result back 88% for my papers on discrimination against ethinic cultures and the underlying oppressiveness of westernized culture (damn whitey) - I now have my next text book for the next 2 papers for applied social and individual psychology. This is taking forevverrrrrr...

All good though. I don't mind.
As long as it allows me to attain the mechanism I need to advocate change. I am patient as hell.

You know - if anyone cares that is...

 

[bcsr]

To This Day Project - Shane Koyczan - YouTube

Might have been posted before, but I liked it, so I'm sharing.

 

[superfluouslyme]

Hey vj, lemur, and company - are we playing fantasy baseball again this year?

 

[Robin Yiu]

To This Day Project - Shane Koyczan - YouTube

Might have been posted before, but I liked it, so I'm sharing.

dats a sick ass vid

 

[Lamb]

Woke up with the desire to befriend all of the genuine people in the world and gain their experiences. Wish I could be everywhere at once. Maybe if I wish hard enough and tap my shoes it'll happen.

 

[Srijita52]

I seriously don't feel I can take it anymore. But every time I want to give up, something inside me pushes me to get up and try again, why bother? Why keep trying? Why can't I just accept that I'll always be like this. Its a cruel world out there and I'm getting a strong feeling that I don't have the ability to survive it. I guess the people who said I was too weak were right, I'm just not meant for all this.

 

[Nathália]

Woke up with the desire to befriend all of the genuine people in the world and gain their experiences. Wish I could be everywhere at once. Maybe if I wish hard enough and tap my shoes it'll happen.

That's a lovely thought and way to wake up.

I seriously don't feel I can take it anymore. But every time I want to give up, something inside me pushes me to get up and try again, why bother? Why keep trying? Why can't I just accept that I'll always be like this. Its a cruel world out there and I'm getting a strong feeling that I don't have the ability to survive it. I guess the people who said I was too weak were right, I'm just not meant for all this.

1. That's awful that people call you weak, you try and have aspirations. Don't listen to them, a person who's down does not need to be put down more. You may have issues with whatever, but don't think you deserve to be put down further. I know what you mean sometimes I wish I had a stop watch * Don't we all sometimes?* Hope you find a little bit of peace soon somewhere.

 

[GraybeardGhost]

I have questions. Big questions. Really, really big questions.

Okay, so maybe they're not that big, but they're still somewhat important, and I really ought to ask them, but I'm too afraid to pick up the phone and make the call.

Everything's so very, very late already.

Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.

:idontknow:

Fudge. :sad:

 

[Srijita52]

I'm never getting through this essay. It's taking forever and my head hurts a lot. I feel kind of stuck, and everything I write doesn't really seem to be making perfect sense. I'm certain I won't get it done or I'll submit something that isn't worth submitting.

Maybe take a break for a while? This is what I do when I get stuck.

You're not weak, you're still here, after all. Maybe you should just take some time to bear in mind that you DO try, and you DO get up over and over again, that's a huge accomplishment in itself. Definitely something to be proud of.

1. That's awful that people call you weak, you try and have aspirations. Don't listen to them, a person who's down does not need to be put down more. You may have issues with whatever, but don't think you deserve to be put down further. I know what you mean sometimes I wish I had a stop watch * Don't we all sometimes?* Hope you find a little bit of peace soon somewhere.

Thank you both. I guess I'm having one of those days when nothing goes right.

I have questions. Big questions. Really, really big questions.

Okay, so maybe they're not that big, but they're still somewhat important, and I really ought to ask them, but I'm too afraid to pick up the phone and make the call.

Everything's so very, very late already.

Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.

:idontknow:

Fudge. :sad:

Ugh phone calls, I can relate. What helps me is just making it without letting myself to overthink. I'm sure you'll feel much better after its done.

 

[Lea]

Jesus please give me one wish, I want to be someone else. I could think of things to do, but I can´t do anything simply because I am not the suitable type for anything. Or maybe I belong to some other planet.

 

[Ithior]

Jesus please give me one wish, I want to be someone else. I could think of things to do, but I can´t do anything simply because I am not the suitable type for anything. Or maybe I belong to some other planet.

What do you think you're not suitable for and why?

 

[Lea]

What do you think you're not suitable for and why?

NOTHING!! Everywhere are people, everywhere you need fu*king smile and social skills. I just don´t fit anywhere.

 

[Srijita52]

NOTHING!! Everywhere are people, everywhere you need fu*king smile and social skills. I just don´t fit anywhere.

I can relate Lea. I'm sorry.

Jesus please give me one wish, I want to be someone else. I could think of things to do, but I can´t do anything simply because I am not the suitable type for anything. Or maybe I belong to some other planet.

