How are you feeling?

Kiwong

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Haven't had my pills today. Feeling anxious about my interactions with someone. I try so hard to hide attraction towards anyone, I fear someone in the office may sense that and even friendship is lost. So I had 3 interactions with this lady today. First one she came to speak to me, thumps up. Second- I bumped into at the lift- Ok. Third- was a talk about databases- uncertainy surfaced. She and a friend were talking and laughing - perhaps I offended her- I have done this before to other people.
 

SoScared

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Haven't had my pills today. Feeling anxious about my interactions with someone. I try so hard to hide attraction towards anyone, I fear someone in the office may sense that and even friendship is lost. So I had 3 interactions with this lady today. First one she came to speak to me, thumps up. Second- I bumped into at the lift- Ok. Third- was a talk about databases- uncertainy surfaced. She and a friend were talking and laughing - perhaps I offended her- I have done this before to other people.
Talking about databases is always an anxiety trigger for us all.
 

planemo

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Haven't had my pills today. Feeling anxious about my interactions with someone. I try so hard to hide attraction towards anyone, I fear someone in the office may sense that and even friendship is lost. So I had 3 interactions with this lady today. First one she came to speak to me, thumps up. Second- I bumped into at the lift- Ok. Third- was a talk about databases- uncertainy surfaced. She and a friend were talking and laughing - perhaps I offended her- I have done this before to other people.
I have similar feelings around women. I'm terrified that I may embarrass someone by making my attraction obvious. I think we have two options to reduce the discomfort. Either be okay with letting a woman know that you like her, or just don't want or care to be liked by anyone. I think option 1, though the most risky, is best, since you're not denying yourself a possible companion.
 
I hate myself. I hate what my life has become. Being stuck in the same repetitive, boring, predictable routine for 2 years; even though it feels like a f__kin’ lifetime ! And I hate how I can’t make my situation better and change things without pissing off those around me. Maybe I’m just not meant to be happy? :cry:
 

Kiwong

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I have similar feelings around women. I'm terrified that I may embarrass someone by making my attraction obvious. I think we have two options to reduce the discomfort. Either be okay with letting a woman know that you like her, or just don't want or care to be liked by anyone. I think option 1, though the most risky, is best, since you're not denying yourself a possible companion.
That's really good, Planemo. It is ok to like her. To be open to any possibility. Better to be open than repressed.
 

SoScared

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Feeling better but I still get nervous around certain people. I tend to cope with the actual situation and then feel guilty afterwards which I suppose is much better than not coping with the situations as they happen as used to often be the case....Progress has been made.
 
A bit stressed about Thanksgiving, although somewhat surprising more of it is coming from my own family than the large group of near strangers I will be spending the day with at my girlfriend's house. It's Thanksgiving and I'm grateful I have a family, but I don't know at what point a small room with 15 people became more appealing than an afternoon with my father and sister. I wish I could say it's because I have a newfound affinity for large groups of new people, but that's definitely not true :p
 
Like shit. But a little better than yesterday, so I'll live... for now.

Not that anyone cares, I acknowledge that and that's ok. But this is the only place I feel I can express my feelings freely.
I apologize to anyone who takes my bleating and dark periods as offense.
 
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About the same, really. Tired, depressed n’ quite f__kin’ angry. :cry: :mad:

Disappointed in myself. Ah feel like I let myself down by not doing more this year; by which I mean just throwing myself back into making music. I should’ve been more creative during those summer months. If nothing else, it would’ve kept the thought that have running through my head for the last couple months from being dwelled upon.

Just disappointed n’ angry about my life in general. Angry that it’s become this joyless, f__kin’ miserable routine where I’m having to fake my emotions n’ how ah feeling because the truth is too f…kin’ heartbreaking to acknowledge.
Mibbe ma mother’s got the right idea: living in denial n’ pretend it aw grand, when it’s no?

 

SilentAndShy

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And to top it off, I must have made a fool out of myself at the petrol station holding the pump in one hand and trying to unscrew the button to my petrol area and having a few attempts at it. Sure there was one gentleman pointing in my direction and laughing with the till attendant as I drove away
Yup, still making a fool of myself at the petrol pump station. It would be good to turn the cap counter-clockwise and waste a few minutes fruitlessly turning to the annoying click sound, then driving off embarrassed and in a mood thus ruining family time. (I did do it successfully a few days later)
 

Phoenixx

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Shitty. I've been feeling absolutely shitty every day for the last 3 weeks or more. I am angry every single day. I'm upset every single day. My anger is getting uncontrollable and I don't know what to do.

My marriage is going through a really horrible rough patch. My husband's job is ruining everything, imo. He STILL travels nearly 3 hours a day to his job. He's now carpooling with a coworker who lives an hour closer (whoopie :rolleyes:), so that helps on gas only slightly. Before he started carpooling he spent nearly $800 dollars on gas. 800. fucking. dollars. :oops: It'd be different if this was summer and he was getting craploads of overtime to make up the difference, but no. It's just piddling garage work at their lowest wage. When we moved he said he didn't want to travel that far just to do that kind of work. We agreed he'd talk to his boss about switching him to job sites only, that way he earns great pay but gets laid off for longer periods. That way if he wants he can pick up something seasonal on the side. He's been there 10 years and has several qualifications making him a great asset to their team. I would think he has room to request what he wants.

