How are you feeling?
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ApRiLGeTsAngry77
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anxious, hyper, distressed and flat
Sinar_Matahari
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I'm doing alright at the moment. I can't really complain about my day. I've been volunteering at the local community services. We had a luncheon today in honor of the teens who have been hired for the summer and for some volunteers.
I may have appeared awkward because I prefer to eat my meals in silence. Everyone else was chatting and socializing. I felt really out of place so as soon as I was done eating I went back to work. I always feel out of place wherever I go and it doesn't help that most of the people who work or volunteer there happen to be older women. As a younger, attractive female, I've rarely fared well around other women (more likely older women).
I don't mind not fitting in so much, but I do realize that I have to network in order to get ahead. I'm still going to give it a try regardless. I still wanted to point out how awkward I felt not laughing at the same things that everyone was laughing at. I just didn't happen to share their sense of humor but I think that I may come across as standoffish or snobby because of this. Well, I'm not about to behave in a phony manner either. I figure that all I can be is myself and for the most part, it's more than good enough for me. Unfortunately, I'm never going to get anywhere if I don't make an effort.
One woman asked me if I am a volunteer and I replied, "yes", but then she didn't talk to me so I think that I may have given off a leave me alone vibe, but that's only because I want to eat my food in peace. It wasn't even out of anxiety.
Then I overheard the three women sitting next to me talking about me. The one sitting to my right asked the other two who I was because I heard one of them giving her my name. She couldn't introduce herself considering she was sitting right next to me? I find that a little annoying when people talk about you (even if it's not in a bad way) as though you're not there. I just pretended not to hear.
I normally hate small talk because it's so tedious. It's always the same s*** that normally begins with, "So, what do you do?". I really don't care to know what the other person does anymore than I care to divulge what I do and that goes for all the other annoying small talk questions. People will sense that I don't have a genuine interest in them if I start asking them the same questions. I hate having to tell people where I'm from, what I do, my marriage status, what my husband does, whether I have kids, where I live for the hundredth time. It feels awkward because it feels so rehearsed. Also, I feel that I shouldn't ask questions that are non of my business. I realize that most people do not think the way I do and this is going to keep me from getting ahead in life so I've decided that I'm still going to try and get some practice. The worst that can happen is people will reject me and at this point, I really don't care. As strange as it sounds, I really don't care and it feels good to not care.
I may have appeared awkward because I prefer to eat my meals in silence. Everyone else was chatting and socializing. I felt really out of place so as soon as I was done eating I went back to work. I always feel out of place wherever I go and it doesn't help that most of the people who work or volunteer there happen to be older women. As a younger, attractive female, I've rarely fared well around other women (more likely older women).
I don't mind not fitting in so much, but I do realize that I have to network in order to get ahead. I'm still going to give it a try regardless. I still wanted to point out how awkward I felt not laughing at the same things that everyone was laughing at. I just didn't happen to share their sense of humor but I think that I may come across as standoffish or snobby because of this. Well, I'm not about to behave in a phony manner either. I figure that all I can be is myself and for the most part, it's more than good enough for me. Unfortunately, I'm never going to get anywhere if I don't make an effort.
One woman asked me if I am a volunteer and I replied, "yes", but then she didn't talk to me so I think that I may have given off a leave me alone vibe, but that's only because I want to eat my food in peace. It wasn't even out of anxiety.
Then I overheard the three women sitting next to me talking about me. The one sitting to my right asked the other two who I was because I heard one of them giving her my name. She couldn't introduce herself considering she was sitting right next to me? I find that a little annoying when people talk about you (even if it's not in a bad way) as though you're not there. I just pretended not to hear.
I normally hate small talk because it's so tedious. It's always the same s*** that normally begins with, "So, what do you do?". I really don't care to know what the other person does anymore than I care to divulge what I do and that goes for all the other annoying small talk questions. People will sense that I don't have a genuine interest in them if I start asking them the same questions. I hate having to tell people where I'm from, what I do, my marriage status, what my husband does, whether I have kids, where I live for the hundredth time. It feels awkward because it feels so rehearsed. Also, I feel that I shouldn't ask questions that are non of my business. I realize that most people do not think the way I do and this is going to keep me from getting ahead in life so I've decided that I'm still going to try and get some practice. The worst that can happen is people will reject me and at this point, I really don't care. As strange as it sounds, I really don't care and it feels good to not care.
iamthenra
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I kinda feel like I was born into slavery... Kind of like the MATRIX, like my sole purpose here on Earth is to be a slave for the government and family that is always using me to get ahead. I've got a "WELCOME" stamped to my forehead, and as a result everyone wipes their dirty feet on it as they walk all over me. Just call me "copper top" or Duracell will do just fine too.
