^I wish I could cry. I haven't cried.... in God knows how long. I feel like crying about not being able to cry! That's how sad it is. I remember feeling so good after a good cry as a kid, I want that! :/
Like I'm stuck in limbo. I need to pick myself up and draw a line under some things and move on. Wish it was that easy :/
I'm sure you have goals to achieve, you just can't find the means, right ?
I'm even losing sight of my goals really. I just don't feel like I'm going anywhere. Just... living, you know. (doubt you can even call that "living").
The feeling of barely existing?
Frustrated with a growing anxiety. My anxiety is building because I need to go attend to my life and I am avoiding realities once again. Frustrated because there are so many interesting threads/posts right now.
So, I must re-focus,relax, and do what I am suppose to do while assuring myself I can learn and express later. Feels like a real bummer though.
headachey. a bit aimless. there are a million things that i could be looking into right now.
a friend has been calling me at 1am, two nights in a row. i haven't been answering my cellphone. their call last night woke me up. this person should be more respectful of my time but i feel bad about not picking up. :/
based on the voicemail that this person left the day before, they're calling for the hell of it, just to say hi. i haven't listened to the most recent voicemail. i should go and do that now. perhaps it was urgent. but, grar!