He has yet to talk to anyone about anything and it's been 3 months since we moved. Says there's "too much work to be done" and "he's not quitting his job" so there's nothing to talk about. I never told him to quit his job, just to look into changing his schedule. I've been bringing it up every day, because I'm pissed off and petty like that and kind of hoping he'd get the freaking hint to actually do something.

Meanwhile my career is finally getting started, one I have worked for 8 freaking years trying to achieve, and I cannot fuck it up. He's gone 14 hours a day, leaving me to do all the errands. (This isn't new, as this was going on before we moved, but it's even harder now) I work 24 hours a week plus an additional 8 hours of travel. On the weekends when we're both off, he's in his shop most of the time organizing his stuff or working on something unimportant. I'm still left in the house doing laundry, dishes, cleaning, the usual.

He was adamant on getting a puppy over a week ago, since his dog is reaching her end and we both did want a dog that was more alert to the surroundings given we live in a rural area. I never wanted a puppy, I wanted to adopt. A nice rescue, housebroken dog in need of a family. I yelled at him to not get one, we argued back and forth, and I freaking caved and now we have a puppy. I bet you can't guess who's doing all the caretaking and training on top of errands and working part time?

(I don't hate the dog, but my anger is interfering with training. I find myself yelling at her excessively for doing things she's not supposed to because I just don't have the energy to train constantly and I'm tired of being the only one. I feel like such an asshole because she's basically a baby. She doesn't know better yet.)

For the last 2 weeks now I have been getting 6 hours of broken sleep a night. I'm fucking beyond exhausted and I'm beyond pissed off having to do everything. Because I work the latter half of the day most of the week and don't get home until 7:30pm, doggie daycare is not an option while I'm at work. I have my mom coming in a couple times a week to puppy sit, but she's doing an absolutely horrendous job. Yeah I said it. I come home and the house looks worse than when I left it and the dog is terrorizing everything and everyone most likely due to lack of play and exercise. So that leaves MORE WORK for me that needs to be done.

I'm at my wit's end on what to do anymore and I'm so close to just calling it quits. :cry::mad:
 

LoyalXenite

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Shitty. I've been feeling absolutely shitty every day for the last 3 weeks or more. I am angry every single day. I'm upset every single day. My anger is getting uncontrollable and I don't know what to do.

My marriage is going through a really horrible rough patch. My husband's job is ruining everything, imo. He STILL travels nearly 3 hours a day to his job. He's now carpooling with a coworker who lives an hour closer (whoopie :rolleyes:), so that helps on gas only slightly. Before he started carpooling he spent nearly $800 dollars on gas. 800. fucking. dollars.:oops: It'd be different if this was summer and he was getting craploads of overtime to make up the difference, but no. It's just piddling garage work at their lowest wage. When we moved he said he didn't want to travel that far just to do that kind of work. We agreed he'd talk to his boss about switching him to job sites only, that way he earns great pay but gets laid off for longer periods. That way if he wants he can pick up something seasonal on the side. He's been there 10 years and has several qualifications making him a great asset to their team. I would think he has room to request what he wants.

He has yet to talk to anyone about anything and it's been 3 months since we moved. Says there's "too much work to be done" and "he's not quitting his job" so there's nothing to talk about. I never told him to quit his job, just to look into changing his schedule. I've been bringing it up every day, because I'm pissed off and petty like that and kind of hoping he'd get the freaking hint to actually do something.

Meanwhile my career is finally getting started, one I have worked for 8 freaking years trying to achieve, and I cannot fuck it up. He's gone 14 hours a day, leaving me to do all the errands. (This isn't new, as this was going on before we moved, but it's even harder now) I work 24 hours a week plus an additional 8 hours of travel. On the weekends when we're both off, he's in his shop most of the time organizing his stuff or working on something unimportant. I'm still left in the house doing laundry, dishes, cleaning, the usual.

He was adamant on getting a puppy over a week ago, since his dog is reaching her end and we both did want a dog that was more alert to the surroundings given we live in a rural area. I never wanted a puppy, I wanted to adopt. A nice rescue, housebroken dog in need of a family. I yelled at him to not get one, we argued back and forth, and I freaking caved and now we have a puppy. I bet you can't guess who's doing all the caretaking and training on top of errands and working part time?

(I don't hate the dog, but my anger is interfering with training. I find myself yelling at her excessively for doing things she's not supposed to because I just don't have the energy to train constantly and I'm tired of being the only one. I feel like such an asshole because she's basically a baby. She doesn't know better yet.)

For the last 2 weeks now I have been getting 6 hours of broken sleep a night. I'm fucking beyond exhausted and I'm beyond pissed off having to do everything. Because I work the latter half of the day most of the week and don't get home until 7:30pm, doggie daycare is not an option while I'm at work. I have my mom coming in a couple times a week to puppy sit, but she's doing an absolutely horrendous job. Yeah I said it. I come home and the house looks worse than when I left it and the dog is terrorizing everything and everyone most likely due to lack of play and exercise. So that leaves MORE WORK for me that needs to be done.

