How are you feeling?

[Graeme1988]

Unamused that someone still talks about me though I no longer think of them. It feels weird, esp stumbling on people saying things about me. Uncomfortable.

I feel mostly sad at the moment. It seems that too much has happened in a short amount of time and I'm having a hard time adjusting to the change. I feel alone and while seeking someone to talk to, it seems like everyone isn't there. Well, no one I really want to talk to at the mo. while others are likely sleep like normal people.

I'm disappointed that I tried to get close to someone who just...keeps showing over and over that they are not the person I thought or wanted them to be. I'm so desperate to be close to someone that...this person comes off as someone harmless and as if a bond can form. BUT...but...they're not. And a lot of times... I just want to say **** it but my mom and other family will not let me be mean about it anymore...

I'm also restless. Maybe a close friend or family member to chat with isn't the answer and good quality time alone to process is more necessary for my current issues???

Sorry yer goin' through a difficult time the now, nicole. Feelin' down n' alone. Aye, it's no great overhearin' folk talkin' about ye.

Mibbe it'd be best tae huv some time alone tae reflect for a wee while, before talkin' about yer current issues. And it might be best tae talk to someone who ye feel comfortable around, or somebody who'll listen to you, at least. Ah know ye want tae be close tae someone, but ye cannae force or rush somethin' like that... just sayin'.

Hope that's o' some help? If no, then feel better soon, darlin'. :thumbup:

 

[MollyBeGood]

Awe thanks Opal That would be great.

"sucking the life" Kiwong you nailed it.

 

[PrincessKitty]

I don't know. But its the anxiety. I have good days and bad days. But today. Hmmm quite bad i guess

 

[Steiner]

I am eating one of those tiny bags of chips. Tastes like chips. The weather is perfect today. 70 degrees F and raining.

 

[neardeath]

Woke up for the second time since the 36 hour drive. I feel like I am in a dream. So glad my grandson is here! He is reason to live. I have to get it together here.

So tired, I am wobbling on my feet! Back to bed. Recuperate. At least it is dark and cloudy so a good day to nap all day. Love my blankie.

 

[Steiner]

Woke up for the second time since the 36 hour drive. I feel like I am in a dream. So glad my grandson is here! He is reason to live. I have to get it together here.

So tired, I am wobbling on my feet! Back to bed. Recuperate. At least it is dark and cloudy so a good day to nap all day. Love my blankie.

I love my blankie too. ugg so soft and cushy. :blushing:

 

[Nanita]

I´m worried about going away tomorrow, to the capital (5 hours drive with an old friend). We´re gonna go to a concert there. And then I´ll be staying in the city for a few days, in an empty apartment that belongs to another old friend.
I´m worried about the whole thing, even though I´m aware that probably nothing bad will happen and that this is just my own anxious self, obsessing over small things that aren´t even that scary. I hope I won´t be getting panic attacks.

Hmm I seem to have mostly "old friends" these days. Old friends that I rarely see.
I´m lonely and isolated.

 

[neardeath]

considering another med trial. Fear there is no help for me. I need a miracle.

 

[this_portrait]

Absolutely miserable. I wish someone would just put me out of my own misery.

 

[Phoenixx]

I think I'm melting. It's so hot. :crying: Also, I'm bored.

 

[MikeyC]

I woke up this morning and realized I really need some sort of change in my life. (Small changes, that is. I don't always handle drastic large changes well) Whether to go somewhere, do something different, change up the typical lazy routine, something. Then I went outside on the patio and felt how disgustingly hot it was for 9:30am so I crossed off going anywhere off the list today.

I think I'm going to dig out some family photos for a project I've been wanting to do for a while. Then maybe start planning a couple short trips for next month to some colleges I've been looking at.

Small trips are good. They're not huge but it's a nice break from the routine. Do it!

Woke up for the second time since the 36 hour drive. I feel like I am in a dream. So glad my grandson is here! He is reason to live. I have to get it together here.

So tired, I am wobbling on my feet! Back to bed. Recuperate. At least it is dark and cloudy so a good day to nap all day. Love my blankie.

Hang in there! You're doing great. :thumbup:

 

[MikeyC]

I'm doing well, except for two things:

- I am feeling loneliness because of Fiona and due to not really having any friends to hang out with.

- I have to make a phone call or two and it's unnerving me! I think I might wait on that one. :bigsmile:

Despite them, I'm actually feeling good. :thumbup:

 

[MollyBeGood]

Why is calling family members so hard? I am feeling like a pile of dookie for putting it off again. I prefer email but everyone wants to talk on the phone.

