How are you feeling?

jinxed said: ↑

i feel i support others a lot in ways but not a lot of people do that towards me

Sorry you feel that way, darling. :sad:

jinxed said: ↑

I'm also afraid of my life :🙁: i don't know how to fix things only God knows but I'm continuing to do things about it

Same here :sad:. I swing from hope/optimistic to hopeless/pessimistic, but overall the pessimism is winning for most of the time right now. I hope that can change, as ALL i want is to have an OKAY MOOD in difficult circumstances - it's ALL ABOUT THE MOOD .. THE MOOD IS KING. Circumstances don't matter (so much as i tend to think they do); there are things BEYOND circumstances, which circumstances CANNOT TOUCH. I cannot only hope that those things keep me SAFE in the upcoming weeks, months, years.

Graeme1988 said: ↑

Trapped. Miserable n' depressed. Like my life is slowly falling apart, and I can't do anything to make it better. :crying:

I feel the same right now :sad:
But i'm JUST managing to keep the depression (& extreme hopelessness) at bay, for now.

jinxed said: ↑

yes it IS to prevent from hacker-attackers!! sorry for being rude but how come you don't give better advice?

Because i'm lame, hehe.
I used to be 100% into security, but now i guess i've just given up on it, and can't be bothered.

Feeling 100% f*cked. Feel NO place is my home now. Feel like i'm in a prison cell, and on death notice. Feels like NOTHING is safe from the clutches of change. Feel i've permanently ruined the relationships i have with my mother, father, neice & nephew (& also brother ie my whole family). They may never "forgive" me (or properly). :🙁:

So, what do i do when i'm "100% ****ed"? Well my a-z of conditions (document on computer) says to DRINK, and so i am. That's all i've got, all that can help (oh, and spw of course). Just blot-out all the feelings of insecurity/etc. I'm drinking the hard stuff, and also drinking a coffee, at the same time.

So much better! I had quite the eventful day today - I gave chest compressions for the first time at work AND I passed my math class! 🎉

Sarah_M said: ↑

So much better! I had quite the eventful day today - I gave chest compressions for the first time at work AND I passed my math class! 🎉

Woot! Go Sarah! Go Sarah! Go Sarah!😎:numberone::brindis:

With the rain, comes the pain. My sense of loss at the moment is profound. Struggling to not be depressed. I can feel the sadness itching to grab a hold of me, but i'm fighting going there with all my might. :sad:

theslowesthand said: ↑

With the rain, comes the pain. My sense of loss at the moment is profound. Struggling to not be depressed. I can feel the sadness itching to grab a hold of me, but i'm fighting going there with all my might. :sad:

That's how I've been feeling as of late. :sad:

I'm currently questioning my purpose in life and within my family.

jinxed said: ↑

feeling why is there no one on this forum!

"Code Blue"!
This site needs a defibrilator to being it back to life....





The loneliness is burning. :sad:

It's like western film set with tumbleweeds.

heeeellllllllOOOOOoooooooo! *echos*

Feeling depressed. Stuck inside for whole day (rainy day). I've got SO MANY problems, i'm overwhelmed & feeling hopeless about them & hopeless about my future. I'm going to bed really early - that's the only solution. Nothing else is working. :sad:

theslowesthand said: ↑

Feeling depressed. Stuck inside for whole day (rainy day). I've got SO MANY problems, i'm overwhelmed & feeling hopeless about them & hopeless about my future. I'm going to bed really early - that's the only solution. Nothing else is working. :sad:

Sleep is a pretty amazing in the way it can help your brain to kind of "reset" overnight.
That's if you are lucky to get a long and deep enough stretch of it without waking up several times through the night.
I hope you get a good quality stretch of sleep to help give you a bit more energy to tackle your problems when you wake up, theslowesthand.




I have been surprised how much this particular one has been helping my mood. You know when something just "clicks" and sets off your pleasure chemicals firing powerfully in your brain?
The older you get, the harder it is to find things that do this to your brain.
🔴 Beautiful Piano Music 24/7: Relaxing Music, Study Music, Sleep Music, Meditation Music - YouTube

jinxed said: ↑

i don't have the last messages and whole page back in time anymore when i don't log in yay! God thank you :bigsmile::applause:

Same here.

I have almost EVERY size of allen wrench EXCEPT the size I need right now....




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jinxed said: ↑

i don't have the last messages and whole page back in time anymore when i don't log in yay! God thank you :bigsmile::applause:

See jinxed, God is listening to your prayers, FOR REAL! :bigsmile:

BlueDays said: ↑

I have been surprised how much this particular one has been helping my mood. You know when something just "clicks" and sets off your pleasure chemicals firing powerfully in your brain?
The older you get, the harder it is to find things that do this to your brain.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xc9vmAsenNU

That is very nice to listen to. Most of the time i listen to classical instrumental (& some opera). When i'm depressed i need the absolute gentlest music. Not sure if it "clicks" and sets off pleasure chemicals firing powerfully in my brain, but it's nice which is good enough for me, to help me through this depression or "low ebb" that i'm currently in.

I'm listening to this now. It's even gentler.
Rain and Native American Flutes - Relaxing Music - YouTube

I have a theory about depression: If you can't beat it, join it. By that i mean "let go" or "embrace" it, as you need to "process" it.

I'm not allowed to visit my parents house now. If i do they said they'll get a tresspass order from the police (i had a temper tantrum 2 weeks ago at their place). That sort of stuff is BOUND to cause a sense of loss & eventually depression. And also i'm not allowed to see my neice or nephew anymore. This is HARD stuff for any person to deal with. And on top of that, i have to find a place to flat which i can afford (which is not much at all); i'm worried that i won't be able to afford the foods/chocolate/alcohol/.. that i normally buy, and especially alcohol which i use an an emotional crutch. I'm worried my quality of life will be even worse than it has been for the last few years (depression, suicidal thoughts, suicide attempt, anxiety, ...). I'm not sure how i'm going to cope. :sad:

jinxed said: ↑

i feel concerned about the medication I'm trying, i feel it's causing me to be too tired to do a lot of things, that's not good :sad:

What medication (or type of medication) are you trying? What is it used to treat? There may be a short time needed for your body to adjust. Could you ease into the new medication more gradually, with a smaller dose?