I'm at my wit's end on what to do anymore and I'm so close to just calling it quits. :cry::mad:
Can you put the pup in one room with various toys for stimulation? that way she has things to stay occupied and isnt wreaking havoc. The puppy stage is the cutest but definitely the most work. You could look at some simple toys that give stimulation for ages, like peanut butter in a kong (be careful of which peanut butter as some have something called xylitol (or something like that) in it which is toxic), or snuffle mats, or ice blocks with their toys frozen inside if its not too cold where you are
 

Phoenixx

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Can you put the pup in one room with various toys for stimulation? that way she has things to stay occupied and isnt wreaking havoc. The puppy stage is the cutest but definitely the most work. You could look at some simple toys that give stimulation for ages, like peanut butter in a kong (be careful of which peanut butter as some have something called xylitol (or something like that) in it which is toxic), or snuffle mats, or ice blocks with their toys frozen inside if its not too cold where you are
Yes whenever we're away without a puppy sitter, sleeping, or we need to just get things done without being able to babysit constantly we keep her in our entryway/mudroom with a baby gate. We give her plenty of toys and her bed and water. She has puppy separation anxiety right now so it's really hard training her that it's going to be okay. I'm doing all the right things, it's just a matter of that moment for her to "click" and realize, "Hey I'm perfectly fine when I'm by myself." Today was the worst with her tantrums. :oops:
 
Shitty. I've been feeling absolutely shitty every day for the last 3 weeks or more. I am angry every single day. I'm upset every single day. My anger is getting uncontrollable and I don't know what to do.

My marriage is going through a really horrible rough patch. My husband's job is ruining everything, imo. He STILL travels nearly 3 hours a day to his job. He's now carpooling with a coworker who lives an hour closer (whoopie :rolleyes:), so that helps on gas only slightly. Before he started carpooling he spent nearly $800 dollars on gas. 800. fucking. dollars.:oops: It'd be different if this was summer and he was getting craploads of overtime to make up the difference, but no. It's just piddling garage work at their lowest wage. When we moved he said he didn't want to travel that far just to do that kind of work. We agreed he'd talk to his boss about switching him to job sites only, that way he earns great pay but gets laid off for longer periods. That way if he wants he can pick up something seasonal on the side. He's been there 10 years and has several qualifications making him a great asset to their team. I would think he has room to request what he wants.

He has yet to talk to anyone about anything and it's been 3 months since we moved. Says there's "too much work to be done" and "he's not quitting his job" so there's nothing to talk about. I never told him to quit his job, just to look into changing his schedule. I've been bringing it up every day, because I'm pissed off and petty like that and kind of hoping he'd get the freaking hint to actually do something.

Meanwhile my career is finally getting started, one I have worked for 8 freaking years trying to achieve, and I cannot fuck it up. He's gone 14 hours a day, leaving me to do all the errands. (This isn't new, as this was going on before we moved, but it's even harder now) I work 24 hours a week plus an additional 8 hours of travel. On the weekends when we're both off, he's in his shop most of the time organizing his stuff or working on something unimportant. I'm still left in the house doing laundry, dishes, cleaning, the usual.

He was adamant on getting a puppy over a week ago, since his dog is reaching her end and we both did want a dog that was more alert to the surroundings given we live in a rural area. I never wanted a puppy, I wanted to adopt. A nice rescue, housebroken dog in need of a family. I yelled at him to not get one, we argued back and forth, and I freaking caved and now we have a puppy. I bet you can't guess who's doing all the caretaking and training on top of errands and working part time?

(I don't hate the dog, but my anger is interfering with training. I find myself yelling at her excessively for doing things she's not supposed to because I just don't have the energy to train constantly and I'm tired of being the only one. I feel like such an asshole because she's basically a baby. She doesn't know better yet.)

For the last 2 weeks now I have been getting 6 hours of broken sleep a night. I'm fucking beyond exhausted and I'm beyond pissed off having to do everything. Because I work the latter half of the day most of the week and don't get home until 7:30pm, doggie daycare is not an option while I'm at work. I have my mom coming in a couple times a week to puppy sit, but she's doing an absolutely horrendous job. Yeah I said it. I come home and the house looks worse than when I left it and the dog is terrorizing everything and everyone most likely due to lack of play and exercise. So that leaves MORE WORK for me that needs to be done.

I'm at my wit's end on what to do anymore and I'm so close to just calling it quits. :cry::mad:
When I find myself getting angrier more often or more irritable more easily, I usually trace it back to one of two things (or often a combination of the two). The first is a lack of sleep or not enough/the right food which definitely sounds like you're getting hit with, at least in the sleep department. The other is as a harbinger for current or incoming depression. It's a sneaky, counter-initutive symptom that's easy to overlook. I don't think I have any practical advice to your relationship or new puppy issues, but it might be helpful to keep in mind (if you're not already) that a lot of these frustrations may not be as surface level as they immediately appear. It might not be that either though.
 
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