Well, I just went outside to start my evening's work (I live and work on a farm) and found my favourite little calf dead in one of the sheds. I can't believe it, I mean ffs I get close to one calf (he was just so friendly and lovely, whereas a lot of them run off if you try to pet them) and that exact one dies. I feel so sad right now :
: Angry too, at life I think...
Richard (my Mum's partner and the guy who owns the farm) reckons he must have eaten too much barley... which would be pointing the finger at me I suppose because I'm the one who gives them all barley. I don't understand that though because this little guy doesn't usually even come up to the trough with the others (too young maybe, he wasn't interested yet.) And I'm 99.9% sure I gave them the same amount I usually do anyway... grr ::::::
: Angry too, at life I think... Richard (my Mum's partner and the guy who owns the farm) reckons he must have eaten too much barley... which would be pointing the finger at me I suppose because I'm the one who gives them all barley. I don't understand that though because this little guy doesn't usually even come up to the trough with the others (too young maybe, he wasn't interested yet.) And I'm 99.9% sure I gave them the same amount I usually do anyway... grr :
:::::Well, I just went outside to start my evening's work (I live and work on a farm) and found my favourite little calf dead in one of the sheds. I can't believe it, I mean ffs I get close to one calf (he was just so friendly and lovely, whereas a lot of them run off if you try to pet them) and that exact one dies. I feel so sad right now :
Richard (my Mum's partner and the guy who owns the farm) reckons he must have eaten too much barley... which would be pointing the finger at me I suppose because I'm the one who gives them all barley. I don't understand that though because this little guy doesn't usually even come up to the trough with the others (too young maybe, he wasn't interested yet.) And I'm 99.9% sure I gave them the same amount I usually do anyway... grr
Aww, that is so sad. I'm sorry. Try not to blame yourself. It's not your fault. Bad things just happen sometimes. :
:I hope you feel better Pink.
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Tired and just run down. Insomnia really sucks. =/
Aww, that is so sad. I'm sorry. Try not to blame yourself. It's not your fault. Bad things just happen sometimes. :
Thanks. I guess that's life, but I really wasn't expecting to have to deal with losing another animal I was close to (after my dog died.) Probably sounds silly to everyone, being a farm animal and stuff, but I dunno, I was there helping pull the calf during birth and I kind of developed a bond with him...
His mother laid beside his body the whole time this evening... makes me wonder if she understands what has happened. Sad :
:Thanks. I guess that's life, but I really wasn't expecting to have to deal with losing another animal I was close to (after my dog died.) Probably sounds silly to everyone, being a farm animal and stuff, but I dunno, I was there helping pull the calf during birth and I kind of developed a bond with him...
His mother laid beside his body the whole time this evening... makes me wonder if she understands what has happened. Sad :
No, that doesn't sound silly at all. It's so easy to get attached to animals because of that unconditional love they give so freely. I'm very sorry about your dog too. I know how hard it is to lose them. I lost one of my dogs this past February and it's still really hard. Aww, that is heartbreaking about the calf's mother. I think animals do understand those things and have their own way of grieving. My other little dog still cries sometimes. He was so close to my dog that passed away. :
:No, that doesn't sound silly at all. It's so easy to get attached to animals because of that unconditional love they give so freely. I'm very sorry about your dog too. I know how hard it is to lose them. I lost one of my dogs this past February and it's still really hard. Aww, that is heartbreaking about the calf's mother. I think animals do understand those things and have their own way of grieving. My other little dog still cries sometimes. He was so close to my dog that passed away. :
Yeah, it's definately easy to get attached.
Sorry to hear about your dog, too. Death is tough, huh :
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nephatitus
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a mix of emotions stemming from various events
frustration, anger, heartache, vengence, sorrow, fear
frustration, anger, heartache, vengence, sorrow, fear
this_portrait
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I was feeling like shit earlier today. At the moment I'm a little worried, but for the most part I'm content.
this_portrait
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Scratch that, I feel hopeless as all hell right now.
Blue Teardrops
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I've been feeling down all day, well, all summer as a matter of fact. But this evening's kind of picked up a little.