How are you feeling?

twiggle said: ↑

Woken up feeling gooooood just hope my interview will be too!!

Yeah! Good luck! You rock!
umm... other encouragement!

^Good Luck with the interview. Hope it goes well 🙂

WeirdyMcGee said: ↑

Yeah! Good luck! You rock!
umm... other encouragement!

FriendlessGirl said: ↑

^Good Luck with the interview. Hope it goes well 🙂

Thank you very much you two 😀

Good luck twiggle.

neurotic, insecure, tired, unhappy at my job (it's only temp fortunately). i'm a party.

critical and snarky today.

Scared, embarrassed, shaking. Just got in from supermarket where I left my wife at the tiil with no money and went to the toilet cos I felt anxiety attack coming on. Still shaking now. I hate these 'exposure' things. I load the till belt and pack the bags cos everyone else does it wrong but I have been told to let someone else do it to expose myself to my fears and I f****** hate it.

Dead_on_Arrival said: ↑

Scared, embarrassed, shaking. Just got in from supermarket where I left my wife at the tiil with no money and went to the toilet cos I felt anxiety attack coming on. Still shaking now. I hate these 'exposure' things. I load the till belt and pack the bags cos everyone else does it wrong but I have been told to let someone else do it to expose myself to my fears and I f****** hate it.

(((((hugsDOA)))))

Dead_on_Arrival said: ↑

Scared, embarrassed, shaking. Just got in from supermarket where I left my wife at the tiil with no money and went to the toilet cos I felt anxiety attack coming on. Still shaking now. I hate these 'exposure' things. I load the till belt and pack the bags cos everyone else does it wrong but I have been told to let someone else do it to expose myself to my fears and I f****** hate it.

Dead_on_Arrival said: ↑

Scared, embarrassed, shaking. Just got in from supermarket where I left my wife at the tiil with no money and went to the toilet cos I felt anxiety attack coming on. Still shaking now. I hate these 'exposure' things. I load the till belt and pack the bags cos everyone else does it wrong but I have been told to let someone else do it to expose myself to my fears and I f****** hate it.

Oh~tough post! Hope you feel better *hugs*

Thanks you guys. I'm ok now. Breathing exercises and mindfullness CD.

I feel socially paralized. I just can't do anything anymore. Got invited to a friend's party today(though not a close friend) but I had to refuse cos I'm damn scared to go there. She probably thinks that I'm a jerk. Ugh....I hate this. Will it ever get better?

It wasn't really a big thing yesterday, but... my best friend is going to be here within a year. Asdfghjkl. I'm ****ing happy now. He's quite...a strange character, not very emotional or expressive in regards to these issues, but I know that thought makes him happy too 😉 He'd only admit it to me once though,I should be content with that. Haha.
It's been two years, it's about bloody time I think.

FriendlessGirl said: ↑

I feel socially paralized. I just can't do anything anymore. Got invited to a friend's party today(though not a close friend) but I had to refuse cos I'm damn scared to go there. She probably thinks that I'm a jerk. Ugh....I hate this. Will it ever get better?

This happened to me hundreds of times, and I felt very bad after each one...

I think it can get better, but you have to work. A lot lol
I hope you will get better of it 🙂

MrJones said: ↑

This happened to me hundreds of times, and I felt very bad after each one...

I think it can get better, but you have to work. A lot lol
I hope you will get better of it 🙂

^Thank you. It means a lot to me.

FriendlessGirl said: ↑

I feel socially paralized. I just can't do anything anymore. Got invited to a friend's party today(though not a close friend) but I had to refuse cos I'm damn scared to go there. She probably thinks that I'm a jerk. Ugh....I hate this. Will it ever get better?

I did this a few times this summer, it's a normal feeling, she won't think you're a jerk. And if she's not a close friend than don't worry about it at all! But avoiding will make it worse long-term hard as it is in the moment and much paralyzed and not wanting to go you may feel. You CAN do things; it's just what you believe is an overwhelming feeling but that's all it is... a FEELING - doesn't have to be reality! Just feel better you had the opportunity to go and she invited you - and next time try to go, easier said than done, but YOU CAN DO IT and WILL feel better after for doing so even if not right away! 🙂

Deus_Ex_Lemur said: ↑

I did this a few times this summer, it's a normal feeling, she won't think you're a jerk. And if she's not a close friend than don't worry about it at all! But avoiding will make it worse long-term hard as it is in the moment and much paralyzed and not wanting to go you may feel. You CAN do things; it's just what you believe is an overwhelming feeling but that's all it is... a FEELING - doesn't have to be reality! Just feel better you had the opportunity to go and she invited you - and next time try to go, easier said than done, but YOU CAN DO IT and WILL feel better after for doing so even if not right away! 🙂

Thanks! I'm feeling much better.

I had about a weeks break from spw nothing has changed. The same old rubish.

Very depressed
Very lonely
Very stupid

Gooood. Looking forward to drawing something.

Beatrice said: ↑

Oy vey. People suck monkey balls.

in some countries, they're considered a delicacy