 

[Opaline]

I'm really confused. I don't want to be a people-pleasing spineless doormat, but I don't want to be a bitch. It seems like there's a fine line between the two. You must always maintain a perfect balance or you'll be called out on it and people will complain about you. If you stray too slightly in either direction you're going to have a hard time. If you have the confidence, you just don't give a shit what people say about you and you move on and all is well in your world. If you're insecure, you either pretend to not give a s**t but then become paranoid when people pick up on your "don't give a s**t" attitude and talk about it and then you cave and apologize and feel bad about yourself, or you just skip directly to that step, and then people proceed to take advantage of your niceness once again. And then you beat yourself up for thinking in this sort of depth because people keep telling you that you think too much and that you're too sensitive. Sorry, I don't know how else to be! This is how I sort things out in my mind, I think I am literally unable to do it any other way. I'm also female. Just saying...

Apparently I'm just all wrong inside and out and yes I lack confidence and it's off-putting but I'm tired of fighting it. I think I just... need to be alone for a while. I feel alone but I feel like I just keep pissing people off and giving off the wrong vibes.

 

[jc972]

Meh............

 

[Opaline]

I'm doing well, except for two things:

- I am feeling loneliness because of Fiona and due to not really having any friends to hang out with.

- I have to make a phone call or two and it's unnerving me! I think I might wait on that one. :bigsmile:

Despite them, I'm actually feeling good. :thumbup:

Sorry you're feeling lonely Mikey. I thought you had friends though - are they not around?

What phone calls do you have to make? (pardon if I'm being nosey )

Good it's not bringing you down though.

 

[springk]

I wont waste this day noooooo!! Please Please give me some peace and ahh stop that strange ache in my heart. What is wrong with me?

 

[jc972]

Meh............

At this very minute I'm haunted by the sins of my past while I hope and pray that my sons don't follow a similar path. I was upset with all kinds of feelings as an adolescent not having my real father and the feelings manifested themselves in such as stealing cars, starting fires, and other acts of random malice. Later, I grew up and swore an oath to protect the citizens and property but it's still haunting to know what I did for fun a decade ago. I will be there for my children. They will never, ever feel shunned or otherwise unwanted by me. That is my main priority.

 

[MikeyC]

I'm really confused. I don't want to be a people-pleasing spineless doormat, but I don't want to be a bitch. It seems like there's a fine line between the two. You must always maintain a perfect balance or you'll be called out on it and people will complain about you. If you stray too slightly in either direction you're going to have a hard time. If you have the confidence, you just don't give a shit what people say about you and you move on and all is well in your world. If you're insecure, you either pretend to not give a s**t but then become paranoid when people pick up on your "don't give a s**t" attitude and talk about it and then you cave and apologize and feel bad about yourself, or you just skip directly to that step, and then people proceed to take advantage of your niceness once again. And then you beat yourself up for thinking in this sort of depth because people keep telling you that you think too much and that you're too sensitive. Sorry, I don't know how else to be! This is how I sort things out in my mind, I think I am literally unable to do it any other way. I'm also female. Just saying...

Apparently I'm just all wrong inside and out and yes I lack confidence and it's off-putting but I'm tired of fighting it. I think I just... need to be alone for a while. I feel alone but I feel like I just keep pissing people off and giving off the wrong vibes.

Has all this come from your time as a manager?

Sorry you're feeling lonely Mikey. I thought you had friends though - are they not around?

What phone calls do you have to make? (pardon if I'm being nosey )

Good it's not bringing you down though.

Thanks for the concern, Opal. I have one friend I hang out with and he's not always available, so I do get some lonely feelings, especially now. I will work through them in time. As for the calls, there's a course I want to do but I need more information on it and the emails aren't working, so I have to call. Yikes! I'll do it, though. "Be afraid but do it anyway."

It does bring me down a little bit, especially the loneliness (I get why it's crippling for some), but I'm enjoying my own company.

At this very minute I'm haunted by the sins of my past while I hope and pray that my sons don't follow a similar path. I was upset with all kinds of feelings as an adolescent not having my real father and the feelings manifested themselves in such as stealing cars, starting fires, and other acts of random malice. Later, I grew up and swore an oath to protect the citizens and property but it's still haunting to know what I did for fun a decade ago. I will be there for my children. They will never, ever feel shunned or otherwise unwanted by me. That is my main priority.

Do you think that a lot of criminals - petty or not - do these things because of a lack of love? Having been in that situation yourself, I reckon you'd have a better idea as to why these people do these things.

 

[Steiner]

Just woke up. My sleep schedule is waaaaay off

edit. Still sleepy after having just slept for 11 hours.