How are you feeling?

Nanita

Nanita

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Right now I´m feeling very nervous. I have a meeting with a socialworker on the jobcentre, in half an hour. I´m scared she will start making me do something to be a normal functioning citizen. I can´t do that. I can´t participate in any of that stuff they want me to do...............................................:(
I wish I could run away into the wild
 
Nanita

Nanita

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Nanita said:
Right now I´m feeling very nervous. I have a meeting with a socialworker on the jobcentre, in half an hour. I´m scared she will start making me do something to be a normal functioning citizen. I can´t do that. I can´t participate in any of that stuff they want me to do...............................................:(
I wish I could run away into the wild
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The meeting went well. I have 3 more months off for now, and then I will probably have to make an attempt at being a wellbehaved citizen = participate in some sort of activity in order to keep receiving unemployment benefits. Sigh. Weird life.
 
JCVA

JCVA

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Somehow I feel energized. I don't know whats going on but I hope it lasts for the whole day or whole week.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
I feel like crying, to be honest. I'm feeling conflicted. I mean, it's all well and good, my oldest sister's letting me know she's there for me. But does she really want to know how I'm actually feeling? What goes on inside my head on an almost daily basis. I'm not sure she wants to hear about how my relationship with our mum is s%*! and has been for sometime now. But neither of us acknowledge that, despite it being obvious. Or about how insecure I feel most of the time.
 
MrJones

MrJones

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So I went to the teacher this morning to see if he can make an exception with my group and let us present our project a bit later as I am not able to do the job as I used to (at all) and my parnter is working for the 2 of us, and he can't keep doing that, maintaining his part time job and the football trainings.

It makes me feel awful because someone who has such a complete life, including lots of friends and a girlfriend, has to work more for someone who has all the time of the world, only because he only wants to stay in bed crying all day... I just make the world worse.

Then I went to the psychologist, as every week, and we couldn't do what we were supposed to, I couldn't hold my tears anymore...


I wonder why I'm not hated by even more people...
 
vexatiousmind

vexatiousmind

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MrJones said:
So I went to the teacher this morning to see if he can make an exception with my group and let us present our project a bit later as I am not able to do the job as I used to (at all) and my parnter is working for the 2 of us, and he can't keep doing that, maintaining his part time job and the football trainings.

It makes me feel awful because someone who has such a complete life, including lots of friends and a girlfriend, has to work more for someone who has all the time of the world, only because he only wants to stay in bed crying all day... I just make the world worse.

Then I went to the psychologist, as every week, and we couldn't do what we were supposed to, I couldn't hold my tears anymore...


I wonder why I'm not hated by even more people...
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:( aw that sucks jonesy. Maybe do some of the project and apologize to the guy. It might make you feel better.

Hope you feel better!

..and you do not make the world worse sir! :mad:
 
MrJones

MrJones

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vexatiousmind said:
:( aw that sucks jonesy. Maybe do some of the project and apologize to the guy. It might make you feel better.

Hope you feel better!

..and you do not make the world worse sir! :mad:
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I'm sure a lot of people, even in this site, including myself, would disagree. I make people feel bad, I make people feel guilty. It's not my intention and I don't even know how I do it, but I do.

I do some of the project, but I used to be the leader of the group projects for 2 years, now I can barely think of a couple of ideas and I can't program at all. I don't know why, I tried and I just can't...
 
vexatiousmind

vexatiousmind

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MrJones said:
I'm sure a lot of people, even in this site, including myself, would disagree. I make people feel bad, I make people feel guilty. It's not my intention and I don't even know how I do it, but I do.

I do some of the project, but I used to be the leader of the group projects for 2 years, now I can barely think of a couple of ideas and I can't program at all. I don't know why, I tried and I just can't...
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Everyone has people that don't like them, it doesn't make you a bad person.
..and I am sure it is less people than you think.
 
MrJones

MrJones

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vexatiousmind said:
Everyone has people that don't like them, it doesn't make you a bad person.
..and I am sure it is less people than you think.
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I know, I don't say I'm a bad person because people don't like me. I am a bad person because I make good people feel bad. I am a bad person for my actions.

But it's people who are very important to me who don't like me, and that hurts a lot.
 
Shyangel

Shyangel

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Graeme1988 said:
I feel like crying, to be honest. I'm feeling conflicted. I mean, it's all well and good, my oldest sister's letting me know she's there for me. But does she really want to know how I'm actually feeling? What goes on inside my head on an almost daily basis. I'm not sure she wants to hear about how my relationship with our mum is s%*! and has been for sometime now. But neither of us acknowledge that, despite it being obvious. Or about how insecure I feel most of the time.
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I'm so sorry you go through so much pain. I have a lot of conflict with my mom as well. When I was growing up she always made me feel like I was in the way and made her life miserable. That's what she pretty much told me on a continued basis. I think that's what has made myself worth issues. I love her anyway. I'm sure your sister wouldn't mind at all, I mean, is telling you she will be there, no body's making her, so trust that. If you ever want to talk about something that bothers you I would be willing to listen. I hate you so sad.
 
lonely_drummer

lonely_drummer

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*sigh of relief* ahhhh, feeling good, just finished laying down my first two guitar tracks for the first song on the album. I've been up since six moving everything I set up in the basement yesterday to the sweet confines of my bedroom. I decided to do this all in the privacy of my room, yes it's a little crammed but I figured if I was downstairs, someone might come home in the middle of a track and distract me.
 
Shyangel

Shyangel

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lonely_drummer said:
*sigh of relief* ahhhh, feeling good, just finished laying down my first two guitar tracks for the first song on the album. I've been up since six moving everything I set up in the basement yesterday to the sweet confines of my bedroom. I decided to do this all in the privacy of my room, yes it's a little crammed but I figured if I was downstairs, someone might come home in the middle of a track and distract me.
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Awesome, drummer. Sounds like you've had a great productive day.
I'm jealous, I wish I could play an instrument.:D
 
Invisibleman

Invisibleman

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I feel like im losing my mind. Being alone all the of the time,I cant take it anymore,my isolation has been giving me so many anxiety attacks and I want it to stop. I dont know what to do.
 
Shyangel

Shyangel

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Invisibleman said:
I feel like im losing my mind. Being alone all the of the time,I cant take it anymore,my isolation has been giving me so many anxiety attacks and I want it to stop. I dont know what to do.
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I hope you feel better soon, Invisibleman. Feeling like that really sucks, I know.


I'm gonna play DDR for a while.
 
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