WeirdyMcGee
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I feel useless. I can't help anyone- I can't help myself, I'm probably better off fading out into nothing. Maybe that's all I can do?
How are you feeling?
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MaliceInWickedland
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I feel a lot better than yesterday, that's certain. Hopefully today I can actually be more positive than yesterday and not drag everyone down here again with my negative, nonsensical posts.
MollyBeGood
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i just wrote someone a 200 page email. exhausted emotionally atm.
Tired... I was laying in bed for around 10 hours, but I don't seem to recall actually getting any sleep.
panicsurvivor
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狼;483366 said:
Oh my god. That is incredible. They damn well better read it. Or they
totaly suck.Nevermind being tired... I just went through and cleared out all the pictures and stuff I had of my old girlfriend on my laptop. It's like putting your dog down (I've done that too), it feels terrible, but it has to be done. I feel like I'm lying to myself because I didn't cry while I was doing it. I think I wanted to cry, but at the same time, I wouldn't let myself.
vexatiousmind
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PISSED!
Went to get my changed, and they stripped the oil pan drain plug. Except they just told me it was stripped, so I didn't realize they were the ones who did it. ( I know nothing about cars, so I feel like an idiot for not realizing they stripped it)
Also they charged $60 for an oil change and new air filter.
And they ****ing oil is leaking now.
So now I have to pay to get it fixed, and get new oil.
I'm broke, and there goes all my money.
**** those people
Went to get my changed, and they stripped the oil pan drain plug. Except they just told me it was stripped, so I didn't realize they were the ones who did it. ( I know nothing about cars, so I feel like an idiot for not realizing they stripped it)
Also they charged $60 for an oil change and new air filter.
And they ****ing oil is leaking now.
So now I have to pay to get it fixed, and get new oil.
I'm broke, and there goes all my money.
**** those people
Deus_Ex_Lemur
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NO you aren't - you may help others more than you realize, many of your comments have put a smile to my face, in fact one a few days ago made me feel good about myself the rest of the day and I was far from that.
If you focus your mindset and energy on fading into nothing, that's exactly what you'll do - but if you focus on reconstituting into something, you will. That something doesn't appear suddenly, it's progressive, and slow, and slow sucks, but that's what it is =) We put A LOT of pressure on ourselves to do and be so much because we have so little atm - you'll get there, it's not easy, but we all can if we do
Deus_Ex_Lemur
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Vex - Incompetence at it's finest. I'm lucky to have a shop we've known for years. Sorry mate =/
Lost......
vexatiousmind
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Yeah they changed my air filter, and charged me for a new drain plug. -_-
Unfortunaltly there is only three places to get an oil change here, and I don't like any of them.
But, that's life. Now I know not to pay for that bull****
anomicdeer
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Sane.
Knitting so I won't go insane...
Plus I think that St. Johns Wort is working... Not sure.
Knitting so I won't go insane...
Plus I think that St. Johns Wort is working... Not sure.
Number32
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..idk how I feel right now but its not good.
So a while ago I meet this girl. Unlike 99% of the woman it met she seemed really really great. Great in the way of like "wow, I could like her AND we seem to totally work-out as personalities". I don't want the "oh-look-at-me"-party chick like most of the girls I met before were. She's different tough. She's a very calm person, really funny at times but on other moments she might even tends to be adorably shy. She's also not the type of clubbing and such but prefers just to spend a night together with good frieds like me. A bit of a "good girl" you could say, but defently not boring. She hates anything with drugs like me (which overhere is normally social expected). As icing on the cake we have allot of shared interest and she even looks pretty good actually. Ofcourse it took some time to find this out be after that I really had something like "wow, this is serious material" (not ment derogatory!).
One problem tough. I'm a disaster around girls I like. Long sad story, gone trough some deep ****, could write a book about it so not gonna type it all here, I'll guard you people from that. Basic story, me and girls is a big no-no. Anyways, I really had the feeling I'd never met anybody that would so perfectly fit with me that I liked. Ofcourse you'll have to find out if all your predictions are right, but going by the impression I got and the stories I heard I'd think we'd fit perfectly together.
Anyways, long story shorty, at a given time I finally saved enough courage to ask her if she might wanted to go and do something fun sometime. This was a REALLY big step for me. It was the first time ever I had to guts to take this step in my whole life cause I knew I would regret not doing it. Sadly that days she had other things to do but she really liked the idea and would love to do it on a other day. Quite a relief for me that was! Well, basicly I tried a couple of more times but each time she had other appointments. But she kept saying she really liked the idea and hated she couldn't make it and suggested to do it at at times by herself. So she sure didnt deny the offer.
