How are you feeling?

Phoenixx

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Feeling anxious today. Not as bad as yesterday, but still feel unsettled. I think I'm going to preoccupy myself today by cleaning more again and doing some laundry. Also might go ahead and make my anxiety worse and apply for more jobs since this current job option is not working out. If I don't hear back from my email by the afternoon, I am going to follow up with another email and tell them to cancel the second interview.

I sent an email two days ago explaining my prior experiences and how I personally felt that there wasn't a way I could meet their second interview requirements without assistance. I also asked several questions regarding what they wanted and how it was going to work translating lessons via video conference. The person I've been in touch with throughout this whole ordeal has been fairly quick to respond this whole time, so the fact she's not responding now leaves me with a sinking feeling that this isn't a good sign. I'm tired of seeing nothing but red flags and blatant unprofessionalism from companies. Already this year I've been rejected from 3 jobs for really shitty excuses - 1.) Couldn't lift their supposed weight requirements, despite this NOT being in the job description, NOT being a job that revolves around constant lifting, and other employees currently working there not being able to lift those requirements either (word of mouth from someone I know who works there), 2.) Job position advertised was incorrect and wasn't the position that was actually open; the correct position that was open I was "overqualified" for, 3.) Looked over resume and basically said I wasn't good enough. No explanation as to what I had and what they were actually looking for. I refused to ask any questions further since they weren't willing to actually be upfront about anything. With these experiences plus the other handfuls of jobs I've applied and heard absolutely NOTHING, I'm convinced that professionalism no longer exists. It pays to treat people like shit and constantly look at and treat them like slaves.

I know COVID has royally screwed the job market, and is the majority of the reason why I'm having such a hard time finding a job, but sweet baby Jesus it is no excuse for all this bullshit I keep coming across.
 
Not too good, someone stole the trailer-hitch off my vehicle last night. :mad:

I've been debating putting a camera up ever since my car got broken into a few years ago, but always talked myself out of it. "You've lived here 14 years with no problems, it's not a trend."

The neighbors who live two doors down that don't like me had company over last night, so it was likely one of their douche-bro boyfriends.

Man, I wish I'd put that camera up. :mad::mad::mad:
 

LoyalXenite

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Not too good, someone stole the trailer-hitch off my vehicle last night. :mad:

I've been debating putting a camera up ever since my car got broken into a few years ago, but always talked myself out of it. "You've lived here 14 years with no problems, it's not a trend."

The neighbors who live two doors down that don't like me had company over last night, so it was likely one of their douche-bro boyfriends.

Man, I wish I'd put that camera up. :mad::mad::mad:
Thats so frustrating
 

worrywort

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I'm feeling troublingly low at the moment. I feel like I have some severely deep wounds festering within me that I can't seem to get relief from. I feel like I've lost hope in almost every avenue I used to find it in. I used to hope one day I'd find love, but that dream has all but died within me now. I used to hope I'd find success with my art, but nothing ever came of it, and now my creative spark feels limp and lifeless and in no fit state to compete. I used to have hope for the future, but the state of the world today has knocked that out of me too. Now I feel mostly fear. I used to hope, at least, I could live a moral, upstanding life and make God proud, but the more I examine myself the more I realise how shitty a person I truly am, and it seems there's no end to the messages in today's media reminding me of this fact.

I've got no-one to talk to.
But even if I did, I don't know how I'd begin to communicate what I feel.

I think I need a holiday. Get back to basics. Simple living. Low expectations. I'll just make some crap art for a bit.
 
I'm just feeling down and depressed, so back to my usual self in many ways. :cry:

I wish my life could go back to normal. Not normal in the sense life before this COVID lockdown/quarantine pish, but 3 years ago, when I was actually happy and enjoying life. Now ah just feel like I'm constantly comprising for my family, and neglecting myself more than ah used to.
 
So tired. I didn't sleep well last night - cat's dish was empty and she thought the world was ending so she kept waking me up. :rolleyes: This heat today is not helping any either. :sleep: Plus PMS. Yeah, great combo. I'm actually surprised I'm not grumpier. :unsure::LOL: Probably because despite everything I still managed to accomplish two bigger projects today, so that makes me a little relieved.
 
