HopelessStranger
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Sitting in a meeting room and the attention isn't even remotely close to me.
I was a cashier or a server in the deli at Coles for years.. having to serve people really quickly when it was busy was a huggggggge anxiety issue for me.
I get super nervous when people offer me free samples in supermarkets (or elsewhere). They're always super excited that they're giving something away for free and it's like no one is supposed to say no, so I feel like it's a giveaway that I have issues when I say no. I think because of the obvious dread on my face when I do. The worst part is that I actually do want the free sample I'm just afraid of taking it.
It got worse today as they asked why I'm never downstairs or hang out with them. Makes me want to hoard food in my room though. We don't have a lounge room so makes it hard, they are always in kitchen. And they smoke in there which I detest.
Oh man that's not what you want to hear, well speaking for myself anyway, that sort of comment tends to play on my mind in a bad way, even though people usually mean that they would just like to get to know you. At the end of the day though you are paying money to live in the house so you can do what you dam well want! I have looked at house shares again because of the money savings, but after viewing places I've just thought no way can I do that again, feeling trapped in my bedroom all the time, I know it's expensive to live on your own in London though. Maybe you need to find a better set up, one where the people are not there a lot or more like minded quieter types who smoke outside, I would try to share with Christians if I had to live with house mates, for some reason I feel less nervy around religious types, perhaps because I imagine they are more forgiving and not so judgmental.
Problem is two are 4 years younger than me and in uni and the other is older and we are all just different. It's my issue, they are nice people, we just don't have much in common. And I do have meals and such with them sometimes but not every night. I start a new job in sept so will look for accom closer to that after Xmas perhaps. And with a more like minded person. And I couldn't share with Christians. Far too atheist for that!
That my life is some sort of cosmic play like the Trueman show.
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That is an actual disorder/mental illness people are diagnosed with. Quite interesting, the Truman syndrome or something.