Is there anything you can do to change your situation? I am really sorry to hear you complaining all the time like this.
Sorry, if am bring the forum down with ma negativity. :sad:
Eh, well...surgery is an option to "
fix" ma cerbral palsy to some extent. But ah don't know if that's just me makin' up for lost time? Since I'm approaching 25 years old, and feel like I missed out on a lot of stuff during ma teenage years, as a result of ma disability get worse when I was about 12 years old. :idontknow:
But ah think most o' ma insecurites are relate to how ah was raised - shelter, mollycoddled upbringing. Kinda f**ks you up - especially when yer mother has a distrust of anyone who isn't family, so it made friends during ma teens difficult to make and maintain. Also, an equally negative, poisonous view of relationships and men doesn't help. And, me, her only son! Ah think ma 2 older sisters turned out a lot better, from a mental and emotional point.
I mean I think I've turned out like my mother - emotional distant, cynical, bitter. Either her or George Costanza from the American sitcom, Seinfeld. In other word, neurotic, self-loathing, and dominated by his parents - yeah, that seems more like me.
Those are just my thoughts, anyway. Ah never really opened up about it much or mention it. Since it quite awkward, or too emotional.