How are you feeling?

I feel like I'll never truly feel "alive"

Lonely again. This feeling has now persisted longer than what I wanted it to. I saw a girl I'm interested in at work today and it made it that much worse. I'm not sure what else I can do except wait it out. I hate this feeling.

Pretty good, bonding with a coworker about being socially anxious. It helps that he has a nice beard. 🙂

Like no one cares, I just want to disappear.

mechanical. when i write emails i mean what i say but... i think it comes across as flattery... but i mean it... and i don't know what else to say...

so, i reread it 100 times in an attempt to whittle it into something "socially acceptable" until the words become indistinguishable. this is why i dread answering emails. exhausting.

Srijita52 said: ↑

Like no one cares, I just want to disappear.

I care Srijita.

Srijita52 said: ↑

Like no one cares, I just want to disappear.

Kiwong said: ↑

I care Srijita.

So do I Srijita. But then, am kinda feelin' the same way as you are, Srijita. So yer not alone. Ah know that doesnae exactly help matter. :sad: Sorry yer feelin' down at the moment, darlin'. Hope ye feel better soon. :thumbup:

Annoyed. Since I have nothing that resembles a social life, all I wanted to do tonight was watch a nice horror movie. Then I get home from work to find out that the cable bill wasn't paid, so I can't watch one. No one cared to inform me. The one little thing I wanted to treat myself to.
To be honest, I am rather annoyed at myself for being annoyed in the first place. It's no big deal. I can pay the bill tomorrow and watch one then. I guess the real frustration comes from me not having a social life, and not the actual lack of horror movies.

Saw a really nice sunset last night at the beach, and the photographs came out all right. The weekend is here, weather is good. Can't complain.

Kiwong said: ↑

Saw a really nice sunset last night at the beach, and the photographs came out all right. The weekend is here, weather is good. Can't complain.

Good to hear, mate. :thumbup:

Right now I feel bloated, gosh I hate this feeling. It's so discomforting... :🙁:

No' daein' too well tae be honest. :sad:

I left work angry today. People kept getting in my way.

Could be coincidence but probably not, but... ever since I spilled (a very small amount) of water on my keyboard, it drives me crazy. It highlights things of its own will, erases entire sentences on me, backspaces letters here and there, clicks things... it's basically sending messages to whatever center in the computer that controls the keyboard and mouse, without me having depressed a key or clicked anything :sad: So it's next to useless, unless I want to finish computer sessions with a massive headache. I get so frustrated that I end up yelling at it. And I can't afford a new computer... bah. :sad:

Kiwong said: ↑

Saw a really nice sunset last night at the beach, and the photographs came out all right. The weekend is here, weather is good. Can't complain.

^ I just took a look at your photos in the link in your sig. Are those first few the photos of the sunset you took? They're beautiful! 🙂

Feeling shitty about myself.:kickingmyself:
I just want to be a normal person.:praying:

Phoenixx said: ↑

^ I just took a look at your photos in the link in your sig. Are those first few the photos of the sunset you took? They're beautiful! 🙂

Thanks Phoenix.🙂 The first one is from Thursday. The ones from Diggers Beach were earlier in the week. I keep an out of the window at work and if the clouds look good I head to a beach somewhere with my camera.

Opaline said: ↑

Could be coincidence but probably not, but... ever since I spilled (a very small amount) of water on my keyboard, it drives me crazy. It highlights things of its own will, erases entire sentences on me, backspaces letters here and there, clicks things... it's basically sending messages to whatever center in the computer that controls the keyboard and mouse, without me having depressed a key or clicked anything :sad: So it's next to useless, unless I want to finish computer sessions with a massive headache. I get so frustrated that I end up yelling at it. And I can't afford a new computer... bah. :sad:

Yeah I know this. What I do now is, when this happens, I unplug my laptop, turn it upside down and shake the water out, then dry it with fan heater. It should work again once it gets dry properly.

Helpless said: ↑

Feeling shitty about myself.:kickingmyself:
I just want to be a normal person.:praying:

Aye, same here. Sorry yer feelin' that way. :sad:

Lately, ah've been bottlin' things up emotionally tae the point where ah want tae explode. Y'know, plasterin' on the fake smile, pretendin' everything's just dandy n' aw that. Realising ah use humour to mask ma problems. Mainly, because ma family huv never been comfortable wi' me, whenever ah open ma gob tae speak about how am feelin'. :🙁:

Opaline said: ↑

Could be coincidence but probably not, but... ever since I spilled (a very small amount) of water on my keyboard, it drives me crazy. It highlights things of its own will, erases entire sentences on me, backspaces letters here and there, clicks things... it's basically sending messages to whatever center in the computer that controls the keyboard and mouse, without me having depressed a key or clicked anything :sad: So it's next to useless, unless I want to finish computer sessions with a massive headache. I get so frustrated that I end up yelling at it. And I can't afford a new computer... bah. :sad:

Lea said: ↑

Yeah I know this. What I do now is, when this happens, I unplug my laptop, turn it upside down and shake the water out, then dry it with fan heater. It should work again once it gets dry properly.

i keep telling you to put some Saran wrap on it :idontknow:

seriously - google it if you don't believe me :thumbup: