defiance
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I'd say get out there. I do it even when I don't want to with every fiber of my being. Just because it's a social thing to do I suppose. Maybe it might spark a bit of happiness who knows.
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I'd say get out there. I do it even when I don't want to with every fiber of my being. Just because it's a social thing to do I suppose. Maybe it might spark a bit of happiness who knows.
theslowesthand
Banned
So you do it, even when you really can't (really really don't want to), but at the same time you are (barely) "able" to do it. That takes real courage man!. So good on you for doing that. I wish i had courage like that.
mantishugo
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I'm little stressed out today. There are lots of work to do towards self-improvement. Plus family responsibility. Keep oneself healthy to meet everyone's expectation is utmost important.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Ah know... I've lived with 'em long enough to notice. But they don't like when I point that out. To them that's a bit c*nty. They'd rather I just be happy, like they are, and not question things.
No wonder they're emotionally-mixed-up nutjobs!
Well... I'm an equally emotionally mixed-up nutbag. So, none taken.
Par for the course when ye grow up in a single-parent, matriarchal, man-hating household, I guess. :sad:
PugofCrydee
You want to know how I got these scars?
Ah know... I've lived with 'em long enough to notice. But they don't like when I point that out. To them that's a bit c*nty. They'd rather I just be happy, like they are, and not question things.
Well... I'm an equally emotionally mixed-up nutbag. So, none taken.
Par for the course when ye grow up in a single-parent, matriarchal, man-hating household, I guess. :sad:
No offence Graeme, but have you thought about moving out?
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Thought? Pug, man, it's the only thing keepin' me going at this point. :sad: I've actually thought about it for the best part of 10 years. Ah know, bloody depressing, innit?
But naw, ma mum wouldn't let me move out. Because, y'know, disabled folk are incapable of caring for themselves n' that. And the burden of responsibility for caring for my mum is on me, or so ah keep gettin' told... Because my mum can't function without me. :kickingmyself:
So, for now at least, it looks like I'm doomed to be miserable. Never living up to ma family expectations. Constantly trying to hide my depression; constantly having to justify my existence. Aye, because everything I do needs to have a good reason. And always having to put in that wee bit more than "normal" able-bodied folk.*
* Nae offense intended there. Just saying life is just that wee bit more difficult for the likes of me.
theoutsider
Well-known member
I fear the possibility of reincarnation because I don't want to do this all over again!
theslowesthand
Banned
Or a "return to start" (like in monoply), so that you can try life again from the start!
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Pissed off! Went out to a concert a couple nights ago, couldnae enjoy the experience because of a remark one of my sister made to be afore ah left the house :sad:
I am so sick of constantly being judged. Everything ah do seems to be total wrong, so I'm just going to give up making an effort. Cuz, clearly, forcing me to interact socially with a group of people who seem to enjoy making me miserable isn't worth the hassle. :kickingmyself: But that's apparently my fault.
Ah mean, would any of you here willing speak to be people who do nothing but criticise ya? I wouldn't. but then, ma experience in life has taught me people who constantly bring ya down aren't great to be with from the off.
2017 might be ma final year living, since ah cannae put up with much more of this "Do as we say, or else..." b*llocks.
I am so sick of constantly being judged. Everything ah do seems to be total wrong, so I'm just going to give up making an effort. Cuz, clearly, forcing me to interact socially with a group of people who seem to enjoy making me miserable isn't worth the hassle. :kickingmyself: But that's apparently my fault.
Ah mean, would any of you here willing speak to be people who do nothing but criticise ya? I wouldn't. but then, ma experience in life has taught me people who constantly bring ya down aren't great to be with from the off.
2017 might be ma final year living, since ah cannae put up with much more of this "Do as we say, or else..." b*llocks.
defiance
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Please I am begging you stop torturing me. I can't take it anymore. All these years of letting my mother down. All the times i had to talk myself out of killing myself. All the anger and frustration i have dealt with on top of the people i had to deal with. I am beyond a broken man at this point. Let me have peace please. I can't do this for another year:crying:. I JUST CAN'T:crying:. It's mental cancer. It's just F**KING MENTAL CANCER MAN.:crying:
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Cannae quite believe in 2 weeks time it'll exactly a year since ma orthopaedic surgery.
BlueDays
1
^ Oh hell yes!! :thumbup:
Me yelling at the Sales Clerk.......
"Your product broke not long after I got it.
I have been using it - while broken - because I was told I could fix it if I tried really hard.
However, nothing I have done has fixed it and your product simply does NOTHING that you claimed it would! :sad:
So take it back, your product is a sick joke".
*Throws it over the customer service counter so it will smash when it hits the floor next to the sales clerk's feet* : P
theslowesthand
Banned
There's only one way to beat them - internally (with your thoughts), as u can't stop them saying what they say, thinking what they think, etc.Pissed off! Went out to a concert a couple nights ago, couldnae enjoy the experience because of a remark one of my sister made to be afore ah left the house :sad:
I am so sick of constantly being judged. Everything ah do seems to be total wrong, so I'm just going to give up making an effort. Cuz, clearly, forcing me to interact socially with a group of people who seem to enjoy making me miserable isn't worth the hassle. :kickingmyself: But that's apparently my fault.
Ah mean, would any of you here willing speak to be people who do nothing but criticise ya? I wouldn't. but then, ma experience in life has taught me people who constantly bring ya down aren't great to be with from the off.
2017 might be ma final year living, since ah cannae put up with much more of this "Do as we say, or else..." b*llocks.
In theory, the following could work:
- About an unplesant remark made: 'That aint't necessarily true'
& 'That aint't necessarily bad' & 'I reject those words' (visualize throwing the words in trashcan)
- About an unplesant judgement made: 'I aint't necessarily in the wrong' &
'I aint't necessarily (judgement)' & 'I reject that judgement' (visualize throwing in trashcan)
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Must every decision I made for myself be criticised as wrong?! :kickingmyself: h:
And my family wonders why I've all but given up speaking. :veryangry:
h: And my family wonders why I've all but given up speaking. :veryangry:
theslowesthand
Banned
On this christmas day, i'm feeling just as miserable as per any other day .. in fact more so. I don't know why that is... :sad:
theoutsider
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I wrote a chapter in a new book today. It was the first time I've written creatively in quite a while. It felt good to escape into that part of my mind and let the ideas flow. I always start out with a vague idea of what I want to write and let the creativity take over as I go. It still amazes me how easily that happens. I must do it more often. Maybe I'll make it a new years resolution.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
I think I might do that as well. :thinking: Just need the inspiration or motivation to do it.