How are you feeling?
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Paahi
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Beatrice
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I'm right there with you. In the same place, really. Not sure how I'm going to get out. Trying to use different approaches but it's hard when you have limited resources and no clue where to start. And little motivation.
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Sinar_Matahari
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Not good, but I'll live. However, I'm in a misanthropic mood today and do not want to be around people.
coyote
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yay! summer!
Deus_Ex_Lemur
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OKAY. Gotta get out. Good day yesterday; really good but being in my home environment is like a time machine back to self-doubt, depression, reversal, apathy, etc.
planemo
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Rembrandt Broam
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LOL!
Now I'm picturing BlueDays chilling out in the pool with a cocktail, and I have this running through my head:
Wham! - Club Tropicana
coyote
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can you do the same thing to the mental images Rembrandt Broam planted of George Michael wearing a Speedo?
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Alone, miserable, frustrated, confused. ::
I don't know anymore. Been having more bad days than good lately. My cerebal palsy has been acting up which is annoying. My confidence & self esteem is at zero because my mother always putting me down with snide, cynical comments. Happens everytime I try to have rational, reasonable conversation about my problems but it always ends up becoming an argument. She doesn't want to hear it, or so she always tells me. Better off living in denial than talking about things.
My mum seems to think all of this is an act, a joke. I just saying I'm depressed, angry and suicidal for attention. If only that were true.
I'm beginning to feel she resents me for some reason, otherwise why would I be the only getting all her negativity and cynicism all the time? Recently, she told me when it comes to relationships, girlfriend or marriage, "I'm better off alone, to be honest". (I have a feeling she meant it because I've been told the same thing by her since I was a teenager) I just replied asking "Why'd you have be so negative towards me all the time?". And trying to open up about things to my mum ends there.
Also, I can't find my journal and just hope my mum hasn't had a chance to read it - because most of the entries were written when I was at my lowest, most depressed, not speaking highly or positive of myself nor either of my parent. Still got childhood issues I need to come to terms with.
The only positive thing as of late would be my oldest sister complimented me that I'm the most sensable and non-judgemental member of the family because I haven't been critical of what she been through lately with her marriage split. Sorry, this could be a more happy, upbeat post. Things have been really getting me down as late. But I'm trying to stay strong.
: I don't know anymore. Been having more bad days than good lately. My cerebal palsy has been acting up which is annoying. My confidence & self esteem is at zero because my mother always putting me down with snide, cynical comments. Happens everytime I try to have rational, reasonable conversation about my problems but it always ends up becoming an argument. She doesn't want to hear it, or so she always tells me. Better off living in denial than talking about things.
My mum seems to think all of this is an act, a joke. I just saying I'm depressed, angry and suicidal for attention. If only that were true.
I'm beginning to feel she resents me for some reason, otherwise why would I be the only getting all her negativity and cynicism all the time? Recently, she told me when it comes to relationships, girlfriend or marriage, "I'm better off alone, to be honest". (I have a feeling she meant it because I've been told the same thing by her since I was a teenager) I just replied asking "Why'd you have be so negative towards me all the time?". And trying to open up about things to my mum ends there.
Also, I can't find my journal and just hope my mum hasn't had a chance to read it - because most of the entries were written when I was at my lowest, most depressed, not speaking highly or positive of myself nor either of my parent. Still got childhood issues I need to come to terms with.
The only positive thing as of late would be my oldest sister complimented me that I'm the most sensable and non-judgemental member of the family because I haven't been critical of what she been through lately with her marriage split. Sorry, this could be a more happy, upbeat post. Things have been really getting me down as late. But I'm trying to stay strong.
lunarla
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Hopefully you manage to have another good day!
I'm feeling pretty okay, trying to tell myself that at least. Most of yesterday was awful, and I know I could let today be that way too.
planemo
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Alone, miserable, frustrated, confused. :
I don't know anymore. Been having more bad days than good lately. My cerebal palsy has been acting up which is annoying. My confidence & self esteem is at zero because my mother always putting me down with snide, cynical comments. Happens everytime I try to have rational, reasonable conversation about my problems but it always ends up becoming an argument. She doesn't want to hear it, or so she always tells me. Better off living in denial than talking about things.
My mum seems to think all of this is an act, a joke. I just saying I'm depressed, angry and suicidal for attention. If only that were true.
I'm beginning to feel she resents me for some reason, otherwise why would I be the only getting all her negativity and cynicism all the time? Recently, she told me when it comes to relationships, girlfriend or marriage, "I'm better off alone, to be honest". (I have a feeling she meant it because I've been told the same thing by her since I was a teenager) I just replied asking "Why'd you have be so negative towards me all the time?". And trying to open up about things to my mum ends there.
Also, I can't find my journal and just hope my mum hasn't had a chance to read it - because most of the entries were written when I was at my lowest, most depressed, not speaking highly or positive of myself nor either of my parent. Still got childhood issues I need to come to terms with.
The only positive thing as of late would be my oldest sister complimented me that I'm the most sensable and non-judgemental member of the family because I haven't been critical of what she been through lately with her marriage split. Sorry, this could be a more happy, upbeat post. Things have been really getting me down as late. But I'm trying to stay strong.
Sorry to hear that man. :
: My family are the same. They live in denial about my problems. When i try to make them aware they actually become angry, they just want nothing to do with it. It's almost as if they feel it's something they just just don't need in their lives. My problems make it seem like i 'm better off alone. but things can get better, and i guess i've been there so many time when someone in my family has something negative to say, and miss the opportunity to say something which could ultimately make a big (positive) difference.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Sorry to hear that man. :
My problems make it seem like i 'm better off alone. but things can get better, and i guess i've been there so many time when someone in my family has something negative to say, and miss the opportunity to say something which could ultimately make a big (positive) difference.
Yeah, I can relate there, especially about family getting angry for just trying to make them aware of your problems.
Though, I've been thinking about talking about my problems with my oldest sister, since she's a mental health support worker. But I'm slightly unsure of doing so, because last time I told her - in confidence, or so I thought - I was struggling with depression when I was 16, my mum found & yelled at me for not talking to her about it.
Deus_Ex_Lemur
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If yesterday was a sunrise, today is a sunset... did nothing I set out to do. Bad attitude, bad feelings... totally unlike the day before. But that's the process. At least tomorrow I got someone's film project to do. Get outta this doggone it housey.