Feeling like a piece of shit today. I was doing alright, then an old college peer contacted me today about a job position - the very position I just declined a second interview for, lol. I guess she's working there at another branch too (seems like a lot of college peers are working through this company, it's kinda odd) and really likes it. Told me she wishes "I reached out" with my issues for what the company was asking. I did reach out, to the people in the interview and they were pretty vague. I still do not like what they wanted, but what kinda hurts more is that her interview went the same way mine did and she got the job. Which means she was able to do it. I couldn't. I know I couldn't do it. Trying to relay information over a system I'm not familiar with, it was daunting and I didn't feel up for it. I know I made the right call, but I still feel so pathetic.

I don't know what else to do with myself anymore honestly. I'm still selling stuff on ebay to earn a little bit of money I'm trying to save for either a camera or a new PC - haven't totally decided which I want first. I haven't been taking anymore courses because 1.) I'm tired of it and 2.) I don't know what courses I should be taking that will give me credible skills that look good on a resume. I've been trying to focus on updating things around the house without spending too much - like painting walls and such. I'm still tending to our little farm here that my husband and I have too. So it's not like I'm not doing anything with my time, but I really just want a job.

I keep getting told, "You'll find something." Oh really? *gestures vaguely* The other jobs I've applied for thus far I've heard zilch on, so I guess businesses aren't in that dire need of help like they're advertising. :rolleyes: I'm just so fucking tired of being unemployed, yet I'm not tired enough to settle for just anything I can get my hands on. :(:confused: I don't know, should I go back to school for a third freaking time? If I do, then what? What could I possibly do to waste more money on that will actually get me a job that I like???
 
$h!te - absolutely shite! My left ear's blocked, so ah can barely hear properly. Went to my local GP surgery yesterday, wearing a mask as is mandatory here in Scotland. Only to be told, after making an appointment, that they aren't "currently doing those procedures at the moment, for obvious reasons. But, if you want, you can go to your local hospital" :mad:

Translation (to me): Fuck off elsewhere, we can't be arsed. Besides, you might huv it. How do we know? So, despite the fact the nurses are wandering aboot decked oot in aprons, gloves, masks and fuckin' face shields! You'd think... but naw. Unblocking an ear, that's too bloody risky!

Thanks a fuckin' bunch COVID-19! :mad:
 
$h!te - absolutely shite! My left ear's blocked, so ah can barely hear properly. Went to my local GP surgery yesterday, wearing a mask as is mandatory here in Scotland. Only to be told, after making an appointment, that they aren't "currently doing those procedures at the moment, for obvious reasons. But, if you want, you can go to your local hospital" :mad:

Translation (to me): Fuck off elsewhere, we can't be arsed. Besides, you might huv it. How do we know? So, despite the fact the nurses are wandering aboot decked oot in aprons, gloves, masks and fuckin' face shields! You'd think... but naw. Unblocking an ear, that's too bloody risky!

Thanks a fuckin' bunch COVID-19! :mad:
Have you tried hydrogen peroxide? I had that problem and was recommended a few drops of the stuff while laying on my side, blocked ear up. Lay there for about 20 minutes while the stuff bubbles and does its stuff then rinse. Repeat if necessary (I had to do it twice). Using some kind of dropper is best. Hope that helps.
 
Have you tried hydrogen peroxide? I had that problem and was recommended a few drops of the stuff while laying on my side, blocked ear up. Lay there for about 20 minutes while the stuff bubbles and does its stuff then rinse. Repeat if necessary (I had to do it twice). Using some kind of dropper is best. Hope that helps.
Thanks for the advice, the nurse just suggested I get some drops and persevere with them for now. But if the drops don't help with unblocking my ear, I've come back in and get my ear cleaned out. So, I'll see how it goes...
 
Thanks for the advice, the nurse just suggested I get some drops and persevere with them for now. But if the drops don't help with unblocking my ear, I've come back in and get my ear cleaned out. So, I'll see how it goes...
Having a blocked ear is one of the most annoying experiences. I've had the procedure done after drops didn't work. They stuck a small tube in my ear connected to a spray bottle and squirted it a few times (I can't remember what the exact solution was... I think just water and hydrogen peroxide), with a basin underneath my ear to catch any rebounding wax and fluid. I remember thinking I could have done it myself with a spray bottle. Each squirt was very loud and the dirty SOBs used cold water. Nonetheless, the problem was fixed.

I bet there are probably articles/videos of people doing it themselves online. I'd be cautious with the procedure though if you're desperate enough to try it yourself, as the ear is such a delicate machine. You really wouldn't want to do any damage to it. Attempt at your own risk and discretion. (y)
 
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