I'm feeling hungry. I think I'll go make some grits soon, and some bacon and eggs maybe.
I feel pathetic, but only by societies standards.
My own mind does not think I am pathetic.
But I am persuaded and made to feel pathetic on a daily basis by the society we live in.
So within the walls of my house, I am NOT pathetic. But venture outside and I suddenly become pathetic.
This is not fair.:sad:
I know this feeling and it sucks shit. And then you feel bad for being this way. It's a bad combination.Jealous. Ugh, I hate this feeling... Jealous of what my friends have... that is not how I want to be... I have a lot going for me and it's pretty exciting... and many people have things way worse than I do. Why do I have to exert focus to replace the lash of jealousy with gratitude? Does this make me an evil person? I should automatically be happy for them without second thought.
I'm angry with myself, and I'm angry that I'm angry with myself.
I'm stressed about uni.
I feel like I'm being ignored. Two friends of mine never got back to me, one of those I've sent two messages to and there's been nothing. Not just there, either.
I'm lonely as hell. I can't stand being single anymore.
I feel like the biggest loser.
Too much shit in my mind. I want it to stop.
It is almost comical how badly my relationships go...me and people...like oil and water.
anomicdeer said:Just realized that I'm being pessimistic after saying I won't be anymore. I ****ed up my life so much and I didn't get a chance to practice driving enough (**** ONE consequence of my bad decisions) and I have a driving test tomorrow and my LP expires on the 5th, I can't park worth shit...
singing-love said:I think it is about time i put something positive up. I had a great weekend escaping from my life for the weekend with my bestfriend, my second family. Unfortunately you cant escape forever but the two days i escaped for were absolutely amazing. Not particularly enjoying being back, but, i will try and stay positive, things cant be bad forever right?
A dumptruck-size load of batshit paranoia. Only a professional intervention might scratch the surface.
I'm sorry you're feeling that way, hopefully it will pass soon. I hate getting stuck in an obsessive loop.