How are you feeling?

[Phoenixx]

Worrying to the point of tears again. Why can't I ever stop? That's all I've done half the summer is worry worry worry. Worry about getting a job. Worry about money. Worry about my parents. Worry about what college I'm going to go to next a year from now. Worry about the future in general. I can't stop and I don't know what to do. It's not like I haven't tried applying for a job, because I did apply to the only one I knew was hiring, but it's been over a week and I haven't heard back from anyone. Looked for more this morning, but didn't find a single thing.

Distracting myself is not working today. :sad: I just really hate myself and my situation anymore.

 

[coyote]

Worrying to the point of tears again. Why can't I ever stop? That's all I've done half the summer is worry worry worry. Worry about getting a job. Worry about money. Worry about my parents. Worry about what college I'm going to go to next a year from now. Worry about the future in general. I can't stop and I don't know what to do. It's not like I haven't tried applying for a job, because I did apply to the only one I knew was hiring, but it's been over a week and I haven't heard back from anyone. Looked for more this morning, but didn't find a single thing.

Distracting myself is not working today. :sad: I just really hate myself and my situation anymore.

sounds like you could benefit from therapy and/or anti-anxiety meds

how is the doctor thing going? maybe that should be your first priority right now so that you can get the help you need to cope with all the other stuff

 

[Phoenixx]

sounds like you could benefit from therapy and/or anti-anxiety meds

how is the doctor thing going? maybe that should be your first priority right now so that you can get the help you need to cope with all the other stuff

^ I've been thinking about therapy again, but I just don't know. I had found one back in January nearby that accepted my insurance and everything, but I ended up having to go to a special nutritionist instead to tackle my other health issues. That has been going great actually, it just sucks everything has to be paid for out of pocket because insurance won't cover it. My diet changes and the supplements I've been taking have been slowly healing the myriad of problems I've had for a while, but it's not quite touching my anxiety as much as I wish it would. I talked this over with my nutritionist and she said my anxiety and depression should ease up eventually, but it still going to take a while. My thyroid and adrenal glands are pretty messed up and have been for quite some time, and she believes that's the main reason why I have as much depression and anxiety as I do -- also not taking into account other emotional and mental factors from past experiences/situations. I do believe her, because when I first started this whole health procedure I did see a bit of a change, and more than once I've had anxiety free days this year and more optimism, but lately everything's been feeling like it's back to square 1 as far as the anxiety and depression go.

 

[MBinMN]

Sad, alone, misunderstood, lost, disliked, wanting to change things but can't because it affects my husband

 

[coyote]

^ I've been thinking about therapy again, but I just don't know. I had found one back in January nearby that accepted my insurance and everything, but I ended up having to go to a special nutritionist instead to tackle my other health issues. That has been going great actually, it just sucks everything has to be paid for out of pocket because insurance won't cover it. My diet changes and the supplements I've been taking have been slowly healing the myriad of problems I've had for a while, but it's not quite touching my anxiety as much as I wish it would. I talked this over with my nutritionist and she said my anxiety and depression should ease up eventually, but it still going to take a while. My thyroid and adrenal glands are pretty messed up and have been for quite some time, and she believes that's the main reason why I have as much depression and anxiety as I do -- also not taking into account other emotional and mental factors from past experiences/situations. I do believe her, because when I first started this whole health procedure I did see a bit of a change, and more than once I've had anxiety free days this year and more optimism, but lately everything's been feeling like it's back to square 1 as far as the anxiety and depression go.

sounds like you're on the right track - just keep thinking long term, and try not to get too discouraged during the dips in the road

 

[planemo]

Sad, alone, misunderstood, lost, disliked, wanting to change things but can't because it affects my husband

what do you want to change?

 

[laure15]

I'm sick and tired of people saying or implying things like "if you've never dated anyone, you have never experienced love." Romantic love is just one type of love. There are other types of love like love for your parents, family, friends, God, and even pets. I have love for family, friends, God, and pets. This doesn't make me any inferior to people who have boyfriends/girlfriends/partners. But the media is giving people the wrong idea about love by emphasizing romance and sex.

 

[Phoenixx]

sounds like you're on the right track - just keep thinking long term, and try not to get too discouraged during the dips in the road

^ Funny, my nutritionist said nearly the same exact thing. I've been trying to keep with the positive thoughts, but it's extremely difficult when so much starts to weigh on your mind.

