How are you feeling?

Actually i'm feeling sad. Everything i do goes wrong.

Embarrassed. I just want to go hide in my cocoon. It would be nice if there was someone to cuddle with in there, but it looks like I'll be alone as usual.

Angry, confused, stressed, scared, anxious, depressed. Yeah that about does it for now. Waking up every morning asking myself the same question over and over. Why am I still here when I have nothing to look forward to other than these issues that never leave me alone?

:kickingmyself: Who gives a fu,,,!! Sorry, just pissed off that ma ain mother always hus tae git everythin' her way. A feminist and a control-freak... Nae surprises there!

Do the youngest members of tha family ever get treat like adults by tha rest o' tha family? Or are we forever seen as shy but sensible yins with "cute, adorable wee faces"?

Oh... !! And mum doesnae want to sign tha house over tae as we agreed - since ah pay mair f***in' rent for tha place. Naw, naw - cannae huv me be responsible for tha hoose. So much Scotland itself, my dream of bein' independent remains just that... :thumbdown:

Still, ah've only got 10 mair years tae live, anyway... At this rate, puttin' up the amount uh shite ah huv tae tolerate fae those who say they love me. Pfft... Aye right.

Dark. Very dark.

I feel like such a loser

Emotionally lost and alone

Unmotivated...

Had a long walk at the beach and took some nice pictures, felt very refreshing.

spider04 said: ↑

Had a long walk at the beach and took some nice pictures, felt very refreshing.

Sounds like a perfect day.

I'm feeling a little achy, I didn't sleep too well and the bones aren't gettin' any younger.

surprisingly not as bad as I usually am. It's almost scary. I know it is a momentary thing and the craziness that is my usual self will return but still.... Surprisingly feeling somewhat ok right now.

Eh, well... How to word this sentence? :thinking:

Actually am scared shitless at tha thought o' gittin' ma plaster casts off on Monday. Cuz it feels like they're either rubbin' or stickin' tae ma skin around the ankle area an ah dinnae want a repeat o' when ah wus 13 an end up with an infection after gittin' a full cast of ma right leg. Cuz some cunty doctor telt me they could lengthen ma right calf muscle withoot the need for surgery. :kickingmyself: And you'll never guess what it did...? Absolutely f**k all! 😠

Haven't slept well in three nights. It really gets to you after three.

FountainandFairfax said: ↑

Sounds like a perfect day.

I'm feeling a little achy, I didn't sleep too well and the bones aren't gettin' any younger.

I also did not sleep well a day ago and because of that had I no intentions to get out but the weather looked too great to just stay in my room. And last night after coming home from that walk I slept really good!

How am I feeling today? Wishing I was dead. I can't take this hell anymore man I just can't. Every day it's the same misery OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN. I told myself I'd hold out until 35 to see where my life was before I decide to take that final step but my god at this rate I might be lucky to see 32 and I'm 30 already. I didn't ask for life. It's not fair for me to be here when I don't want to be. How much more of this torture do I have to endure. Poor mom if she only knew how much of a loser her son was.

defiance said: ↑

How am I feeling today? Wishing I was dead. I can't take this hell anymore man I just can't. Every day it's the same misery OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN. I told myself I'd hold out until 35 to see where my life was before I decide to take that final step but my god at this rate I might be lucky to see 32 and I'm 30 already. I didn't ask for life. It's not fair for me to be here when I don't want to be. How much more of this torture do I have to endure. Poor mom if she only knew how much of a loser her son was.

Ah sympathize with ye on that yin. Ah often wonder if my mum an family feel tha same aboot me cuz am a loser as well. And nearly 30, too. :sad:

Like a shut in. :s All my assignments just HAVE to be due over the weekend...

A dark feeling has come over me

Rubbish. Hoped I'd be feeling optimistic in what is a big week coming up personally. I just feel like walking out the door, running to a place of solitary peace..

Mah knees, mah knees are beggin' please.

I seriously need to get back in shape.