Untill today... cause I got to hear today she'd actually dated a friend of my couple of times. Without telling me. That she doesn't want to tell that is fine with me but why did she keep me hanging in there than. In case it didn't work out? So I could be the second option? I don't want to be a second option. If she would have said she's seeing him and wants to see how that work out I would be absolutly fine with that. Ofcourse it would not be the answer I hoped for but atleast it was fair. Or she could just refuse the offer if she didn't want to tell. But right now I feel so... idk... "used". As if you are a "last reserve" in case everything else fails. No, I want to be there first point on. They also totally don't fit together. He's the out-going party guy with no limits (a bit generalized but still). I both wish them all their luck and happiness in the world cause this really isn't a case of jalousy but I just knew its gonna break her heart to sooner or later. And in the meanwhile I wonder if I did a good thing taking that big step for me. I keep telling it was, but mostly after doing something good you get a reward. Even if she would deny any of my suggestions anyway it would be a reward for me just knowing I tried but right now I feel the only thing I got rewarded is the feeling of being a total worth-less piece-of-****.
Why can't things like this go normal at myself. Is it that much to ask? Just someone that you can really share affection and passion with. And than I don't even mean the physical aspect. Heck, that not even a reason at all. But why is this made so hard for me to get something very person needs so hard.
I don't believe there is a god but if there was, mine would be a sadist for sure. I know tomorrow I will feel better... I just need my "baw"-hour now... sorry
So a while ago I meet this girl. Unlike 99% of the woman it met she seemed really really great. Great in the way of like "wow, I could like her AND we seem to totally work-out as personalities". I don't want the "oh-look-at-me"-party chick like most of the girls I met before were. She's different tough. She's a very calm person, really funny at times but on other moments she might even tends to be adorably shy. She's also not the type of clubbing and such but prefers just to spend a night together with good frieds like me. A bit of a "good girl" you could say, but defently not boring. She hates anything with drugs like me (which overhere is normally social expected). As icing on the cake we have allot of shared interest and she even looks pretty good actually. Ofcourse it took some time to find this out be after that I really had something like "wow, this is serious material" (not ment derogatory!).
One problem tough. I'm a disaster around girls I like. Long sad story, gone trough some deep ****, could write a book about it so not gonna type it all here, I'll guard you people from that. Basic story, me and girls is a big no-no. Anyways, I really had the feeling I'd never met anybody that would so perfectly fit with me that I liked. Ofcourse you'll have to find out if all your predictions are right, but going by the impression I got and the stories I heard I'd think we'd fit perfectly together.
Anyways, long story shorty, at a given time I finally saved enough courage to ask her if she might wanted to go and do something fun sometime. This was a REALLY big step for me. It was the first time ever I had to guts to take this step in my whole life cause I knew I would regret not doing it. Sadly that days she had other things to do but she really liked the idea and would love to do it on a other day. Quite a relief for me that was! Well, basicly I tried a couple of more times but each time she had other appointments. But she kept saying she really liked the idea and hated she couldn't make it and suggested to do it at at times by herself. So she sure didnt deny the offer.
Untill today... cause I got to hear today she'd actually dated a friend of my couple of times. Without telling me. That she doesn't want to tell that is fine with me but why did she keep me hanging in there than. In case it didn't work out? So I could be the second option? I don't want to be a second option. If she would have said she's seeing him and wants to see how that work out I would be absolutly fine with that. Ofcourse it would not be the answer I hoped for but atleast it was fair. Or she could just refuse the offer if she didn't want to tell. But right now I feel so... idk... "used". As if you are a "last reserve" in case everything else fails. No, I want to be there first point on. They also totally don't fit together. He's the out-going party guy with no limits (a bit generalized but still). I both wish them all their luck and happiness in the world cause this really isn't a case of jalousy but I just knew its gonna break her heart to sooner or later. And in the meanwhile I wonder if I did a good thing taking that big step for me. I keep telling it was, but mostly after doing something good you get a reward. Even if she would deny any of my suggestions anyway it would be a reward for me just knowing I tried but right now I feel the only thing I got rewarded is the feeling of being a total worth-less piece-of-****.
Why can't things like this go normal at myself. Is it that much to ask? Just someone that you can really share affection and passion with. And than I don't even mean the physical aspect. Heck, that not even a reason at all. But why is this made so hard for me to get something very person needs so hard.
I don't believe there is a god but if there was, mine would be a sadist for sure. I know tomorrow I will feel better... I just need my "baw"-hour now... sorry
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I just survived half an hour with my grandmother without being roped into doing some ridiculous chore or wanting to poke her eyes out. It's been a good day!
simpsons2007
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Severely depressed! STILL!!! I've been like this for over a week now. It doesn't normally last this long.
When will it end?
When will it end?
simpsons2007
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Wish I could help you Simpy.
I normally only feel depressed for a week at most, this time... 2 months....
Hope that for you it ends soon.
Hey, if you're even saying that "it doesn't normally last this long" its a sign that you're not meant to be depressed
Thats ok twiggle and thanks.
The only person that can help me is me.
I have two sorts of depression. Normal depression which I've had constantly since my early teens and every now and then periods of severe depression (which I have now) which normally lasts a day or two.
Numb. Feel like I have had a looong day, even though the day hasen't even started.
Tired, dissapointed, wishing I had someone, but all the companions I've had had been completely useless, the last one is avoiding me now. Superb life I have. *deep agonizing sighh*
Tired, dissapointed, wishing I had someone, but all the companions I've had had been completely useless, the last one is avoiding me now. Superb life I have. *deep agonizing sighh*
WeirdyMcGee
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Dejected and worn out