I feel being sad and down on myself has become so normal for me that I don't even know what being happy and content feels like. I want to be happy for a change, just for once I don't want to wish that I didn't exist.
Sadly, ah can relate to the not wantin' to exist part. And to some extent, the being down on maself so much, ah've become use to it. Ah wish ah could say somethin' to cheer ya up, but can't think of what to say. Anyway, sorry yer feelin' this way, darlin'. Hope ye feel better soon, huh? :thumbup:
Well it used to be my family and now its basically most of the people around me, classmates and such. Here, if you're not loud/over expressive, ridiculously competitive even if you don't get the context you're considered as spineless, moron, I've been called these things. Being quiet is definitely a huge stigma where I live, people actually are ashamed to be introverted as even psychologists consider it some sort of disease.
Yep, ah got that from ma family as well, especially ma oldest sister. To some extent still do, the
"You should be..." speech. Use to hear it from ma dad, too, when he was alive. The f**kin'
"Why are you so quiet...? When are you gonna do that accounting course & do somethin' with yer life?" - sorry, that shit's deeply ingrained.
Being loud in country's culture is seen as awright, at football matches. Bein' quiet is seen as weird. Just half jokin', there. :bigsmile: Generally, being loud can feel quite intimidatin'... for me. Because I come across as an aggressive, angry gobshite. Unless am really mad n' yellin' ma effin' head off. In which case, LOUD GETS THE F**KING POINT ACROSS, if y'know what ah mean... :ironicsmile:
But it's a bit harsh to see introvertion as a disease - though, I can kinda understand why that might the case. Since introverted are, wrongly, looked upon with contempt by society. Since yer expected to be this extroverted, loud, assertive, confident person. That not to say introverts aren't confident or can't be assertive - ah think introvert can be. Just not all the time.
Yer not a spineless moron, Srijita, seriously. If that's the case, then I'm a spineless moron as well, for also not being loud, overly expressive or competitive.
And don't be ashamed to be introverted - there's nothin' wrong with that. As long as yer happy, that's all that matters. Remember that, darlin'. Despite what people might say or think of you. Don't change, just to please someone else, or fit their idea of how they think you should be. Pleasing people all the time, just leds to misery n' feelin' unsure of & down on yersel'.
Right that ma first ramblin', rantin' post done today.