How are you feeling?

[MollyBeGood]

Feeling good. Happy it's the weekend and no workers on the bathroom my mom was getting a new floor and things replaced. Glad I can order a pizza since where I normally live (visiting mom atm) there is no delivery for 150 miles so it's been like 3 yrs since I got anything delivered to my door and this is a really fun thing for me LoL it is the little things in life.
I do find the conveniences of the city will make me fat fast if I keep this up though
and I completely unmotivated to do any form of exercise...bad me....

 

[JuiceB]

schoolschoolschool
workworkwork

tomorrow night is the art opening. my ex, who hates me and fell off the face of the earth, decided to invite himself.

anxiety ensues.

Stand strong. We're with you.

 

[Phoenixx]

Kind of excited now. I got a postcard in the mail today from the incredibly awesome girl I talked to at the college the other day who helped me on the tour. :bigsmile: Thank god she sent me something because I totally forgot her name, but I thought she was really cool and we got along so well and I don't think I've ever talked to a new person like that in a really long time. I hope we can be friends because that would be really great. I sound like a little kid, but it's true. It's hard meeting people I'm able to open up with so well, let alone actually talk to anyway. She gave me her e-mail and everything and I shall send something this weekend once I get the chance.

 

[Graeme1988]

Aw, Gawd almighty! F**kin' hell... Woke up wi' a stomach ache this mornin'. Ah can barely eat... :sad:

 

[Graeme1988]

I guess you wont be eating any haggis today then, Graham. I hope you feel better soon though. :thumbup:

Ah, a haggis supper... Deep-fried haggis in batter and some chip (fries), Lovely! Aye, that's a real thing, seriously. Naw! No' the day, mate. As y'know may or may not know, Scotland's motto when it comes to food is the following: Scotland - "We'll Eat Anything... Especially If It's Deep-Fried!" And that statement's actually true :bigsmile:

By-the-way, ye spelt ma first name wrong. Just sayin'... :thumbup:

 

[Graeme1988]

That's my motto, too! Who knows, maybe I've got a bit of scotch in me. Although that could be the Bells Whiskey I drank the other night.

Really..? Serious...?! F**kin' hell! Though, tae be fair, if you've got a bit a Scotch in yersel'... yer nearly steamin' (drunk). Just a wee jokey joke, there... Aw, forget it! :bigsmile: Oh! Ye mean, Scottish ancestry... Ah get ye! A nod's as good as a wink to a blind horse!

Sorry about getting your name wrong, Graeme. I've got a terrible memory for remembering names, but at least I was close. It could have been worse, at least I didn't call you Gertrude or something.

Nae problem, pal - just pointin' out the error. Was'nae offended or anything.

It could have been worse, at least I didn't call you Gertrude or something.

Aye, that's true! Eh...?! Who the f**k's Gertrude, by-the-way? :sarcastic: Awright, awright! Ah'll stop wi' the absurd jokes noo, just in case yer f**kin' sides split fae laughter so much. Or ye break a rib or yer lungs collapse, ye never know! How'd ye explain that tae the A&E department o' the hospital? Be awkward, won't it, eh? :ironicsmile:

 

[Labyrinthine]

Scotland - "We'll Eat Anything... Especially If It's Deep-Fried!" And that statement's actually true :bigsmile:

Words to live by!

Hope you feel better.

 

[Trishanku]

Feeling very lonely. It's Navaratri/Dasara, the festivities are in full swing. The whole ten days starting from today our city and its people are gonna be super busy for what during off season is a sleepy city. It's like Christmas over here. the whole city is buzzing. especially during the evening so many events happening, the illumination of city in itself is quiet an attraction. Family, friends, young & old are busy and making merry attending programes here and there.

I sit here alone and it's one of the most depressing times of the year (another being new year's eve) for me and has been for many years now. when I was in college it was fun with my classmates. since 2007 occasions like these only make me more depressed. My parents, relatives ask me aren't you gonna go out and I'm like "where to, with whom?" worst still when my cousins and other relatives say "Oh! we had been here, we had been there and were you interested in coming we thought of asking you to come but... " I'm like :crying:

I especially can't stand being a loner during new years eve, new year's eve has been the loneliest of times for me all these years. I still remember I was in class tenth in 1999-2000 I was watching 'Titanic' on television and switching channels for the years top 100 songs on Mtv or channel-V or something. I'd rather be dead than feel like a dead dog. You know I always feel sorry for road kills. Nobody cares for these once breathing and alive animals. They lie there dead, mutilated(sorry for graphic descriptions) and they lie there no one cares even myself me and other people just pass It by sometimes covering our nose and making disgusting faces. I at these times of the year feel exactly like a road kill who nobody cares.

