How are you feeling?

[PugofCrydee]

i feel concerned about the medication I'm trying, i feel it's causing me to be too tired to do a lot of things, that's not good :sad:

Whilst I have no idea of the meds you're trying, one of the more common side effects of anti depressants and/or mood stabilizers in the first months is lethargy. I experienced that a lot when I was going through new meds.

I hope whatever new meds you're trying work and they help you soon

 

[PugofCrydee]

I have almost EVERY size of allen wrench EXCEPT the size I need right now....




-_-

It's always the way...

 

[Graeme1988]

Don't know what to do with ma life? :sad: :idontknow: :crying:

 

[theslowesthand]

Don't know what to do with ma life? :sad : :idontknow : :crying :

Me an all, mate. I feel the same. :sad: :idontknow: :crying:

Sipping a cold can of coke, that's what i'm doing right now. And listening to "Rain and Native American Flutes - Relaxing Music" (healing music). I feel i've "botched-up" my life for good. :sad:. And my worries are overwhelming me (i have too many at present) - it's almost a constant battle to not think of them & get down.

 

[theslowesthand]

Feeling really down. A deep sadness that can't cry.
I said 'help me god'. Then i saw a link to this healing music (all other music/audio is "too much" for my current fragile state).

ANGELIC MUSIC ❯ HEALING 432 Hz MUSIC - YouTube

 

[theslowesthand]

I'm doing sweet ****-all today, like most days. Should i feel guilty about that? (cause i do). Just waiting for my life to resume (or start) .. or end. Not as depressed as yesterday, which is good. Just been walking around outside, checking out the wasps who're following their waspy trails, & stopping off at spots in groups to sunbathe or chat or whatever. At this point in my life, i wish i was any other creature except me, cause i'm cursed (i feel). Oh well, how bad can the suffering get? I believe i've gone "down" in the past to as far any human can go, with the emotional suffering. If i can survive that, then i can survive this "petty" little depression or "spot" i'm in presently. All things pass. Nothing stays the same.

 

[theslowesthand]

My "reality" has changed. Anxiety & depression does that, over the smallest of things (i think was looking at flats to rent online; i found one on the road i used to live on, & brought back bad memories, & that was enough to screw-up my mood (which wasn't that great to start with)). I hate it when that happens. :sad:
I call it a "False Negative World" (FNW).

 

[theslowesthand]

I lead an empty, lonely, solitary, boring life :sad:

 

[Graeme1988]

I lead an empty, lonely, solitary, boring life :sad:

Me too. :sad:

 

[theslowesthand]

I lead an empty, lonely, solitary, boring life : sad:

And the only "excitement" i get is when i have a music/booze session, every now and then. But pretty soon i won't be able to afford booze :crying:. It's just be music. But maybe i could drink on rare occasions, but i fear that won't be enough, as i'm drinking every day, through the day at present. I know it's not healthy, can't often nothing else works for me, as the mood is just too far down. :sad:. But i will somehow need to wean my self off it a fair bit. Was forced to a month ago, & it was "hell", but i survived. The real problem is that i have an empty, boring life ... and i use alcohol to numb the associated feelings (& also to enjoy the music more).

Thing is, i don't know how to beat the feeling of being caged in the same 4 walls for most of each day. Wouldn't having a job be the same (if in an office)?. I just went outside & did some steps (walking) for ~20 mins, and i felt a bit better whilst doing it, but when i returned inside, the cabin fever "hit" me like stepping into a sauna, or stepping outside an air-conditioned building in a desert (eg saudi arabia), where the heat just "hits" you like sudden wind gust.

Radio: 'If you're stuck in a failing relationship, here's pat benatar ...'. NO. I'm stuck in NO relationship!!! And i'm stuck in these bleedin 4 walls. And stuck in this groundhog-like dreary existence, where nothing good ever happens. THAT's what i'm STUCK in!!! :kickingmyself:

My reality is boredom. I seem STUCK in it, all day, every day. :sad:

'Life in the SLOW lane' (butchered eagles song)

 

[grapevine]

This is the last day I am free. From tomorrow I will be working all day and then from Friday to Monday - my sister, niece and nephew will be staying over and they will not leave me alone for a second (the kids). They are those type of children that never tire lol. I will not get a second alone. Its going to be a long haul.

 

[PugofCrydee]

This is the last day I am free. From tomorrow I will be working all day and then from Friday to Monday - my sister, niece and nephew will be staying over and they will not leave me alone for a second (the kids). They are those type of children that never tire lol. I will not get a second alone. Its going to be a long haul.

I know how you feel... I have in laws coming to stay for 2 weeks! It's going to be such a long 2 weeks.. :crying:

 

[Graeme1988]

Ah never should've bother getting out of bed this morning. And I really should've done, my low back is in agony. :sad:

 

[Graeme1988]

My life feels so directionless - is that a word? :thinking: :idontknow: Sorry, I'm not as great as I used to be when to comes verbiage.

 

[FountainandFairfax]

Still sick, still tired, still blah.

If I had health insurance I would've gone to the doctor a week ago. I just hope I don't have something bacterial, I'm gonna give it a few more days.

I just hate to hit my family up for a bill.

 

[BlueDays]

Still sick, still tired, still blah.

If I had health insurance I would've gone to the doctor a week ago. I just hope I don't have something bacterial, I'm gonna give it a few more days.

I just hate to hit my family up for a bill.

Do you have a high fever with it?
I feel so sad for Americans with the countries heartless medical-insurance-or-we-don't-care-you-can-just-die, policy. :sad:
Rest and eat super-healthy, if you can. Good luck.


Feeling so pathetic. My procrastination has reached the "omg are you kidding" !!?? stage.
It is fuelling a bitter hatred of myself. :kickingmyself:

 

[BlueDays]

Ah never should've bother getting out of bed this morning. And I really should've done, my low back is in agony. :sad:

I find it surprising how common lower back pain is. Sadly a great deal of people suffer with this.
Have you had a doctor investigate what is causing yours, Graeme?

 

[PugofCrydee]

Feeling like the race is almost run. 1 more shift that ends at midnight then it's the easter break.

 

[Graeme1988]

I find it surprising how common lower back pain is. Sadly a great deal of people suffer with this.
Have you had a doctor investigate what is causing yours, Graeme?

No, I haven't been to the doctor about my back pain issue. Not yet anyway.
Though, I've not exercised as regularly within the last year, so... :thinking: :idontknow:

 

[theslowesthand]

My computer is back in time again if i don't log in!

Same here jinxed. When i was banned in the last day/so for >24hrs, i saw (eg) one post was made "16 minutes ago", but went there, and found it was actually posted "4 hours ago".