Well, between wishin' ah didnae exist and wishin' ah could move as far away fae ma family an' the country of ma birth - ah don't whit'd be better, really? :sad:
I had one on my porch earlier today that was severely infested with bot fly larvae*—at least half a dozen, maybe more. It looked miserable, but there was nothing I could do for it. Made me sad.
*DO NOT Google if you're squeamish or have trypophobia.
the" guys with no jobs that get laid anyway" thread was just killed by a guy who thinks women should be put in their place and like it that way.
That a no-score for the men.
^ Well I am very relieved I miss seeing that! lol :oh:
A good feeling comes over me about this time of year when I realize that it is not long until Christmas.
I am lucky I have mostly good memories of past Christmas's, so having the memories floating around my mind when I think of how to prepare for this years Christmas gives me a giddy feeling.:bigsmile::thumbup:
^ Well I am very relieved I miss seeing that! lol :oh:
A good feeling comes over me about this time of year when I realize that it is not long until Christmas.
I am lucky I have mostly good memories of past Christmas's, so having the memories floating around my mind when I think of how to prepare for this years Christmas gives me a giddy feeling.:bigsmile::thumbup:
me too. I love the music, listen to it all season 🙂
^ Well I am very relieved I miss seeing that! lol :oh:
A good feeling comes over me about this time of year when I realize that it is not long until Christmas.
I am lucky I have mostly good memories of past Christmas's, so having the memories floating around my mind when I think of how to prepare for this years Christmas gives me a giddy feeling.:bigsmile::thumbup:
Yea Xmas in Oz.
Memories of it being stinking hot at night, the whole streets families sitting in their front yards, kids playing.. People walking down the street waving and wishing everyone a merry Xmas. Every now and then someone dressed in a Santa suit would walk down the street (usually inebriated lol) throwing Lollies to all the kids..
Good times 🙂
I'm in a good mood. Yesterday I was extremely depressed, and my physical health was also in a bad way. But last night I finally went out for a short bikeride to the supermarket and I started feeling better. I feel like I can do things today, things that seemed impossible yesterday.
I'm in a good mood. Yesterday I was extremely depressed, and my physical health was also in a bad way. But last night I finally went out for a short bikeride to the supermarket and I started feeling better. I feel like I can do things today, things that seemed impossible yesterday.
Its amazing what a difference a day can make. :thumbup:
So down inside. Like a black whirlpool is in my chest..sucking the will to live from me.
Maybe its better if I just end it. No one in my life cares. I don't think anyone would notice me gone anyway. I can't deal with this pain.
So down inside. Like a black whirlpool is in my chest..sucking the will to live from me.
Maybe its better if I just end it. No one in my life cares. I don't think anyone would notice me gone anyway. I can't deal with this pain.
Sorry, ah don't know whit tae say. Mainly because this is how ah've bin feelin' too. :sad:
I keep going because I have to. Technically I make the choice to do or not do anything, but pressures make it not so simple. I keep looking ahead, to the day I can finally get everything sorted out, whenever that will be. I'm working toward it. I think.
Like ah don't want tae live anymair, huv'nae really got a reason tae keep goin'. Because things jist seem tae be slowly gittin' worse - ma physical health is... Well, crap, really. It's becomin' more difficult tae ignore that fact and no' let it git me doon. Even more difficult is plasterin' on that fake smile tae make other think yer happy when yer no'... Not on the inside, anyway.
Spend the first two hours of the morning at work doing anything in my repertoire to reset my mind: Power poses, reciting my Positive thinking , playing with my dog, forcing myself to smile.
Fortunately it worked eventually. But not before I told the girl to f-off. Not proud of that one.
Like ah don't want tae live anymair, huv'nae really got a reason tae keep goin'. Because things jist seem tae be slowly gittin' worse - ma physical health is... Well, crap, really. It's becomin' more difficult tae ignore that fact and no' let it git me doon. Even more difficult is plasterin' on that fake smile tae make other think yer happy when yer no'... Not on the inside, anyway.
I'm sorry. I feel the same way about my health, it's so bad and it's been this way for a long time, it's really hard mentally, to be feeling ill basically everyday.
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