I become this anti-social person hating everyone, while feeling sad. It's a bad feeling. My therapist on the other hand thinks this is the best opportunity that I need to make use of, "an antidote to my social phobia" he says. He says friends or no friends I have to get my *** off the couch and get involved in the celebration. I do want to do that. but, the only anxiety bumping into my acquaintances, relatives and family and them asking "who's with you" then I'll be feeling like this lonely creep out in the dark.

I really want to get out, be there even if all by myself and may be i'll just roam around from one venue to other all me and myself for company, may be take my camera with me.

 

[Graeme1988]

Words to live by!

Aye! Here's tae death by heart failure n' terribly lazy food choices! (Be it fast food, deep-fried pizza, deep-fried haggis or deep-fried Mars Bar) Mmm... A deep-fried chocolate bar. Yummy, no? *Barf! As if the chocolate bar was'nae bad enough!

:brindis: So... Raise yer glass n' get that pint doon yer neck! :sarcastic:

Hope you feel better.

Aww! Thanks darlin'... :thumbup: Ah'll be awright 'n' feelin' better in a few days.

 

[Labyrinthine]

Aye! Here's tae death by heart failure n' terribly lazy food choices! (Be it fast food, deep-fried pizza, deep-fried haggis or deep-fried Mars Bar) Mmm... A deep-fried chocolate bar. Yummy, no? *Barf! As if the chocolate bar was'nae bad enough!

:brindis: So... Raise yer glass n' get that pint doon yer neck! :sarcastic:



Aww! Thanks darlin'... :thumbup: Ah'll be awright 'n' feelin' better in a few days.

haha. Don't forget the deep fried stick of butter!
... I might just have to pass on that one.

 

[Erick1]

:blushing: okaish

 

[S_Spartan]

I feel like I don't matter much in this world, and in reality, I don't.

 

[ukmale]

You have no clue how much I hate the world right now I feel sooo pissed off I feel invisible hated by everyone and unloved

About 2 days ago had a phone call from a mate it was about 2 hours along bla bla bla you know what's its like then but at the time didn't worry me but 2 days later it hits me like a large bat hes a shortish guy but works out eats healthy has a good job has own flat 2 cars looks good has the confidence and is pretty large down there he anit scared of getting it out and showing it off on a night on the town he's one of the biggest players on earth hes does a lot of travelling though work he meets girls all over the country for one offs he has 5 girls he sees and takes on dates regularly and can pull any chick out clubbing he is enjoying himself I don't blame him but the fact that he can't just say right this week I'm in this town bang click of his fingers and he can meet any chick online has 5 regular girls where I get ridiculed publicly humiliated I can't go out partying on a night on the town with friends coz some drunk girl will slip her hands down my pants then il have her and her mates talking about how small I am I have had one girl take a pic post it as her profile pic and had her friends shout out tiny ect and walk up to me while I was walking back from shop with my mum and sister when I was about 17 I am publicly really ridiculed infront of my own ****ing family for shit sake for being born small I hate my life and I hate my town il be out having a coffee with friends and il have to say I'm not interested when a girl that doesn't know me wants to swap numbers as what's the point soon she finds out she will tell her friends and then in public they will pester me asking me questions sex is awkwared and a embarrassment I was even asked if I was in there comes a point where your to small to do anything and there comes a point where being publicly ridiculed is just to much I can't even let my hair down have a drink and get drunk I was even at a friends bday party enjoying myself had a friend of another mates gfs sit on my lap talking well let's say it got me hot under the collar and she started putting her hand under my pants and bang she walked off laughing so few yrs ago just become house bound put tons of weight on and feel can't even go outside

Hate my life hate this world they treat me like I don't have feelings in the ****ing street family around other familys ect people walking by and from across the street she single mother was a baby in pushchair shouted out about tiny ect what the Hell like its like people want me to snap and go on a rampage like really publicly in day light shouting it out I have to live knowing every girl I meet will laugh walk off and tell all her friends I have to live with the fact I will never have a family ect just to live alone for the rest of my life being publicly ridiculed for being born small like

 

[Opaline]

I don't know what to do... My stepfather keeps being nasty and picking on my 16-year-old sister. For the past week he's been calling her a little asshole and mocking her. Confronting him about it only makes him angry. He's being nasty to my mother, too. And he's just been verbally and emotionally abusive to everyone in general lately, switching his anger from one person to the next. I hate him hate him hate him so much and I honestly wish he dropped dead of a stroke or something I don't care how bad that sounds because he's HORRIBLE. I just don't know what to do, I feel helpless. What is there that I can do??? I can't talk to the police because there isn't enough for them to do anything, and my mother doesn't want them involved. I can't leave, and even if I could I couldn't take my sister with me! What do I do????? (((

