How are you feeling?

[groovy]

Very nervous. I have a score reading test in just over an hour... ::

 

[arsenalwa]

Wanna come find another one?

You have no idea how much I'd love to ::

 

[lunaticbinge]

 

[Sial Axetder]

Success and feeling good, makes me realize how lonely I really am.

Happy but miserably alone. No, I will not dwell on how that is supposed to feel.

I think I am okay. Neutral.

 

[BlackPuma]

Rushed. I need more time. I'd better get to sleep..

 

[petrified eyes]

I'm sick of arguing. I'm glad I'm moving out soon.

 

[arsenalwa]

I feel hated everywhere. And the sad part is, I don't blame people. I think about it sometimes and I think I'd have hated me if I was them. Disliked at any rate.

 

[lunaticbinge]

I feel hated everywhere. And the sad part is, I don't blame people. I think about it sometimes and I think I'd have hated me if I was them. Disliked at any rate.

Yep. They say no one can truly like you unless you like yourself. Too bad i'm filled with self-loathing.

 

[ikemikes15]

Like ****ing **** i hate this ****ing world when will there be some type of ****ing cure they have all these dumb ass ****in advances but nothing for the mental

 

[Anti Matter]

Pretty Drunk.

 

[dottie]

tl;dr ahead...

feeling negative.

it is that same negative/stress feeling that comes from being socially obligated to bump elbows with family at christmas time. this weekend was a family trip. being around them drained me. but at the same time shouldn't i be able to control myself and make it into a fun time regardless of what company i am in? (that would be so zen, right?) i don't know... being around my mom makes me livid since she tries to bully me behind closed doors. then my cousin's screaming and cussing all weekend... oy vey. then encountering my brother and his wife whose last words to me were cussing me out. we were all cordial even though i would like an apology. i tried to make the best of it but i do not feel warm and fuzzy around these people. they are viscious behind closed doors and then want to pretend everything is hunky dory when others are around. this does not settle well with me.

right now i just want to VENT, obviously. i read somewhere that it is not healthy to vent. it said:

Do not obsess over stress, focusing on stressful thoughts just makes them worse. Neuroscientists say it reinforces the "neural pathways" for the thoughts, making them get more and more intense.

Do not vent emotions…we were always told that this was a good thing to do. However, sharing negative things helps keep the negative emotions alive.

not only does it keep the negative emotions alive within you but it spreads them. it will make the people you vent to see you in a negative light (figuring this out for myself right now). this sounds bad but all i really know how to do is one of two things: censor myself and vent. when i censor i don't say much at all because i don't know what to say that is appropriate. then something will trigger inside of me and i just vent. it's like a flood of negativity that pours out of me. and i dump it on potential friends who are almost always appalled. i don't mean to unload on them. it just happens. sometimes i will notice myself springing a leak and quickly dam it up before i do any real damage. but lots of times i just burst and all of my darkest thoughts gush out. the witness usually stands back and rightfully assesses what a negative, unbalanced character i am. then they usually run for the hills lol.

so i vented all that family negativity here in hopes of expelling it from my system so i can move on and try to focus only on the good things when my friends ask me how my weekend was. really someone needs to write "how to avoid being a debbie downer for dummies."

 

[yulee]

depressed. can't motivate myself to do my work. Cried a lot, seem like the only thing I can.

 

[Daz]

Slightly hungover, It was worth it though.

 

[quietkiwi]

Just feeling depressed and unmotivated. Have exams comming up and can't find the motivation or energy to study.

 

[lunaticbinge]

Fed up. Head hurts. F***.

 

[planemo]

Went out today, felt like a freak as I usually do, and now I'm a bit depressed.

 

[coyote]

....really someone needs to write "how to avoid being a debbie downer for dummies."

try this book:

Amazon.com: A Complaint Free World: How to Stop Complaining and Start Enjoying the Life You Always Wanted (9780385524582): Will Bowen: Books


I highly recommend it

 

[lunaticbinge]

I suppose idealists live happier lives. Can you be an idealist and a realist at the same time?

 

[BlackPuma]

I feel quite awesome today. Went to town and got scented candles, a new pillow, a paper cutter AND a large diamond (not a real one of course, but glass shaped like a diamond, and it's awesome).

<3

 

[coyote]

I feel quite awesome today. Went to town and got scented candles, a new pillow, a paper cutter AND a large diamond (not a real one of course, but glass shaped like a diamond, and it's awesome).

<3

hot date tonight?