 

[eduaugu]

sorry for posting it here but i noticed it´s one of the most visited posts, so guess it´s worth it... or not... i just don´t know...:question:
i´m 36 and two weeks ago i found out i have sa and then i discovered this site and now i´m here. so, if anyone would like to talk i´d be glad to hear, and anxious(sorry bout the word) to learn more bout it. untill then i thought i was a kind of alien, but now i found out bout people who suffer much more than i do and i guess it´ll be nice to help as it´ll be nice to be helped.
looking forward to any contact

 

[spider04]

Not feeling that great, I was really worrying about something Friday, and even after everything was done that day I'm still feeling weird and fatigued now:sad:

 

[Opaline]

Want to give up on everything.

 

[jaim38]

I went out with my family and drove for the first time in 2-3 years. I was afraid I'd forget but surprised myself when I actually drove well. The whole ride went smoothly for the most part. We went to the supermarket and tried hard not to stare or give awkward eye contact to anyone. I also tried standing up straight. It was a total contrast to many years back when I would hunch my back and look at the floor a lot. Looking back, I realized how far I've come.

But the whole 2-3 hours trip didn't go without a hitch. I was still shy and couldn't say “Hi” or “Thanks” unless someone initiated first. On the way back home, I was driving on the left lane and some car behind me honked. I had to change lanes to let this car pass. It was a bit scary and I try to tell myself this is not a big deal. I wasn't even driving slowly but some people were impatient and wanted to speed. I shouldn't beat myself up over it.

I also noticed that in the supermarket I started talking incessantly with my parents, like it was a defense mechanism or something. Whenever I feel anxious and awkward around people, I started yapping. I guess it helps to “break the ice”, as bizarre as it sounds.

I don't know if I want to wake up this early again just to go shopping with my parents but I'm so proud of myself for what I did today. It's definitely a step forward in the right direction, at least I'm not stagnant anymore.

 

[ForWantOf]

I ****ing hate myself.

 

[jc972]

Last night before I have to go back to my job. Didn't get to do any of the things I really wanted to do. So little time in a day :kickingmyself:

 

[sahxox]

Better. Just gotta put my mind to it - lame, but if you believe, you can achieve.

 

[this_portrait]

Hopeful as far as the job situation goes. I got a call today from two places. Both are staffing firms, one of which I've signed up with before and one I haven't heard of. I'm not sure about the first one, but I looked up the second one and it has a rather high rating, and not a lot of staffing agencies have that, so maybe they'll actually live up to their promises.

 

[MikeyC]

sorry for posting it here but i noticed it´s one of the most visited posts, so guess it´s worth it... or not... i just don´t know...:question:
i´m 36 and two weeks ago i found out i have sa and then i discovered this site and now i´m here. so, if anyone would like to talk i´d be glad to hear, and anxious(sorry bout the word) to learn more bout it. untill then i thought i was a kind of alien, but now i found out bout people who suffer much more than i do and i guess it´ll be nice to help as it´ll be nice to be helped.
looking forward to any contact

Welcome to the forum.

I ****ing hate myself.

Why?

Last night before I have to go back to my job. Didn't get to do any of the things I really wanted to do. So little time in a day :kickingmyself:

I understand that sometimes. When there's lots going on, it's hard to fit everything you want to do in, but the fact that you remained busy all day must've been nice, right?

Better. Just gotta put my mind to it - lame, but if you believe, you can achieve.

Too right! :thumbup:

 

[Nanita]

I´m okay. The weather is so beautiful but today I haven´t been out. I´m stuck. I have to drag myself to do things.

 

[Phantasystar4]

Today i'm feeling terrible. Just one of those days where I have the impression that no one can stand me.

 

[Phoenixx]

Unsure of what to do. I really don't feel like making a thread, so I'll ask here and see if anyone can help me.

I recently applied for a job at a local convenience store/sandwich shop a couple weeks ago. This is the only place I found that was actually close to me (10 min. drive; I live in a rural area and everywhere else is 20+ min. drive away. Price of gas really sucks) that I could work at that I'm comfortable with and that is currently suitable with my other health issues. My friend also worked here before she moved out of state a couple weeks ago. Plan was she was leaving, I would apply, then I would be the replacement. Before she left, my friend told me her boss really liked my application. Thing of it is, I haven't heard back at all since I turned it in. So... should I go back and ask about it? I really don't know, or understand, proper job etiquette. I've heard more than once it's apparently appropriate to check-in with the employer about the job if you don't hear anything back from them within a week, but to me that really just sounds like you're pestering them. If they were actually interested in you, they would take the time to contact you right? Not wait around for you to make the move...? You'd think I'd know this by now, but I don't. mg:

I'm desperate for a job, as I am taking a whole year off as soon as I'm done with this last college course I'm taking (I'll be finished and getting my associate's next month) to focus entirely on myself, and my health, and to earn money before jumping right back into college again to continue my education. As much as I want to get started, I don't want to hurt my chances at the only job I found that I could work at. So basically, should I chase or should I wait?