Pacific_Loner
Pirate from the North Pole
Oh I wasn't offended at all don't worry about it, when you're talking about someone's shitty week you expect them to be a little snappy! Anyway I hope next week is better
How are you feeling?
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Oh I wasn't offended at all don't worry about it, when you're talking about someone's shitty week you expect them to be a little snappy! Anyway I hope next week is better
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Don’t know if ah should feel pissed off or vindicated and smug as f…ck? :thinking: :idontknow:
vj288
not actually Fiona Apple
I've been feeling that way for the last week. I thought part of it was from sleeping in a basement for the last 4 years (and, well, all the things that come with a basement) so I moved up to a room above ground.
What has happened now is I still not getting to sleep easy and being a bit restless, and ALSO am being woken up at 5 am by the sun. I think in the long run the sun will be nice and I would rather wake up early, but it has been quite the hard going getting to that point. I am hoping at some point I just start passing out at 6 pm and it becomes a habit :
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Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
I've been feeling that way for the last week. I thought part of it was from sleeping in a basement for the last 4 years (and, well, all the things that come with a basement) so I moved up to a room above ground.
What has happened now is I still not getting to sleep easy and being a bit restless, and ALSO am being woken up at 5 am by the sun. I think in the long run the sun will be nice and I would rather wake up early, but it has been quite the hard going getting to that point. I am hoping at some point I just start passing out at 6 pm and it becomes a habit :
:bigsmile:
I’ve been in the habit of going to bed at 8 pm for the past year, just because that’s how it was when my older sister and her kids were staying with my mother and I. When I’d normally be going to bed by 10 pm at the latest. I feel like I haven’t slept at all for the whole month of August. :sad:
BlueDays
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Omg I could NEVER sleep in a basement!I've been feeling that way for the last week. I thought part of it was from sleeping in a basement for the last 4 years (and, well, all the things that come with a basement) so I moved up to a room above ground.
What has happened now is I still not getting to sleep easy and being a bit restless, and ALSO am being woken up at 5 am by the sun. I think in the long run the sun will be nice and I would rather wake up early, but it has been quite the hard going getting to that point. I am hoping at some point I just start passing out at 6 pm and it becomes a habit :
I would be so worried that a flood may occur during the night, and i would have a 100% chance of drowning.
Did you ever worry about a flood, vj?
Your Circadian Rhythm will soon get used to waking up in a sunny environment, just give it some time.
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
vj288
not actually Fiona Apple
Yes, the last week and a half have felt just like that for me. Yesterday I was tired all day, made a point to get to bed at 9, and then all of a sudden my brain wakes up. I spent 12 hours in bed and I bet only 6 of them involved sleeping. I don't get it :idontknow:
Omg I could NEVER sleep in a basement!
I would be so worried that a flood may occur during the night, and i would have a 100% chance of drowning.
Did you ever worry about a flood, vj?
Your Circadian Rhythm will soon get used to waking up in a sunny environment, just give it some time.
Mm, I would say it was the mice that was the straw that broke the camels back. We actually have rugs and outlets and stuff in the basement, so I figured an electrical fire would wake me up before I drowned :
: It had been raining incessantly the last few weeks though, and another straw on the camel's back was the moldy, wet rug smell. I do hope sleep starts to come to me soon though, I am a very cranky and irritable tired person. I go from patient enough organize an entire room, to incredibly annoyed that I have to move the milk jug in order to take the mayo out of the fridge. (fun fact: moving a milk jug to get mayo out of the fridge is not something worth getting incredibly annoyed over.)
Been on Reddit a lot recently. Roaming the subreddits for losers. Reading people complain about being lonely and then saying "but my boyfriend/girlfriend is amazing...". No, **** you. You have an SO, you don't get friends.
I'm so salty these days - just being around me will calcify your arteries.
I'm so salty these days - just being around me will calcify your arteries.
BlueDays
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^That sounds like what females go through with PMS, vj.
Just imagine feeling like that for 5 days, every single month, lol. :thumbup:
Doing some intense physical activity has helped me to be able to sleep while suffering from insomnia in the past. Have you tried doing an activity that results in you being absolutely exhausted, physically ?
I hope your ability to sleep for a reasonable amount of time improves soon, vj.
BlueDays
1
Are you lying in your bed at night, mulling over the days stress from your strained family situations, Graeme?
There are many suggestions online for people to try to help you clear your mind of the days stressful thoughts. Have you tried any of those? :question:
MollyBeGood
Well-known member
feeling so unbelievably disenchanted by it all.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
:thinking: Probably a wee bit, but lately I’ve been so distracted lately with cleaning out my room by myself. And because of that, I’ve got this energy and focus that ah cannae do anything with, especially at 3 am.
That’s not to say, I don’t mull over the stresses of the day when there’s a massive argument. Cuz I’ll end up hearing my mum talking on the phone about what’s getting her down. Or my mother and oldest sister complaining to me about how things have gotten and why that is. And my mum’s repeated proclamations that she “feel like running away”. :kickingmyself: Those get to me...