 

[ukmale]

I don't know what to do... My stepfather keeps being nasty and picking on my 16-year-old sister. For the past week he's been calling her a little asshole and mocking her. Confronting him about it only makes him angry. He's being nasty to my mother, too. And he's just been verbally and emotionally abusive to everyone in general lately, switching his anger from one person to the next. I hate him hate him hate him so much and I honestly wish he dropped dead of a stroke or something I don't care how bad that sounds because he's HORRIBLE. I just don't know what to do, I feel helpless. What is there that I can do??? I can't talk to the police because there isn't enough for them to do anything, and my mother doesn't want them involved. I can't leave, and even if I could I couldn't take my sister with me! What do I do????? (((

Dude I know what you mean I understand my grandad is the same way ex army guy when I help him out he will say stuff like your ****ing unless and I told him to stop bullying me and he went on for about a hour that im a lier why would I say such nasty things simple for me I just stay in my room when he pops over and he got bored of asking for my help don't even bother with the old cunt now he is one nasty ****er I would have killed him if it didn't stop he is so nasty calling me a useless cunt ****er to my face like bit wrong think so bad I was working with him from 6am till 5pm 6days a week for 9weeks to flip a house do t up sell it on it was Hell I did that from the age of 16 till about 22 shit me Hell just Hell worse time of my life get a drip of paint he would go on one for a whole hour it was pure Hell I don't even bother seeming him now il just stay away when he pops over as if I don't call him grandad he will row with me can't stand being in the same room as him really can't

For you dude do you have a mum dad nan as you can't live like that it mess up your self worth your self esteem you need it to stop dude you really do you have to tell dude as he will **** your lifes up for many yrs to come

 

[Opaline]

Dude I know what you mean I understand my grandad is the same way ex army guy when I help him out he will say stuff like your ****ing unless and I told him to stop bullying me and he went on for about a hour that im a lier why would I say such nasty things simple for me I just stay in my room when he pops over and he got bored of asking for my help don't even bother with the old cunt now he is one nasty ****er I would have killed him if it didn't stop he is so nasty calling me a useless cunt ****er to my face like bit wrong think so bad I was working with him from 6am till 5pm 6days a week for 9weeks to flip a house do t up sell it on it was Hell I did that from the age of 16 till about 22 shit me Hell just Hell worse time of my life get a drip of paint he would go on one for a whole hour it was pure Hell I don't even bother seeming him now il just stay away when he pops over as if I don't call him grandad he will row with me can't stand being in the same room as him really can't

For you dude do you have a mum dad nan as you can't live like that it mess up your self worth your self esteem you need it to stop dude you really do you have to tell dude as he will **** your lifes up for many yrs to come

I'm sorry you have to deal with that too...

In my house this has been going on for over 10 years now. I lived with my grandparents at one point but they're awful too so I had to leave... It's a long story. But basically at this point there is nowhere else for me to go. My mother wants him to leave (again). She's going to talk to him when they're both sober. I really hope this is the last time he's ever living in this house, but history tells me it won't be................

 

[ukmale]

I know what you mean dude history has a habit of repeating itself sadly like my mother bitch doesn't know what a rship is and will marry anyone at the drop of a hat she has been married 6times one guy twice ones so get your mum to kick him out tell her you can't live like that dude .. leave dude when your old enough im playing on leaving change my name move somewhere else in Europe and never return to this shite town and shite people so called family they say you can't pick your family yeah but bloody well cut them off in life im leaving and never looking back again dude you should do the same take ur sis when ur old enough you can't live In a household like that dude its wrong and mess with ur mind for life

 

[dottie]

neurotic.

k i gave what i could. released to the world... but i still feel a residual stress. let go of me.

sometimes i think that stress clings to me... maybe i need to take that perspective... we always tell ourselves, "I AM stressed," or "I HAVE stress." like we are inseparable from stress because it is IN us and a part of who we are. maybe we need to consider stress as something that clings... it's like static cling. if i just do *this action* it will release itself from me. if i get up and walk around it will release itself from me, like rubbing a dryer sheet on static cling. or total psychobabble... i'm really tired.

 

[Opaline]

There was an incident and someone called the police and he's gone now. My mother plans on getting him taken off the lease on Monday and says he won't ever be back. Here's hoping...

 

[dottie]

@opa smh i don't know what to say... except thinking of you. hang in there. i am proud that you are still thriving in the face adversity.