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DeadmanWalking

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Helpless, pointless, useless, alone and, for a change of pace, tired. If I go to sleep, I pray that I never wake up because this is, or rather I am, ridiculous.
 
You cannot smack the ****-eating grin off my face if you hit me with a 2x4. I saw my therapist today, and we discussed my job situation. I've applied at 8 or 9 places. Somehow we ended up talking about my boss at my last job. I mentioned that I had another dream where we were working together and she was making me feel incompetent and useless. We spent most of the hour talking about her and the impact she has had on my mental state when it comes to jobs. So, as I'm driving home on the Interstate, I spot a charcoal grey sedan. Every time I see one of these, I think of her, because that is what she drives. Then I notice the really frizzy, curly hair and I think, "this may actually be her!" So she's speeding like a demon (80 in a 65), passing all these trucks and I start speeding to catch up with her. We are about a mile from my exit when I pass her. I put my hand up to the right side of my face like I'm scratching my head so she couldn't see me. I get in front of her at the '1/2 mile to exit' sign. As I pull onto my exit, I slow down and look behind me as she continues to drive ahead. And the bitch was totally looking at me! :) Now I can't stop smiling and laughing. I gave her the bird, but it was very belated and she surely didn't see it. But it made me feel good.

So my day has been pretty ****ing awesome. :D
 

Deus_Ex_Lemur

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Helpless, pointless, useless, alone and, for a change of pace, tired. If I go to sleep, I pray that I never wake up because this is, or rather I am, ridiculous.

You'll have to change your name to Deadmansleeping :D (bad joke) I have felt this exact way recently... it sucks. It in itself is ridiculous which you realize which makes the thoughts/feelings even stronger. Bad cycle I know.

Sleep CAN help sometimes though... but I know as you do deep down, the strong feelings right now will pass. They can return - they always do, I know I'm in a situation where it's a bad horror sequel, but on groundhog day everyday :) But anyways like you always say and I try to always say if ever need to talk, feel free, nothings too ridiculous. :)
 

Deus_Ex_Lemur

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Crying out the anxiety I've had for the past few days. It feels rather refreshing, even though I feel rather sad.

It's for the best, sorry the sad feeling comes afterwards. CRYING really IS healthy... holding in no. Literally it's getting poison out of your body of sorts. I wish I could have a good cry maybe I'll watch the end of ET. :D

tomorrow i start a new job. i hope it goes well and that i fit in.

First day EEK always worst. It'll get better eachday. Bah I say that yet I wouldn't believe myself. But you should :) GOOD LUCK!
 

this_portrait

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It's for the best, sorry the sad feeling comes afterwards. CRYING really IS healthy... holding in no. Literally it's getting poison out of your body of sorts. I wish I could have a good cry maybe I'll watch the end of ET. :D

Yeah, I know. It's just that I've been crying for the past few months now and I just wish I could stop for a long while...
 

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
Nervous! New roommate was here, dropped all his stuff off, and then took off (supper with parents maybe?) Still haven't had that conversation yet, the whole "what's your major/hobbies/ interests/where you from ect" one, it'll probably happen when he gets back. I started making this post 10 minutes ago but started rhythmically punching my leg half way through, more nervous than I thought.
 

Silatuyok

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I'm kind of annoyed. I spent the last six hours cooking black beans with all kinds of spices and yummy ingredients in the slow cooker....and it just tastes kinda bland. Argh, cooking sucks! (I don't mean that.) Try, try again...
 

huzzah

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Nervous and excited! I'm spending all day in Baltimore tomorrow on a school field trip, we're going to an aquarium and to a dinner theatre to see Dream Girls and some other things
 

DeadmanWalking

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Nervous and excited! I'm spending all day in Baltimore tomorrow on a school field trip, we're going to an aquarium and to a dinner theatre to see Dream Girls and some other things

Cool! I miss field trips::(:. They were so exciting and gave me a good excuse to get out of school::p:. Well, have fun and take some pictures for us, okay? I want to see some sharks and eels!
 

Phoenixx

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Nervous and excited! I'm spending all day in Baltimore tomorrow on a school field trip, we're going to an aquarium and to a dinner theatre to see Dream Girls and some other things
^ Aw man! I wanna go!! I never got a chance, my trip got cancelled. ::(: (I was supposed to go a couple weeks ago, but with that snowstorm they got, it got cancelled)
 

MikeyC

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Nervous! New roommate was here, dropped all his stuff off, and then took off (supper with parents maybe?) Still haven't had that conversation yet, the whole "what's your major/hobbies/ interests/where you from ect" one, it'll probably happen when he gets back. I started making this post 10 minutes ago but started rhythmically punching my leg half way through, more nervous than I thought.
You'll be fine, mate! It won't be as intense as you think. :)
 

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
You'll be fine, mate! It won't be as intense as you think. :)

It could go many ways, hopefully fine is the one it goes. He's still not back, I may end up going to bed before he gets back to put it off one more day. He hasn't unpacked yet, but I play a very convincing deep sleeper.
 

MrJones

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Quite... frustrated

Tired of failure

Disappointed in myself

I still don't know what is wrong with me... I have an idea of what could it be, but still I don't know

Trapped
 
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