I know the feeling very well. I wish I was someone else too because being myself is never good enough for anyone.

 

[Ithior]

NOTHING!! Everywhere are people, everywhere you need fu*king smile and social skills. I just don´t fit anywhere.

But do you feel that way to something in particular right now?

It's normal to have people everywhere and interaction, we're a social being. Of course some of us feel more comfortable with that than others. Surely there are jobs (I assume that's what you're talking about here) where you can keep interaction to a minimum. It can't be completely put aside though, unless you work on programming or something that can be done from home and doesn't require communication with anyone else.

If you don't want to talk to your colleagues you can just keep it simple by being polite. You should smile, but by that I merely mean you should look very serious, mad or sad, not necessarily a wide smile showing all your teeth.

I'm going to stop here because I don't know if I'm going in the right direction since you were pretty vague. I don't mind writing another long message in case I got it all wrong. If you prefer a private conversation or you don't want to talk about it at all then that's fine by me too.

 

[Lea]

If you don't want to talk to your colleagues you can just keep it simple by being polite. You should smile, but by that I merely mean you should look very serious, mad or sad, not necessarily a wide smile showing all your teeth.

It´s not about what I want, if it was up to me, I am up to facing all kind of hardship, doing compromises or sacrifices. I am always being polite by the way. But what can I do if employers just fire me without giving me a chance? And I see it´s useless trying it over and over again because there will be the same result. I can see myself I am not the right personality (despite I´m always being nice and polite and don´t do anything wrong) so feel like it´s not the right path, but I keep always trying it again, because I simply don´t know any better.

 

[Feeling_Nothing]

I'm feeling like:

Alex Hepburn - Under [Official video] - YouTube

 

[Ithior]

It´s not about what I want, if it was up to me, I am up to facing all kind of hardship, doing compromises or sacrifices. I am always being polite by the way. But what can I do if employers just fire me without giving me a chance? And I see it´s useless trying it over and over again because there will be the same result. I can see myself I am not the right personality (despite I´m always being nice and polite and don´t do anything wrong) so feel like it´s not the right path, but I keep always trying it again, because I simply don´t know any better.

I don't understand why they fire you then. If you aren't rude, and you do your job properly, firing you because you're not chatty doesn't seem like a valid reason. I don't know how it works in other countries but I'm fairly certain you can't fire someone here with a reason like that.

I don't know what sort of jobs you have but maybe you would be better off with an introverted boss, that way he won't be much into being social. I understand it might not be easy to find out that sort of information on your future boss, and I also understand that in many european countries (including mine) you can't be picky with your job at this moment.

Again, if I start going off in the wrong direction please put me back on track
Also, I don't have any work experience so all the things I say about getting jobs and stuff like that may not be correct.

 

[FeartheGreat]

Hey guys. New to this site. Just joined today. I've been trying to find a suitable place on the internet to write an eventful story of my life and SA without it falling on deaf ears. I think at least some people will take interest in what I have to say here. I guess I just need some acknowledgement. I have been around people who don't understand or even care about my mental status for far too long and I don't have any strength for myself to push myself out of this horrible mess of a life that I'm in.

 

[Lea]

I don't understand why they fire you then. If you aren't rude, and you do your job properly, firing you because you're not chatty doesn't seem like a valid reason. I don't know how it works in other countries but I'm fairly certain you can't fire someone here with a reason like that.

I don't know what sort of jobs you have but maybe you would be better off with an introverted boss, that way he won't be much into being social. I understand it might not be easy to find out that sort of information on your future boss, and I also understand that in many european countries (including mine) you can't be picky with your job at this moment.

Again, if I start going off in the wrong direction please put me back on track
Also, I don't have any work experience so all the things I say about getting jobs and stuff like that may not be correct.

I was fired from employments when I was a carer, and working in a hotel as housekeeper or dishwasher. I must come across as really retarded, probably. But I still maintain I didn´t do my work any worse than others, it´s not about the work I did, it´s about the way I come across. They just don´t like me.

 

[Ithior]

I was fired from employments when I was a carer, and working in a hotel as housekeeper or dishwasher. I must come across as really retarded, probably. But I still maintain I didn´t do my work any worse than others, it´s not about the work I did, it´s about the way I come across. They just don´t like me.

Hmm I think there's a perfectly good explanation as to why that happens to you (and I mean not something as vague as the way you come across, but something like something you wear, some behaviour/habit you have that you don't really notice but makes others uncomfortable,... I don't know).

If I knew you IRL I could probably be able to spot those potential problems, it's always easier to observe others than to observe oneself. Sorry I couldn't be of much help.