And this time last year, I felt ready to pack up and leave, myself. Or worse... kill maself. :sad: I mean, it’d be great if we could sit down and talk about our issues openly. But in my experience, that just ends with them storming off in a huff cuz I’ve dared to be critical of them. Or, in my older sister’s case, a massive, in-yer-face row breaks oot. With the usually musical backing of her yelling her f*ckin’ head off.
Though the sad thing is that, every criticism I’ve angrily spouted about my older sister over the years that was met with laughs from my mum and oldest sister, are now the very same questions they’re asking of my older sister.
Mind you, things are slightly better since we all had a week’s break from each other, recently. Ah say “we”, I’m still keeping to myself. Though my relationship with my mother is kinda slowly getting back to what it used to be.
No, I haven’t done that in a while, Blue. But thanks for the suggestion, nonetheless. Mainly I’ve just been listening to the more relaxing classical or ambient music on my iPod at night and drifting off to sleep to that.
BlueDays
1
Me too, Molly. :sad:
I hope things improve for you soon though.
Where I live, job advertisements are starting to include a requirement that you must own your own car to apply for the job. These job vacancies are for just plain office administration/receptionist, sit down/stay at one place jobs.
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It goes to show that the "official" unemployment statistics are absolute BS! :thumbdown:
If employers are able to specify that only people who own their own car can apply for a stationary job, then the businesses must have a very large pool of unemployed people to choose from!
It seems like an excellent way to discriminate against poor people, who can't afford to own and maintain a car. :sad:
Pacific_Loner
Pirate from the North Pole
In the meantime, everyone scream against climate change, curse the traffic and praise public transportation.
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
Got a burnin' heart.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Don't whether ah should be laughin' or f...ckin' crying tae be honest. Move out or taking ma own life? :sad:
Another day, same ol' bat-$h!te crazy, miserable as f*ck family. More negative than a f*ckin' alkaline battery. :kickingmyself: One minutes it's all fine, the next aw hell breaks loose. Oh, but I'm the one constant in their lives, apparently. And yet every bit of advice ah huv given over years has either been ignored; or ended with me being telt tae f*ck off ! Same goes for me trying to be peacemaker during heated arguments. :thumbdown:
But it's still me who's perceived as inconsiderate, ungrateful and only care about himself. :sarcastic:
Another day, same ol' bat-$h!te crazy, miserable as f*ck family. More negative than a f*ckin' alkaline battery. :kickingmyself: One minutes it's all fine, the next aw hell breaks loose. Oh, but I'm the one constant in their lives, apparently. And yet every bit of advice ah huv given over years has either been ignored; or ended with me being telt tae f*ck off ! Same goes for me trying to be peacemaker during heated arguments. :thumbdown:
But it's still me who's perceived as inconsiderate, ungrateful and only care about himself. :sarcastic:
Pacific_Loner
Pirate from the North Pole
Moving out sounds like the best of your 2 options, because if it fails, option 2 is still available. This is not true the other way around.
vj288
not actually Fiona Apple
^That sounds like what females go through with PMS, vj.
Just imagine feeling like that for 5 days, every single month, lol. :thumbup:
Doing some intense physical activity has helped me to be able to sleep while suffering from insomnia in the past. Have you tried doing an activity that results in you being absolutely exhausted, physically ?
I hope your ability to sleep for a reasonable amount of time improves soon, vj.
I am getting to the point where I am so exhausted that sleep is coming a bit easier, I think from not sleeping more than the exercising though. I have been running so hard that my thighs now feel very sore walking down the stairs, picking up boxes, or, uh, just not laying completely still on the couch. As I write this it is donning on me that my legs are probably sore largely because of the lack of sleep to heal them after running though -_-
Besides that though, and I feeling hopeful about more sleep coming more readily soon, more so than I did a week ago.
Also, I have a good part time opportunity that sort of just fell in my lap, and it is a work-from-home position! :thumbup: Consistent money will be nice again.
BlueDays
1
I had a really depressing dream about living in an dictatorship style community/society last night.
When I woke up, for a few seconds there was ultimate relief with the realisation that it was just a dream/nightmare.
Then after looking at the clock and seeing I had about 5 mins until I had to get up, I started thinking of all the things I had to get done for the day.
My whole day was going to be taken up by required/forced activities that I had no choice whatsoever in whether I wanted to do them or not. :sad:
I miss when I used to be able to do whatever I wanted to do on my weekends.
My life now as an adult, consists of no longer having a single day in my whole 7 day week, where I can choose what I want to do for a whole day. :crying:
Life should not be this difficult.
I'm not "living"....this is just existing.
(and no, I am not in a Prison, but my life sure as hell feels like ith
When I woke up, for a few seconds there was ultimate relief with the realisation that it was just a dream/nightmare.
Then after looking at the clock and seeing I had about 5 mins until I had to get up, I started thinking of all the things I had to get done for the day.
My whole day was going to be taken up by required/forced activities that I had no choice whatsoever in whether I wanted to do them or not. :sad:
I miss when I used to be able to do whatever I wanted to do on my weekends.
My life now as an adult, consists of no longer having a single day in my whole 7 day week, where I can choose what I want to do for a whole day. :crying:
Life should not be this difficult.
I'm not "living"....this is just existing.
(and no, I am not in a Prison, but my life sure as hell feels like it
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